Anyone had that feeling? really.. i been so unhappy with everything.. i am never satisfied.. it’s not greed or anything.. it’s just nothing will make me happy enough.. i dunno.. maybe i am just thinking too hard..here i am at 12:25 am.. writing in my blog.. my thought.. what am i really thinking now? i dunno.. i usually type anything.. no spell check.. no grammer check.. just go with the flow.. writing something for the sake of writing.. lol i know.. it’s silly and pointless.. but really.. what can i rambel on at this hour.. hmm. well.. today i spent the day doing nothing.. so i accomplished nothing of any importance..
well.. today.. “he” came online.. i was suprised.. he hasn’t been online for 1 month.. then suddenly he is on.. i know i am stupid and i said hi.. but for the sake of politeness.. i did know him for 4 years.. so it is a while.. but i dunno.. he changed too much.. that i decided.. i never want to change.. i think it is wrong to change everything about you.. people won’t know you.. people will be dumbfounded and mystified of who you are.. i don’t want that.. i want people to remember mona for certain attributes.. i dont like to change who i am.. i think we are all born in a certain way.. with certain personality.. that the sudden change seems unnatural.. anyways.. back to him.. well.. life will not change for me.. people change to make my life bad and i feel life is pointless.. well.. i dunno.. here i go rambling again about nothing.. about people.. about a person who doesn’t care about me yet i am talking about him in my silly rebellious blog..
i am gonna go to sleep.. this whole post is pointless..