Open your arms to change, but don't let go of your values.

For the past I would say 20 hours I had the most visits to my site ever. The bandwidth went off the roof and the number of visits went to 1000 unique ones! Funny. People seem to read and re-read how shitty I feel 10 times and when it is a regular post with random thoughts I barely get anyone. Funny. Seriously funny you guys. I don’t know if I should be happy or disappointed with this outcome.

On a more positive note, I can sleep well tonight because I quit giving a shit about anything or anyone. Life’s great!

Finally.. after a shitty day yesterday I feel a lot better now when I am alone. No one to bother me and I can clear my head and not think about anyone. I am just too fucken moody. I need to get a life. I just have a really bad catalyst inside me that bursts really bad at times.

I decided not to go to work today. I woke up at 5:15am this morning and I felt that if I went to work I would do nothing. I just didn’t feel like doing anything today or seeing anyone. I really don’t like my co-workers even though I feel bad for some but who cares. They wouldn’t feel bad for me anyways. Some even wish I wasn’t there! Everyone looks out for themselves. I don’t feel comfortable half the time talking to them anyways. We don’t think a like at all.

Anyways it is great. I finally for the first time in days feel so good. It’s great when you are not surrounded by anyone for a day and just have time to relax and enjoy the quiteness. Amazing feeling. I need to do this more often.