Happy New Year everyone. On this rainy strange day that I am not used to I greet everyone with a new happy year. I know it’s not the new year yet in Canada, but still. Everyone else in the world celebrated already.. blah! Anyways.. this year. I will have more realistic new year’s resolutions that I want to go by this year. Not just write them in my blog. I will write them on a piece of paper as things I want to accomplish this year! A task list.
Have an optimistic view of the future.
Try to see the positive side of people.
Try to go out more with people. Not isolate my self regretting the past.
I have to finish my current projects at work!! Aaah it’s taking forever!
Try to network with more people and see what is out there. My city has good opportunities and I really want to work at a digital printing company or a health or environmental company.
Invest in more stocks and bonds since I did really well last year. Doubled my stocks and increased my bonds by 10%! Not bad eh?
Try to be nice to everyone and control my anger. It’s always my problem but I really have to control my temper!
I have to stop reading horoscopes! I know I am a Capricorn and I am awesome! — this will never happen!
Stop arguing. I will never be a lawyer (I hate writing!) so no need to keep arguing! Wait did I just say I hate writing? Now I am on crack! I meant I hate memorizing!
Stop hating rainy weather and blaming the gloomy weather on my depression. I am no longer depressed! I am cool! Been cool for 6 months.. (Why does this sound like I was on drugs?)
Anyways. I bid everyone farewell and wish everyone a happy new year. 2007 will be awesome! See ya next year!
Ok.. I am really sick of going to blogs and seeing people displaying the hanging of Saddam Hussein’s full video. STOP IT! Why is everyone having great joy of posting it? What is accomplished by this? Nothing… Saddam was gone long time ago. Killing him was just a normal Islamic method. In Islam we learned this: “El Katil Yoktal!” .. And that’s it. It means: “He who has killed must be killed!” End of story. No need to display the event everywhere on the net and cheering about it! Millions of people die a day from worst things. Look at the problems going on in Somalia, Asia, other countries with endless wars and problem.
Seeing an Arabic former leader being hanged on international television is a disgrace. Not only that, it was done on our Eid. On the holiest nights of the year! This is not a gift, it was a slap in the face of every Muslim that the world mocks us! No wonder the Arabic world keeps going backwards. So I refuse to go to anymore sites that keep cheering about his death. Believe me. He is gone but some one worse will come. All I can say history repeats it self. Nothing ever changes!
I cannot believe people find joy in the death of others. It’s disgusting. I refused to speak of this yesterday or post about it because I wanted to just enjoy Eid, but I can’t believe people find it joyous cause of his death. And people hope he burns in hell? Believe me. Of all the things he has done in his life time. His hanging and suffering on this earth and his prayers and saying “Ashado anna la illaha illa allah” (There is no God but one God) before he died will make God feel pity on him and not make his after life as brutal as you humans want it to be!
Aaah I am so mad.. Guys grow up seriously and stop posting the suffering of others. If others hated you would you want to see people mocking you and making fun of you?
Ok.. so I went shopping again today.. (AGAIN!) with my mom.. we went to Sears Outlet store. Has clothes, furniture, etc. So my mom loves that place. She finds really good deal and clothes for her liking. I just walk around cause I have no interest in anything really. I just browse through the layers of clothes. Have to fight my way through people just to look at a sweater.. So I just gave up. I was in no mood at looking at clothes. So I went to the furniture section and just sat on a nice wide comfy couch. It was nice! It was $440 bucks too! I was tempted to buy it than I though where the hell would I put this? lol So I will get to my point. I just sat there looking at people passing by. I saw old women that looked like men (I hate boy cut hair cuts on women!) .. I saw lots of Indians and Pakistanis for some reason. I saw lots of Arabs too with their loud abnoxious kids whining to get a toy or eat! But what amazed me most were those obese people. I am not saying fat. I know I am fat with huge Arabic hips but those people are two of me! So I felt sorry for one lady whose boobs were hanging out so far out that they looked like missiles ready to shoot! I was like holy! 8O I felt bad for her cause she looked like at least 300 pounds! Then I saw a guy. Huge guy. Was wearing a tight sweater and had boobs! I looked and I was like wtf! His boobs were bigger than mine!!!!! And he had a huge beer belly. I was like wow. Now that is disgusting. Then I remembered I saw this advertisement for male bras. GUYS WEAR BRAS? That’s just wrong! I was pretty disgusted and tired by then. I just kept looking at people and thought to my self. None of them were in any way attractive. People who come to this store are ugly. I want out! So I went to find my mom and told her to hurry up. She is like no. Go away. Go find stuff to buy! I was so pissed and tired by then. So I went back and sat on the couch and felt really drowsy. This time I sat on a nice leather couch. I am not into leather furniture. But this one was very comfy and had two cup holders. I sat there wondering why there were two cup holders? Then I thought. One for beer and the other one for more beer. This is Homer Simpson’s couch! Aaaah! It needed a holder for candy! It was missing that for sure!
So now I am munching on some chocolate and waiting for 2006 to end. Everyone is afraid of 2007. My mom is like any year with 7 in it was usually a bad year politically and war like. I was like whatever. Every year is like that. Has nothing to do with Gregorian calendar. I am going with Islamic Calendar. It is 1427 hijry. (There is a 7! 8O) Than I thought. I was born 1400! I think.. :S lol or was it 1401? It is in my birth certificate and I have no idea where it is! And the moon years are different. I think it is an extra year than Gregorian. Oh well!
Oh by the way. My mom drove me CRAZY today. Seriously. She kept nagging me and saying why you wearing that ugly green sweater. It’s big on you. I was like wtf. You want me to wear tight clothes. She is like yes. Stop buying clothes too big on you! Wear your real size! I was like wtf. My mom is telling me this! I just didn’t want to argue and just took it off and threw it in her room. Then I felt bad and just threw it in the hamper. She makes me so mad.. then she is like… Why don’t you clean the kitchen. I was like it’s clean! She is like clean your dish… you just cooked and ate. I was like aaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaah. NO! And I went upstairs. She doesn’t ask nicely! She says it like a military command! Than now she went to visit our stupid neighbours and she is like. MONA.. clean the kitchen and make sure the house is clean! I was like YOU vacuumed this morning and everything is spotless and clean. She is like the kitchen is messed up. Everyone just ate so clean. I WAS LIKE WTF! I just ignored her command and now I am up here typing away cause I don’t care! I don’t care! I don’t care……………………… my dad said: “She is bossy. We know that.” I was like you don’t say!
Well.. today is Eid el Adha. It’s celebrated after the 10 day pilgrimage around Mecca. It’s a quieter holiday I believe. But in this part of the world, it is eid and time to celebrate. Eid this year came in a perfect time. Holiday time and weekend! It’s nice. My mom made cookies (ma3mool and ka3k).. Some with dates and pistachios and walnuts. It’s all good.
Other than that.. I am hoping it is a quiet day.
I already got made fun of in the past 10 minutes. Go figure. I think I will just stay in my room for today. Watch movies and enjoy quiet time. I need quiet time! Alone time!
I am cursed. I can only go to the control panel but I cannot view the main page of my site. I have been trying to all day. With talking to tech support and what not. I swear. It’s like the website is jinksed. I am pretty calm and I really didn’t care too much if my site is down or not. But the whole day? Now that’s too much. I am loosing money from Google adsense here.. I mean I am loosing fans.. I mean I am loosing spam.. I mean I am loosing loyal commentators.. So hmm.. it’s because I am on holidays and I am bored out of my mind. I have the blog as an entertainment and place to rant.. I have to rant. Today is a perfect day to rant. My site has been down! Aahh.. Should I switch hosting? Naah. I am too lazy.. and I like the features of my hosting plan.. but I want my site back! Why doesn’t my main page load? I am getting people emailing me and popping messages on msn saying where is your blog? Hell if I know.. Disappeared to the internet black hole. Who cares really. But you got to admit.. I had a blast with the tech support. I saved one conversation (live chat)..
This short conversation took 00:11:59 minutes!
So 12 minutes of my time is not so bad. I had a previous one that lasted an hour of me waiting with no results… but this one is funny..
Mona : (domain: http://www.rebelliousarabgirl.net) I don’t get why this is taking too long.. Is the problem from my side? Because I cannot access any file in the root directory of my site.
You are now speaking with Santiago of Support.
Santiago: Hello Mona
Mona : hi
Mona : can u help me
Mona : i was on this thing for an hour
Mona : and no use
Santiago: k
Mona : the previous guy just said i will tell my manager
Mona : and that was it
Santiago: one moment
Mona : k
Santiago: Database issue, correct?
Mona : i think so
i
Mona : don’t know :S
Santiago: Our Infrastructure (Internal) Department is working on this issue for you.
Santiago: Our manager was notified as well.
Santiago: Once the issue is resolved we will send youa correspondence email.
Mona : but what is the problem. was mysql upgraded is that why?
Santiago: One moment
Mona : ok
Santiago: This is an issue on our end that we are resolving.
Mona : okieeee
Mona : as long as it is not me
Mona : lol
Santiago: I’m sorry for the inconvenience
Santiago: no, it’s not
Mona : its ok.. i was just wondering how long it will take.. that’s all..
Mona : also i got another question
Santiago: Hopefully within an hour or less.
Santiago: Yes?
Mona : did the server just stop or you guys upgrading.. because it would be nice if there was a service status report.. or upgrade notification
Santiago: one moment
Mona : ok
Santiago: I am not sure, that is why they are taking a look at it for you. Once resolved they will let you know.
Mona : ok thank you
Ehm.. laugh.. haha.. more laughter.. wohoo.. It reminded me of this tech support flash movie I saw on illwillpress.com. Watch any video that is labeled Tech Support.. also watch the video “Once you go Black!” .. lool
I have been browsing the net.. I always browse for my family name and Palestine. Just looking for any trace of my family out there that I never met before. Just curiosity and see how my family looks like. I love Wikipedia and I was reading about the Palestinian people .. It’s really interesting.. then I came across this:
The official designation of “Palestinian refugee” refers to anyone who registered as a Palestinian Refugee with the United Nations Relief and Works Agency for Palestine Refugees in the Near East (UNRWA) and any of those registrants’ descendents in the male line. Under UNRWA’s operational definition, Palestine refugees are persons whose normal place of residence was Palestine between June 1946 and May 1948, who lost both their homes and means of livelihood as a result of the 1948 Arab-Israeli conflict.
I laughed. I was like I am registered in the UNRWA. My grand parents fled Palestine to Lebanon in 1948. I keep telling my dad to feel special cause he was the first born refugee in Lebanon in his family. Although my dad is born 1951. It makes him feel a bit special since he was the 5th out of eight kids. Anyways I totally forgot about the UNRWA thing. Cause I remember my grandfather before he died got mad at my mom and told her to register my sister under UNRWA. (They didn’t!) She is born in the USA. It is a guarantee that if our lands ever come back we are registered to get it back. My dad has all the papers and everything to support it. It’s funny cause I was born in Saudi Arabia and it said on my birth certificate for nationality: Palestinian Refugee Muslim. That just proves to you how racist Arabs are no matter where you are born on their lands. No one likes us. Oh I remember one time this person from KSA said to me: “Palestinian are not originally Arabs. And they never will be.” I was like ok. I am sorry that I speak the language and somehow I look like one. That must have been a mistake. So I kept reading the article and I came across this:
“Archaeologic and genetic data support that both Jews and Palestinians came from the ancient Canaanites, who extensively mixed with Egyptians, Mesopotamian and Anatolian peoples in ancient times.”
Ok so we got Canaanites. Ancient lovely people. Then you got the Egyptians.. Love their eyes. We got Mesopotamian.. Hmm.. from iraq/iran/syria .. and we got Anatolia.. which is in Turkey.. sooooooo.. we are a mix of everyone.. No wonder Palestenians are diverse.. yet people stereotype me for not looking like one.. blaaaah.. wtf .. look like what exactly? Then I looked up the word Philistine to make sure I am not loosing the original meaning:
There ya go.. no wonder why this guy down the street who just came from Greece and barely speaks English keeps talking to me in Greek and tells me I am one. No matter how much I deny it. I also remember when my mom goes to the mall and this Greek lady who works in one of the stores tells her you are Greek. My mom is like no. Palestinian. And the lady says.. yes you are from philistine. You are our people and you are Greek. My mom just gave up there. Worst part is that people think my sister is Spanish cause of her name Maria. I don’t even want to get started on that and why my sister has the most common Christian name. Maria was one of the Prophet Mohammad’s wifes! She was an Egyptian Coptic lady he married! So look it up and leave the Spanish part out of it. We are not Spanish nor Greek. We are mixed Palestinian! :P
So being Palestinian is cool you got to admit. We are unique people with cool history and lived in the most controversial most sacred land in the world. So we are cool people with lots of history and we look so diverse! I love being ancient! :yaay:
Ok.. I know I am dumb and I promised my self to not go to arablounge anymore and chat with complete bozos.. so I did yesterday. :weird: .. I know shoot me. Go ahead.. take a Bibi gun and start shooting.. So I reactivated my account yesterday for interest sake. I wanted to see how long it takes for someone to send me a message. The funny thing is guys are becoming more desperate. The moment they read my profile and see my pic (if they read my profile that is).. I get a message with the guy introducing him self and giving me his email and home and mobile number. And they don’t even live in Canada! Seriously why would I talk and call long distance if I don’t know them? Anyways.. yesterday I was completely bored out of my mind and one guy popped out and started talking to me. I have no idea how he looks like but he lives in Mississauga. He is Palestinian and 31 years old.. Not bad I thought. Cuz in reality I am too patriotic and I can only related or talk to other Palestinians. Anyways.. he was telling me he is an engineer from Jerusalem and he moved to Canada 10 years ago and now he owns a construction company. I was like ok.. cool. He has a career. What turned me off were two things. He was too desperate.. He kept saying that I don’t look Arabic. I am not an Arab.. he was like wow. Palestinian girls are not that hot. I was like ok whatever. I told him to stop being too desperate and just talk normal. So I kept asking him and he asked nothing. He kept saying I can move my company and work anywhere.. I am willing to move to London anytime! I was like :S ok whatever.. (London is an hour and half away from Mississauga.) So………. then I kept talking and he just kept saying.. please can I call you .. I was like NO! He is like I am bad at writing (which he was.. I had to sit there trying to figure out his backwards English.. fuck 10 years and he didn’t learn to write!!) So that is my second turn off! People who cannot write or speak English properly.. after that I just said I got to go.. I will be back laters.. and guess what I did! Blocked and deleted! Seriously I was so not interested.. and then I just deactivated my profile again from arablounge and gave up. I give up!
Also I am high on sugar again.. It gives me a lot of energy and I don’t feel depressed anymore! Yum sugar!! No not chocolate.. Just lots of candy and cola and Vimto! I love VIMTO!!
You know… I have not really noticed this way of life as I have seen with Arabs. This double life they live. How can a person withstand to make up so many lies with them and live such a life. I know Arabs who appear so innocent and so conservative in front of their families and public. Yet, when you get to know them and be very close to them you will learn the worst imaginable things. How do they have the energy to make up so many lies and get away with things. I think this problem occurs more often with girls than guys. Even the guys are guilty them selves, but usually boys will be boys and they don’t give a shit. That’s what is scary about the world we live in. So many lies and secrets. I know Arab girls who constantly go clubbing and drinking and have x-number of male acquaintances. I was like wow. Others are girls who wear hijab (head scarf).. and they come to school and take it off and dress with the tightest most revealing clothes under their jackets. wtf I am so dumbfounded with people. I don’t even want to begin with guys. Guys are worse but they all hang out together and do the same shit. They go to clubs, smoke their brains out and drink them selves silly and walk around in down town in the middle of the night being loud and pathetic. Yet.. their parents know nothing about this. It’s funny, the other day a lady came to my mom and asked her about her sons and if she has heard anything about them. My mom was like something like what? (My mom knows but she wouldn’t say anything.) .. My mom denied it because she didn’t want to cause problems and have to tell the other mom where she heard it from… (me) ..
aaah.. the double life. I mean to think about it. I was guilty of it too. Now I don’t live a double life anymore. I am no longer having to make up lies and stay out side the house all day to be with “him”.. nothing.. no phone calls or anything either. My cell phone used to be used and abused.. now I barely use it.. but still thinking about. I never did any of the shit other people do. I don’t think I have the will power to do so. I have too much guilt. I am worst than a Catholic at confessions.. I cannot live with it. I have major guilt problems. Sometimes I feel like I need to tell some people the truth of the shit I did to them or said.. but I am thinking… hmm.. maybe when I am retired and old and people think I am just fucken loosing my mind and I will tell the truth.. then no one would believe me..
Anyways.. back to the double life.. I really like this song.. I was listening to it just now.. and it got me thinking about people and what people suffer through and I just wish people just show their true colours. Just be them selves.. I am bad at figuring out what people are really are. It’s just I except people to be like me. I have this high expectations of people to be like me. If they are not like me. I cannot relate to them. It is hard for me to accept and understand people. I don’t know. I guess I have a lot to learn about life still… I should have a new slogan for my site… “Learning about life .. ”
I love this song .. It’s from the sound track Save the Last Dance… It is originally by Cindy Lauper.. Yes I know Cindy. I was an 80’s child.. I have been listening to music since I was born!! I love music!
Man.. I love Advil Extra Strength Gel caps. Best thing on the market I swear! My head ache is gone..
I took a nice hot shower this morning and I feel fresh. Now I am sitting downstairs watching Satellite TV. A Syrian show. Very nice. I seen it before but if something is good I watch it again. Kind of like an addiction.
Now my mom keeps putting more and more wood in the fireplace. It’s nice and warm in the family room. yaay.. I should take a picture with my laptop since I do have a web cam.
Anyways.. I donno. Last night was pretty bad. My problem is I think waaaay too much. I analyze too much, and I wonder about everything and everyone. I am worse than a cat. Always curious!
Also I just noticed I am officially addicted to coffee. Over the past 6 years I have been drinking it sporadically or just during school or work. Never at home, but now I make a huge coffee pot at home and I drink half of it! HALF! Aaah.. I rather drink Coca Cola and let the acid melt my stomach then be addicted to coffee. I tried one day not drinking coffee and I ended up with a really bad migraine! I just think I need chocolate. I need to get high on sugar again. That’s what I really need now.
I donno anymore. I honestly don’t know. I cannot sleep. I don’t know what to do anymore. All I do is cry non stop and my head is really hurting with a very bad migraine that I cannot type with my eyes open. All I see is a blur. I donno what to do. I donno why this is happening to me again. A de ja vu of the worst things that can happen all at one shot. I feel like an intruder in my own head and the more I think the more my head keeps pounding. It’s times like this where medicine doesn’t really do any good. I cannot spend any more days with no sleeping. My eyes are blood shot red and they are really hurting. I wish just people would leave me alone. People don’t talk to me or ask me anything. It’s times like this where I wish I was just alone and no one talks to me. It’s gotten to the point where I really wish I never was born. I wish I never lived with my family and I was seriously forgotten. Can you believe that your own family would say that you are an embarrassments to them. That no matter how hard you worked in life, no matter what you tried to do, no one will ever say anything nice to you. No matter what you have achieved in life it’s never good. Why don’t people just fucken leave me alone. I am not perfect. But I am not an embarrassment. No one cares how they hurt me. I don’t want people to talk to me anymore. I just hate everything and everyone. Nothing ever makes sense. No one is ever happy with anything I do. I wish I was stupid and dumb and I didn’t amount to anything so I would not feel bad when people say I am nothing. But I am not. But I honestly don’t know what I am to do anymore. I really don’t. I don’t want to deal with this anymore. I am getting old and tired of it. I just wish I can just one day wake up and no one is around me or anything is around me. I just want people to leave me alone. Everyone to just leave me in peace.
My name is Mona and I am an internet savvy and technology obsessed girl. I am originally Palestinian and I live in the province of Ontario in Canada. That's some info about me, and you can learn more [here].
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Ok.. so I went shopping again today.. (AGAIN!) with my mom.. we went to Sears Outlet store. Has clothes, furniture, etc. So my mom loves that place. She finds really good deal and clothes for her liking. I just walk around cause I have no interest in anything really. I just browse through the layers of clothes. Have to fight my way through people just to look at a sweater.. So I just gave up. I was in no mood at looking at clothes. So I went to the furniture section and just sat on a nice wide comfy couch. It was nice! It was $440 bucks too! I was tempted to buy it than I though where the hell would I put this? lol So I will get to my point. I just sat there looking at people passing by. I saw old women that looked like men (I hate boy cut hair cuts on women!) .. I saw lots of Indians and Pakistanis for some reason. 
I saw lots of Arabs too with their loud abnoxious kids whining to get a toy or eat! But what amazed me most were those obese people. I am not saying fat. I know I am fat with huge Arabic hips but those people are two of me! So I felt sorry for one lady whose boobs were hanging out so far out that they looked like missiles ready to shoot! I was like holy! 8O I felt bad for her cause she looked like at least 300 pounds! Then I saw a guy. Huge guy. Was wearing a tight sweater and had boobs! I looked and I was like wtf! His boobs were bigger than mine!!!!! And he had a huge beer belly. I was like wow. Now that is disgusting. Then I remembered I saw this advertisement for male bras. GUYS WEAR BRAS? That’s just wrong! I was pretty disgusted and tired by then. I just kept looking at people and thought to my self. None of them were in any way attractive. People who come to this store are ugly. I want out! 
Go away. Go find stuff to buy! I was so pissed and tired by then. So I went back and sat on the couch and felt really drowsy. This time I sat on a nice leather couch. I am not into leather furniture. But this one was very comfy and had two cup holders. I sat there wondering why there were two cup holders? Then I thought. One for beer and the other one for more beer. This is Homer Simpson’s couch! Aaaah! It needed a holder for candy! It was missing that for sure!
And the moon years are different. I think it is an extra year than Gregorian. Oh well!
I have been browsing the net.. I always browse for my family name and Palestine. Just looking for any trace of my family out there that I never met before. Just curiosity and see how my family looks like. I love Wikipedia and I was reading about the 
There ya go.. no wonder why this guy down the street who just came from Greece and barely speaks English keeps talking to me in Greek and tells me I am one. No matter how much I deny it. I also remember when my mom goes to the mall and this Greek lady who works in one of the stores tells her you are Greek. My mom is like no. Palestinian. And the lady says.. yes you are from philistine. You are our people and you are Greek. My mom just gave up there. Worst part is that people think my sister is Spanish cause of her name Maria. I don’t even want to get started on that and why my sister has the most common Christian name. Maria was one of the Prophet Mohammad’s wifes! She was an Egyptian Coptic lady he married! So look it up and leave the Spanish part out of it. We are not Spanish nor Greek. We are mixed Palestinian! :P
Ok.. I know I am dumb and I promised my self to not go to arablounge anymore and chat with complete bozos.. so I did yesterday. :weird: .. I know shoot me. Go ahead.. take a Bibi gun and start shooting.. So I reactivated my account yesterday for interest sake. I wanted to see how long it takes for someone to send me a message. The funny thing is guys are becoming more desperate. The moment they read my profile and see my pic (if they read my profile that is).. I get a message with the guy introducing him self and giving me his email and home and mobile number. And they don’t even live in Canada! Seriously why would I talk and call long distance if I don’t know them? Anyways.. yesterday I was completely bored out of my mind and one guy popped out and started talking to me. I have no idea how he looks like but he lives in Mississauga. He is Palestinian and 31 years old.. Not bad I thought. Cuz in reality I am too patriotic and I can only related or talk to other Palestinians. Anyways.. he was telling me he is an engineer from Jerusalem and he moved to Canada 10 years ago and now he owns a construction company. I was like ok.. cool. He has a career. What turned me off were two things. He was too desperate.. He kept saying that I don’t look Arabic. I am not an Arab.. he was like wow. Palestinian girls are not that hot. I was like ok whatever. 
I told him to stop being too desperate and just talk normal. So I kept asking him and he asked nothing. He kept saying I can move my company and work anywhere.. I am willing to move to London anytime! I was like :S ok whatever.. (London is an hour and half away from Mississauga.) So………. then I kept talking and he just kept saying.. please can I call you .. I was like NO! He is like I am bad at writing (which he was.. I had to sit there trying to figure out his backwards English.. fuck 10 years and he didn’t learn to write!!) So that is my second turn off! People who cannot write or speak English properly.. after that I just said I got to go.. I will be back laters.. and guess what I did! Blocked and deleted! Seriously I was so not interested.. and then I just deactivated my profile again from arablounge and gave up. I give up!
You know… I have not really noticed this way of life as I have seen with Arabs. This double life they live. How can a person withstand to make up so many lies with them and live such a life. I know Arabs who appear so innocent and so conservative in front of their families and public. Yet, when you get to know them and be very close to them you will learn the worst imaginable things. How do they have the energy to make up so many lies and get away with things. I think this problem occurs more often with girls than guys. Even the guys are guilty them selves, but usually boys will be boys and they don’t give a shit. That’s what is scary about the world we live in. So many lies and secrets. I know Arab girls who constantly go clubbing and drinking and have x-number of male acquaintances. I was like wow. Others are girls who wear hijab (head scarf).. and they come to school and take it off and dress with the tightest most revealing clothes under their jackets. wtf I am so dumbfounded with people. I don’t even want to begin with guys. Guys are worse but they all hang out together and do the same shit. They go to clubs, smoke their brains out and drink them selves silly and walk around in down town in the middle of the night being loud and pathetic. Yet.. their parents know nothing about this. It’s funny, the other day a lady came to my mom and asked her about her sons and if she has heard anything about them. My mom was like something like what? (My mom knows but she wouldn’t say anything.) .. My mom denied it because she didn’t want to cause problems and have to tell the other mom where she heard it from… (me) .. 
Man.. I love Advil Extra Strength Gel caps. Best thing on the market I swear! My head ache is gone..
My name is Mona and I am an internet savvy and technology obsessed girl. I am originally Palestinian and I live in the province of Ontario in Canada. That's some info about me, and you can learn more [
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