Hi guys,

It’s me again. I have been blah for a while, but I am back to my normal self, whatever normal is. I remember when I was taking psychology at University, and we learned statistics and the norm, and I was like you are kidden right? I am not normal according to some analysis of a selected group of people! How absurd! That’s when I realized as a 19 year old that I am not even close to be defined as one.

You see, most girls would want to get married, settle down, have children, but I have no idea why I don’t want to. It’s not that I don’t want to per say, but what’s the point? I lived 31 years and according to my backward culture, I am far too old and I could be a grandmother, literary. It’s ok! I just gave up with I realized, well, I am not that pretty. I do not have a wow ideal Arabic body. I am very outspoken, very opinionated and I don’t care what I say, because it needs to be said. Also, I don’t communicate with other people. I just go to work, come home and I don’t care to talk. I have 100′s of cell phone minutes that I don’t use at all.

I guess I never wanted to be labeled with that stereotype of a typical Arab and decided to seclude my self. I wonder if people even remember me or know who I am. Have you ever wondered if people still remember you? It’s like you are a walking dead person and people just think you are dead.

Oh what am I talking about. At times I wish I had my own home that I get to decorate my self. I wish I had a garden to plant herbs and flowers. I wish for many things, but I guess people like me are not meant to live the simple life and have to live their lives wondering and imagining things.

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Does this guy read my blog and now he has his own hilarious way of presenting this stuff? I think some stuff is over exaggerated, but damn it is funny!

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I only blog to get attention. Isn’t that why bloggers write on the Internet? (sigh)

I know, a lot of lame comments I get. It’s better if I don’t write a lot to sway the attention for me, but I do appreciate all that still remember me.

Where have I been? Well, watching movies, staying warm, and going to work and hiding in my own office trying to stay warm. It it just the typical winter day.

I have been calm lately. I didn’t want to write because really, what is there to say? I am cold. I am Arab. This is not the weather that my body has evolved to over the years to withstand. I am supposed to be basking in the dessert heat, chilaxin with a camel and eating cactus. Wait, isn’t that a stereotype or just a dream?

What would be my dream right now? I would be lounging in a tropical area or dessert and looking at the clear skies thanking God I am still alive to enjoy it.

Where do you see your self right now?

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Life is hectic! But I learned a few things this week.

1. If you are in charge, you don’t have to justify anything. You are in charge and you do what you want!

2. The world is slowly gearing to women in power. They have a lot of talent and bring personality to the team.

3. I like working with people. I really do because I think team work brings projects to life.

4. I am happy and I know it!

So how is everyone’s week? Mine was great. It was filled with happiness, drama, craziness, calmness, but in the end of the day, I feel ok. Odd I know, but I am trying to think the glass is half full!

Today I was told that no way I looked past 30. I said yeah! I should have been 50!

So that’s my story! Why don’t you tell me yours? What’s up with your lives my friend? Anything you care to share?

Happy, Random Thoughts, Whatever!

Hello everyone.. again!

How is everyone doing? I feel a bit mellow today. I just want to lay back and do nothing. I feel it has been a long hard week. That’s my life every week. Once I reach the end of it I am like dear God! Then it all starts over again on Monday. Oh well!

I was looking at my archives and my emails, and I can’t believe I started my first blog entry in 2005. I don’t even remember 2005. I don’t even remember what I did yesterday, which makes me glad that I do have a blog and I can document my life. Even though I do come across as a pessimist, but I just speak my mind. Every body when they really say what is on their mind then it comes across as not so nice.

I have learned a lot about criticism and rejection from this blog. It helps in life because it really teaches you how to deal with people of every walk of life. I remember when I had my first website back in early 2000 or 1999, and people out of no where did not like me. I didn’t understand why. What was I saying that people didn’t like? I had to learn the very hard way that the truth is not acceptable. Speaking your mind and being who you are is frowned upon. I think I stopped caring in 2006/2007 when I realized that people actually spent their valuable time making hate websites about me and stealing my pictures as well.

I guess you can be loved in different ways.

What is so appealing about my blog and way of writing? Is it just the hard truth? Is it the things that people frown upon and I discuss it? I don’t do anything wrong in life. I am very honest and I learned that honestly is the best solution to all my problems. I sleep well at night. I don’t think and re-think over and over. I don’t hide anything. I am an open book and I learned to live life day by day.

If I have been ignoring or not answering your email, then I do apologize. I am just at a loss of word sometimes. (Yeah! ME!) Also, I do not want to put any advertisements or promote any products. I get a lot of those emails, and I don’t want to clutter my website. I want to redesign it one day, if I have time, and try to be a rebellious Arab girl with a different theme and point of view. For now, let’s all stick to this and see how it goes. It is only the first week of January and things are crazy already. It’s a leap year. It’s 2012. I wonder what scary movie they have up the works on December 12, 2012.

My brain is unstable. I really need more coffee eh?

Time for me to find something to do. Peace!

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