Double life ..

You know… I have not really noticed this way of life as I have seen with Arabs. This double life they live. How can a person withstand to make up so many lies with them and live such a life. I know Arabs who appear so innocent and so conservative in front of their families and public. Yet, when you get to know them and be very close to them you will learn the worst imaginable things. How do they have the energy to make up so many lies and get away with things. I think this problem occurs more often with girls than guys. Even the guys are guilty them selves, but usually boys will be boys and they don’t give a shit. That’s what is scary about the world we live in. So many lies and secrets. I know Arab girls who constantly go clubbing and drinking and have x-number of male acquaintances. I was like wow. Others are girls who wear hijab (head scarf).. and they come to school and take it off and dress with the tightest most revealing clothes under their jackets. wtf I am so dumbfounded with people. I don’t even want to begin with guys. Guys are worse but they all hang out together and do the same shit. They go to clubs, smoke their brains out and drink them selves silly and walk around in down town in the middle of the night being loud and pathetic. Yet.. their parents know nothing about this. It’s funny, the other day a lady came to my mom and asked her about her sons and if she has heard anything about them. My mom was like something like what? (My mom knows but she wouldn’t say anything.) .. My mom denied it because she didn’t want to cause problems and have to tell the other mom where she heard it from… (me) .. :lmao:

aaah.. the double life. I mean to think about it. I was guilty of it too. Now I don’t live a double life anymore. I am no longer having to make up lies and stay out side the house all day to be with “him”.. nothing.. no phone calls or anything either. My cell phone used to be used and abused.. now I barely use it.. but still thinking about. I never did any of the shit other people do. I don’t think I have the will power to do so. I have too much guilt. I am worst than a Catholic at confessions.. I cannot live with it. I have major guilt problems. Sometimes I feel like I need to tell some people the truth of the shit I did to them or said.. but I am thinking… hmm.. maybe when I am retired and old and people think I am just fucken loosing my mind and I will tell the truth.. then no one would believe me.. :rofl:

Anyways.. back to the double life.. I really like this song.. I was listening to it just now.. and it got me thinking about people and what people suffer through and I just wish people just show their true colours. Just be them selves.. I am bad at figuring out what people are really are. It’s just I except people to be like me. I have this high expectations of people to be like me. If they are not like me. I cannot relate to them. It is hard for me to accept and understand people. I don’t know. I guess I have a lot to learn about life still… I should have a new slogan for my site… “Learning about life .. ”

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I love this song .. It’s from the sound track Save the Last Dance… It is originally by Cindy Lauper.. Yes I know Cindy. I was an 80′s child.. I have been listening to music since I was born!! I love music!

My taste of Music, Sleepy Post