where has the years gone..
I think my problem in my current life is that I think too much.. and I have hard time expressing my self.. I write in this blog because I want to say something.. I want to create an area where I can freely say what is on my mind.. but even then I have hard time.. I do have hard time writing.. I do have hard time thinking about the future.. about life.. I don’t know where I am going… I feel that my life is very slowly moving.. and going to no where.. nothing to look forward to anymore.. if I do have a dream.. someone stops me from hoping.. someone stomps over my dreams and I don’t know how to defend it.. I feel that I am being robbed from the life I want.. because I am not sure what I want.. I keep going from one direction to another wondering what I should do next. I do feel sad and alone. But who should I blame? my self.. but I didn’t want to be put in such a situation.. I keep trying to get out of it but someone out there puts me back into this empty hole.. this empty place where the only person that wants to talk to me is my conscious. My soul.. no one else wants to listen.. I keep talking to my self thinking I am going crazy.. maybe I am crazy.. maybe I am reaching that level of insanity where the only person I trust is me… maybe that’s how it is meant to be.. no one else really cares.. no one else wants to care..
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hi mona,
just to say.. there are people who really cares about you, so please dont feel lonely. Directly of indirectly there are people who cares for you
And I bet you, you will really be in the place where you want to be. Its just sometimes we are on rough roads
You take care of yourself, God will look after you too
i really can relate to every word u have written ..it might sound strange 4 u to think that someone else is feeling the same as u do.. experiencing the loneliness despite all the people surrounding us.. feeling trapped with no escape.. all the dreams benn crashed by someone or somethingi can’t say anything that would help i just want to u to know that u r not alone..nor crazy
What you might be doing is not thinking too much, but reviewing far into the past and far into the future. Doing this is healthy provided it is used to help us live well for today and live the moment the best way we could, not burden us with sadness and sorrow. You’re obviously unique ya Mona. You’re better off being free and spending solitary and peaceful time occasionally rather constant company of people who cannot appreciate your qualities.