Well.. I wonder sometimes about this.. Those who work compared to those who don’t. I mean how come some people take so much advantage of their work place. They don’t work. They make too many personal calls. They come to work because they want to get paid. That’s it. I mean wouldn’t a person feel guilty? I would. I can’t imagine getting money for not doing any work. That is like winning the lottery pretty much on other’s expense. Not only that. I feel bad for those who do work so hard and not get paid much. Or those who can’t find work at all because they don’t have that much experience or someone has not given them a chance yet to prove their skills. Honestly I feel bad for both. Those who take their jobs for granted and those who are unemployed. I think in reality there is no happy medium and I feel sometimes that life is either black or white.
Well. The reason I don’t like unemployment is then my tax dollars will go to the welfare state. So not a good thing. Then there are those who take their work for granted make me feel like crap going to work and me working (sometimes) just so I can go home and say I have acheived something useful for others to use. So I donno. Maybe I am just struggling with the idea of working still. Although I have been working for 4 years and 4 months now. I am counting the days till my sanity runs out. I wonder sometimes if I will ever get a nice opportunity to be more useful and my work to be recongnized more. I donno. Maybe I should draw more and sell my art work like I used to. I miss art. I should draw more often. I don’t draw as much as I did before. I donno either where all my art work is. I think somewhere in the basement hidden in the dark.. hehe. Ahh memories. And all my art awards and medals. I wonder where I put them. Hmm.. hehe.. I am remembering great stuff while writing this post. Maybe I should go search for stuff..