Open your arms to change, but don't let go of your values.

Well… yaaay. I got to many things for my birthday.. I got 300 bucks cash.. lots of crazy gifts and chocolate.. and the funny thing is.. at work 2 days ago my boss got me chocolate fudge cake.. He knows I love fudge.. and my dad today got me the same cake.. I was like aaaaaaaaaaaaaa

aah.. same fudge.. layers of crazy chocolate fudge.. lol So we went to lunch at Apple Bees. It was gooood. loved it.. then walked around in the mall and bought more accessories and new hat!! hehe..

Well the fun part of the day that I took lots of pics with my sis.. lol I love digital cams.. I can delete as many pics and take as many pics..

Guess what today is everyone.. It’s DECEMBER 23rd!! lol It’s my 26th birthday.. yaay I am old!! lol Oh man.. It is also one year since I started blogging like a pro!! (Check out my december 23rd, 2005 post!!) anyways.. so I will start with blog statistics..

Blog Stats: There are currently 358 posts and 1,046 comments, contained within 11 categories. This is one year’s worth! Crazy eh.. I don’t have a good stats counter.. I have changed them a lot over the year and this is what I have as an average:

Daily Average(s)

Page Views: 1,022

Visits 5,649

Hits: 36,948

Bandwidth: 10,625,252

The most searched keyword on Google that gets to my site is “Arab Girl”, “Arab Girls”.. and once they see the link to my site cause of the word Rebellious they think I am this mid twenties year old hot chick with an over 18+ site.. To their disappointment I like flowers and nature! lol

Anyways.. in conclusion to the stats as Mark Twain have said: “There are three kinds of lies: lies, damn lies, and statistics.” .. Enough said! lol
Hmm.. so yah.. my blog had it’s fair share of craziness the past year. I had religious attackers claiming that the word Rebellious is haram (sinful) and no Arabic girl should be rebellious.. I don’t even know how religion gets into every single word in the dictionary and made a big deal out of. I don’t even discuss religion in my blog! Also I had numerous fights with people who just come to my blog to start a fight cause they have no life and have no clue how to make their own blog! Hmm.. what else.. lots of stuff happened.. for those of you who keep up with my blog know all the tid bits..

As for growing older!! hahaha.. can anyone believe I am 26? Oh God where have the years gone by!! Twenty-Six.. I can honestly say that I like that number. It’s not an odd number. It is divisible by 13, 2 and 1. It’s a nice number. Nothing too special about it. It’s not a quarter of a century.. It’s not 2 or 3 decades.. It’s just there..

So the past year for me has been crazy on a personal note. I had a guy, was then friends, then no more friends, no more guy, and story ended on a bad note. I had major issues with my work, frustration and was at the edge of getting another job and leaving but decided that would be called backstabbing and I really like what I do but I just forced my self to ignore everyone and just be happy. Fuck it is it hard to do! Believe me!! It’s HARD!

So twenty six.. I looked up the number 26 in wikipida.. I love wikipida!! It’s the best thing on the internet!

In mathematics

Twenty-six is a composite number, its proper divisors being 1, 2, and 13. 26 is the only number between a square number and a cube number, the numbers being 25 (5 squared) and 27 (3 cubed). This was first proved by Fermat.

There is no solution to the equation Ã?â€? (x) = 26, making 26 a nontotient. Nor is there a solution to x – Ã?â€? (x) = 26, making 26 a noncototient.

In the classification of finite simple groups there are 26 sporadic groups.

26 is a repdigit in base 3 (222).

[edit] In science

* The atomic number of iron
* The number of spacetime dimensions in bosonic string theory.

[edit] Astronomy

* Messier object M26, a magnitude 9.5 open cluster in the constellation Scutum

* The New General Catalogue object NGC 26, a spiral galaxy in the constellation Pegasus

* The Saros number of the solar eclipse series which began on -2022 March 29 and ended on -724 May 17. The duration of Saros series 26 was 1298.1 years, and it contained 73 solar eclipses.

* The Saros number of the lunar eclipse series which began on -1937 August 28 and ended on -386 March 17. The duration of Saros series 26 was 1550.5 years, and it contained 87 lunar eclipses.

[edit] In religion

* 26 is the gematria of the four-letter name of God
* According to Jewish chronology, God gave the Torah in the 26th generation since Creation

So that’s it.. It’s still not even 10 am.. I need to shower and look clean and clean my room and actually look like I am older!! muwahahahaa.. I will come back with an update!!

I watched the movie Today. It was amazing. Honestly, I love movies that give you that follow up time to keep thinking about your life. How hard is it to pursue your happiness. There was a quote in the movie that the character Chris Gardner said something like … “Happiness does not exist. We have to earn it.” And I couldn’t agree more. Honestly I know that for a fact. We are not born happy. We are never happy all the time. Those who say they are just kidden them selves. I can honestly say I am not happy. I can be fake happy. I am an expert at being the “fake” happy. I do it every day. Honestly if I had my way I would be sitting alone crying every hour not do anything. So one thing I loved about the story of the guy in the movie (which is based on a true story) that no matter how bad your life is, no matter how horrible it is, you never ever show it to people. If you have a goal in life, do anything you can to stand out and not show that you are weak. That is so hard to do. I try I really try to just do what I can do. I still don’t have a set goal in life. I am not sure what I want. Some may think I have it all, but believe me, the path to true happiness does not involve money and work. That is the last thing. For some it might be. However I mentioned this in an earlier reply or post that no matter what we have, then we are always missing something. Could be something that may not be so big. Something that might be insignificant to some, but means the world to others. And to reach that goal it will take so much work and so much determination. Another great quote from the movie that is in the trailer: “If you want something. Go get it. Period.”

That is what lots of people lack. They lack determination. Some people may not even have a goal in life. That is not another problem.
Anyways… I recommend EVERYONE to see this movie. It’s amazing! I always liked Will Smith movies, but this movie tops them all.

Ok.. so my friend recently got a job and she calls me a lot from Toronto telling me about it and sometimes complaining about her boss. It’s hard to have a real job for the first time and having to handle real work and people. I wanted to write about this earlier to discuss the ways to deal with work, people around you, and your employer. This is just my personal opinion from working for many years.

1. If your a newbie to work. You will be a newbie for at least 2 years (maybe more). That’s how long it takes for people around you to get to know you on a personal and professional level.
2. Be your self. If you can’t or afraid just don’t talk too much. Being uncomfortable will cause you to say stupid things and others may perceive you as “odd” or may even dislike you.
3. Don’t be “COCKY”. No one likes a smart ass. (Especially your co-workers.) You were hired for a reason. We know you got the job because you were qualified and talented. To keep earning your position and keep getting paid takes a lot of skills and weeks of proving your self.
4. Don’t be too friendly and put all your trust in your co-workers. They are the ones that can make or break you. They are the ones who really judge your work and what you do because you work with them more than your boss. Your boss knows everything but always asks for other’s opinions.
5. Ask a lot and always keep track of everything you do. If you are not sure of something than just say you don’t. It doesn’t make you dumb or look stupid. No. It makes you look like you are really working and progressing in your work. Always report to your employer of your progress whenever you met your milestones. Always set your own deadlines and make them realistic. If you think you can finish a task in a week. Give your self a 2 week deadline. That way if you mess up or something comes up (sick or family emergency) than you have some extra time to finish what you got to do.
6. Always always check your work. I cannot stress this enough! It’s everyone’s mistake. It’s not an assignment to get graded on. This is real work where others will be depending on it! Also, make sure of what you present to your employer is perfect to your standards. If you are not sure than ask your co-worker for their opinion (especially the ones that have been working there longer than you).
7. It will take years to earn the trust of your boss. Your boss no matter what will always tell you that you can do better. It’s a way to progress in your work and always get better in what you are doing.
8. Don’t ever argue back with your boss. I suffered enough of this because I am argumentative in nature and think I do good work all the time. (Maybe not all the time but I am very self centered and arrogant, and I think I always do kick ass work). So I just learned to shut up and accept criticism and not say anything anymore and just work and enjoy what I am doing.
9. If you are given more work and lots projects (more than others) than you should be great full because that means your boss knows you are talented and can get lots of things done at great quality. You are a great tool to the company. So just accept it. Also it guarantees you will be keeping your job longer!
10. Put your focus on your work at all times you are at work. I know we are all guilty of suffering through life’s disruptions and we got personal things to do during the day. But don’t over do it. (Work phone is not your personal phone! No one needs to hear your personal calls! I am sick of it!) I cannot stress how much I hate the phone at work. That is why I just keep my headphones on. Also if you feel that life is jeapordizing your work than just take the day off. I suffered a lot from this. I always had bad days (depression) and I just took the day off or took a sick day. I don’t need to take my problems to work. And if I feel that I am not meeting my milestones than I just take my work home or work on weekends. Simple as that.
11. Don’t ever argue about money with your boss. You are getting paid what you deserve. If you don’t think you are than find some where else to work and end it there. If you think you are treated unfairly or not getting paid what you should be getting, but you know if you work harder you will get a raise eventually, than just work and try to prove your self. No need for drama!
12. Always smile and try to keep an optimistic view of your work. If you don’t like what you are doing or not interested than most likely it will take you longer to finish. And if you really hate what you are doing than just quit. Seriously, I say you should quit because you will end up doing a half ass job that sucks so bad that you will eventually get fired anyways. So quit! If you decide to quit, don’t just walk out. No.. bad bad move. Give your reasons. Give a notice and say something very simple. Say this: “I do not feel that I can progress in my work and I am not enjoying it. If I cannot put my heart and soul into it I will not do well in my work and I do not want to disappoint you (boss) or the clients .” Something like that
13. If you decide that there is a better opportunity out there and you decide to leave your current position, then give a minimum of 2 weeks notice. If you have not completed your current project than the next employee that will take your position should be able to pick up where you left off. Do this always. Don’t leave on a bad note. Let your boss and co-workers remember you for the good things that you have done. And that counts for everything you have done till the last minute at your job.

Anyways. These are just a few tings that I can think of now after 5 years of working in same place! Great isn’t it! Anyways I am on vacation now and I will be blogging more and maybe changing the template for my site again. I will see if I am motivated enough in the next couple of weeks!!

Life Path.. I am number 8! Whatever dat means!

Your Life Path Number is 8

Your purpose in life is to help others succeedYou are both a natural leader and a natural success. You are also a great judge of character. You have a head for business and finance. You know how to make money. A great visionary, you can see gold where other people see nothing. In love, you are very generous – with gifts, time, and guidance. You love to inspire people, but it can be frustrating when they don’t understand your vision. Great success comes easily for you. But so does great failure, as you are very reckless. You are confident, and sometimes this confidence borders on arrogance.

Anyways.. I am really bored and I really don’t have much to say.. I just came from the mall an hour ago and it feels great to go shopping! I didn’t go shopping for a week.. I felt my life was empty!! And cool thing I get paid early this month.. (I get paid monthly).. So I get paid tomorrow!! I love December!! Wohoooo!!