I hate that phrase.. “what if?”.. what if what exactly.. go back in the past and change everything.. why do people keep saying what if.. those people who are so unsure of what they want to say or cannot make up their mind.. they keep saying what if this happened.. what if you got this instead.. what if.. it’s so stupid.. people who think like that should be slapped upside the head.. ..

I guess I should slap my self then.. cuz I am guilty of thinking that way too.. what if? What if he still liked me.. what if he one day will like me.. what if things never changed and been happy.. I keep thinking and asking my self these questions daily.. I am sick of thinking.. I feel like I am just getting older and counting the days towards nothing.. what am I counting the days for anyways…? Nothing.. Life has become boring.. I have done pretty much everything that I want so far in life.. that’s it… I know there is more… but what else can I do.. what IF my life was different.. would I have been a different person completely..? I don’t even think I would have this blog because I would not have time to make one.. I wouldn’t write.. I think the reason I got this blog because I have time to write.. yet I don’t care who reads it.. I NEVER go back and READ my blog entries.. never.. even when post post comments I just completely forget what they are commenting about.. I wish I can write more then I do.. more expressions.. more words.. I just can’t.. so much to write but I cannot get the words out.. cannot type them out.. it’s sad.. but I donno.. I will just live with it..

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i have not written for a while.. i had a busy weekend.. (of doing nothing).. lol yah yah… i am watching tv now and all they put is music and stupid singers.. and send sms with your messages.. haha.. i will write more later.. i am just tired of writing..

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You know.. no matter what coffee shop and luxurious top coffee beans I buy.. I still go back to good old tim hortons.. It’s not the best.. but it is cheap.. plus I got my bagel with cream cheese toasted.. all good breakfast with a coffee for 3 bucks!! Now that is something to brag about. I am also a star bucks fan but if I have gotten the same stuff from star bucks I would have paid 4 to 5 bucks for it.. blah.. I just got to work and I am trying to code an administrative section for the website I am making.. Aren’t I making life easy for someone to input stuff to the site? haha.. I got nothing else to do so why not!! An admin section is not so bad but quite useful..

Anywho.. I should continue drinking my coffee and enjoying my quiet morning.. I need a good radio station.. maybe I will go lebanese today and listen to http://www.sawtelghad.com ….

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It was one of those days that I just ended up hating everything.. so tired of everything and everyone.. I think the world around me has become a very small place where trusting others is not quite possible.. I donno.. maybe I am delusional.. but I am so sick of having to deal with other stupid people. People who are selfish and only care about themselves.. it’s pathetic.. really.. people out there.. get a life!

Ranting as usual!

I think I do stupid things in my life.. but that’s ok.. I kind of figured out that I am not normal and do crazy things.. but that’s ok.. no biggy.. .. my blog is getting slower eh.. I think cuz of my spam filter I don’t seem to get 10 emails an hour of crap.. which is great. I am gonna be blog hopping today cuz it is a boring day at work and I am so hot and tired and don’t feel like working.. work is no good. lol I want to chill on the net for a bit then work after lunch finishing up the site I am making..

Also.. I was just on arablounge.. and holy.. man.. some guys on there really don’t read profiles.. they just click on picture when they see a girl online and beg them to talk.. like a few min ago.. I got a guy messaging me begging me to talk to him..he is 40 years old from Jordan.. I just closed the site and gave up.. holy crap.. so pathetic.. Read my profile!! I am picky!! God made me that way!

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