September 29, 2006 @ 9:06 pm | 2 comments
Interesting conversation..
By: Mona
.......................
I try to not put my conversations online.. but this conversation got me thinking about many things.. and then I was thinking more of how better my life is now..
7:50 PMÂ sxxxxx: hiya
  salam
  how r u
 me: hi
  i am good
  u
 sxxxx: im fine
 me: ur awake :p
  what time is it there
 sxxxxx: lolz
7:51 PMÂ 3:50 am
  sehri time
 me: 
  aah
  ic
  u eating so7oor now
 sxxxx: yep
 me: cool
  we just ate fotoor
  haha
 sxxxx: so how is life
 me: good good
 sxxxxx: thats good
 me: yah
7:52 PMÂ sxxxx: can i ask u something
 me: sure
  go ahead
 sxxxx: u been in love?
 me: lol
  why u asking?
  i don’t believe in love anymore
 sxxxx: just curious
 me: and yes.. i used to like someone
  but that was over with
 sxxxx: was that a one way love?
 me: and i rather not be in such a situtation
 sxxxx: 
7:53 PMÂ me: one way love?
  hmm
 sxxxx: hehhe
 me: yah.. i think it was that way
  and i was dumb
  but i grew up
 sxxxx: hmmm
 me: now i hate him
  very much
  and i regret ever even liking him
  cuz ppl are not what they seem to be
7:54 PMÂ sxxxx: not all ppl
  right/
 me: i don’t know
  sometimes u have really bad experiences in life
  and u try to avoid it in the future
 sxxxx: that doesnt mean all ppl are like that
 me: i know
7:55 PMÂ i am not generalizing
  i am avoiding any further problems or pain caused by such people
 sxxxx: i hope u will find someone u will love and be loved
 me: inshallah
  some day
  for now
  i want to live my life alone
  with no one to worry about
7:56 PMÂ sxxxx: alone?
 me: yah
 sxxxx: that will be hard
 me: eh
 sxxxx: but possible
 me: i am getting used to it
  i get to focus on me
 sxxxx: cool
 me: which i haven’t in a while
  and i am enjoying it
  i am getting things done
  and life is much better
7:57 PMÂ sxxxx: dont depend on others to be happy in life
 me: i know
  i am making my self happy
  on focusing on my selfme: aha
  yah
7:58 PMÂ i just think
  some people out there are very selfish
 sxxxx: true
  materialistic
 me: yah
  and just too selfish.. all they care about is them selves
 sxxxx: they dont belive on feelings but $
 me: yep
7:59 PMÂ and if you mention money to them
  they pretend they don’t have it
———
my perspective on this conversation.. I finally put the period at the end of the line and closed a chapter of my life that I completely regret and hate.. and now I am feeling a lot better about my self. And I am pretty open about it.. and happy..
Loading ...
Most of us have been through disappointements, but that doesn’t mean we should give up and live scared of pain. Rather, we should be more brave and more confident that no matter how hard the pain is, we can heal and move on.
I look at my failures as a normal consequence of my wrong immature choices, and I have this great friend who inspired me and helped me understand all this.
that’s great for you!