Reality Stinks.
Today was a stinky stupid day. I didn’t want to discuss it but people like to push my buttons. So I woke up this morning.. got dressed and ready for work, and then my mom tells me.. You know this lady’s daughter is getting engaged on May 13. In this hotel or whatever. I was like ok. So? Your point. Yah and she is doing so when she graduates from masters. That’s what her mom says. Hold on a second. This girl is like 5 years younger than me. She is studying Health Science, and about to finish an undergrad she has been doing for the past 3 or 4 years I think. I know. I saw her profile on facebook. And no way in hell anyone can do undergrad and masters in 3 or 4 years. That is just absurd, and she is no genius. She barely got into University. So I know. I am not that gullible! I am like mom, who cares. Stop believing shit from people. Who cares. I don’t care! She is like of course you don’t care. You care about nothing. So I went to work pissed off. I didn’t even want to go to work. I was debating to just go sit down some where on campus for an hour or so to clear my head. But I decided I just have too much work and I didn’t want to waste time.
So a few minutes ago. I was sitting doing my work on the computer and my mom comes in. I was like hey.. What should we plan to do this weekend? Just a normal fun question. She gave me a dirty look and said, “Go loose some weight. Your ugly. I should have been more strict with you since you were little.” I looked at her and I was like wtf. Is this for real? Can she be more obvious in hating the fact I am old and living at home and now she thinks I am ugly. Well. I just told her to just get out of my room. I don’t want to discuss this. She is like of course. You never listened to me. I told her what you want me to do? What the hell did I do? I friggen don’t do anything. I go to work. Come back home. That’s my life. I don’t do shit like other people. I don’t even talk to people. What you want from me? She is like you never listen. I was like please just get out of my room. I don’t have time for this. So she was all pissed off and left my room murmuring crap. Since I have bad hearing I couldn’t even understand it. So I stopped my work on the computer and I am sitting here wondering how much crap I have to endure for the rest of my life. I am sick of it! A lot of times I just pretend I don’t live here so I don’t have to listen or hear stupid stories.
Who should I blame this on? My stupid messed up family or the stupid EX who decided to ruin my life or me being a good person who listens to those older than me and being well behaved that my life is messed up from listening to PEOPLE!
All I can say to the world kiss my ass. I don’t give a fuck about anything or anyone anymore.
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All I can say is … Allah ma3aki… don’t despair.. it will get better eventually … it will :hug:
Good luck Mona …
ya sure.. thanks
I mean it Mona, you’re a fantastic young lady. And your luck will eventually change
Forget about your ex he never existed… You are way off now
Trust me, we might not see eye-to-eye on many things but this doesn’t mean I don’t respect you and your intelligence, things will change to the better
I can’t tell you that things will change for the better and that everything will be alright, because i honestly don’t know that, I hope they do.
But in any case you should keep your cool, anger will not achieve anything, just stay calm, I know its difficult but since there’s nothing much you could do about it at the moment, try to take it lightly i suppose
Haha i hear that kind of things almost everyday.
The son of this and the son of that blabla… he’s 15 years old, married with 3 kids and he’s a doctor or an engineer or whatever.
But still, i kick his ass at football and we’re all equal in front of tv.
I used to think it’s an invitation to imitate them or a blaming from people or family.
Now when i hear news like that i’m neutrally happy for them (and neutrally sad when i hear they divorced lol).
I care about my happiness more.
I’m sorry i can’t feel bad about that anymore lol.
And for a slight part, like you wrote in your previous post : people can get fake so … :animal2:
Ew, ouch, Reb Girl. Those words of your mom’s sting. It is certainly not what you needed to hear.
Your value isn’t in your marital status. I had an ‘ex’ who trashed my early 20′s (maybe like you?) and it was the catalyst for me to REALLY get a life. I didn’t have to deal with the family pressure you do, though, so similarity ends…but if you don’t mind, could I pray for you?
well rebellious arab girl…
first of all, i admire your name. i believe that our society is killing us the individuals, between relgious restrains and social traditions.. i always wonder about the duality we are living inbetween the ” my rule ” way of life and the acceptance from the society,or even our own families.. live your rules and because after all it is your life and the most important is you to be happy and satisfied…
Qwaider.. we need to talk.. although you pissed me off on msn.. I don’t hate you.. I just need you to watch your limit and how you talk to me.
Bakkouz.. I am cool. I do have anger management problems.
Funny.. I hear ya!
Kinzi.. we are not all alike. I am way different with bad anger problems and serious moodiness.
Nidal: I hate our society. Sometimes I feel it sucks being an Arab. but I have to follow the rules cause I don’t want to a headache from people.
No no no … it was a weird day, for some reason you were pissed off way before I got there! You were suffering from irritability
I don’t hate, I never hate.
i agree Mona, its very hard to be an arab, especially when you are mature and smart. but you know what.. i truly believe that we are also far beyond any nation because we dont want to change.. well my dear.. i like your posts, you seems very promising girl !!! if you ever cross by europe, let me know, you have a little “house-stop” in Brussels!