I had such a bad week or so that I totally forgot about Chinese new year. Happy new years to 1/9 of the population of the world! It’s the year of the pig or boar. So for me being a Wikipedia junkie I was reading up on Chinese horoscopes. I am born in the year of the monkey. Yah I am a monkey.. boo.. but monkey is my favourite animal! I used to be obsessed with monkeys. Actually I got monkey plush toys all over my room. I also have cats, frogs, and bears. You can tell I am such a baby who loves animals. Anyways.. this is my favourite Monkey. My purple monkey. My room is purplish too. My favourite colour is purple. So look at this:

I was looking at him today as I do every day.. but today I decided to put a battery in him so he can dance and do monkey sounds. His mouth has this sensor thing. Hehehe.

So I think Chinese astrology is more fun to read. Some how I like the animal / nature association. I love Western zodiac too, but Chinese intrigues me more.

so this is the description of Monkeys!

• 16 February 1980 – 4 February 1981: Metal Monkey

The Monkey is the most versatile sign of the Chinese zodiac. Such people are often inventors, plotters, entertainers and the creative geniuses behind anything ingenious, including mischief. They have natural quick-wittedness which enables them to understand what is happening and then make a right decision. Even during a conversation a person born in this year is aware of what is going on around him/her, and then makes a mental note of who said what and stores it away for future reference. In general, with their agile minds and multiple talents, monkey type of people can master any subject. They are reliable and honest people so that any secret is safe in their hands. These people are also honest in their dealings. Monkey people are very good at problem-solving. Monkeys know how to listen closely and work out solutions at the same time.

Although these people are trustworthy and unlikely to hurt someone out of spite, they would never let people escape if they have behaved badly or damaged a monkey’s reputation. Their stamina and determination to achieve their main goals can make these people appear vain or manipulative. It means that people born under this sign should be careful so they do not damage their friendships. It is important to remember for these persons that it would be wiser sometimes not to pursue their goals and simply let things pass.

Monkeys have flexible principles and serene self-confidence so they are completely content; but they usually manage to complicate the lives of others. After yet another plan or project has gone wrong, they are seldom there to help clean up the disorder and confusion that they leave in their wake. Monkeys can handle that too; with their charm and persuasiveness they can make people believe that just knowing them is a privilege.

You know after reading this and reading Capricorn characteristis I am totally freaked out on how similar both are and how much it reflects me!! It is ME!

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Today was a fun day. My friend came from out of town and we went to eat out and to the mall. Finally seeing my friend is a relief. I got so sick of the same people of my stupid city. I needed a change. I love it when she comes. Makes me so happy!

After that I got so bored and I decided to take pics of my self. I am so bored.

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For the past I would say 20 hours I had the most visits to my site ever. The bandwidth went off the roof and the number of visits went to 1000 unique ones! Funny. People seem to read and re-read how shitty I feel 10 times and when it is a regular post with random thoughts I barely get anyone. Funny. Seriously funny you guys. I don’t know if I should be happy or disappointed with this outcome.

On a more positive note, I can sleep well tonight because I quit giving a shit about anything or anyone. Life’s great!

Whatever!

Finally.. after a shitty day yesterday I feel a lot better now when I am alone. No one to bother me and I can clear my head and not think about anyone. I am just too fucken moody. I need to get a life. I just have a really bad catalyst inside me that bursts really bad at times.

I decided not to go to work today. I woke up at 5:15am this morning and I felt that if I went to work I would do nothing. I just didn’t feel like doing anything today or seeing anyone. I really don’t like my co-workers even though I feel bad for some but who cares. They wouldn’t feel bad for me anyways. Some even wish I wasn’t there! Everyone looks out for themselves. I don’t feel comfortable half the time talking to them anyways. We don’t think a like at all.

Anyways it is great. I finally for the first time in days feel so good. It’s great when you are not surrounded by anyone for a day and just have time to relax and enjoy the quiteness. Amazing feeling. I need to do this more often.

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Today was a stinky stupid day. I didn’t want to discuss it but people like to push my buttons. So I woke up this morning.. got dressed and ready for work, and then my mom tells me.. You know this lady’s daughter is getting engaged on May 13. In this hotel or whatever. I was like ok. So? Your point. Yah and she is doing so when she graduates from masters. That’s what her mom says. Hold on a second. This girl is like 5 years younger than me. She is studying Health Science, and about to finish an undergrad she has been doing for the past 3 or 4 years I think. I know. I saw her profile on facebook. And no way in hell anyone can do undergrad and masters in 3 or 4 years. That is just absurd, and she is no genius. She barely got into University. So I know. I am not that gullible! I am like mom, who cares. Stop believing shit from people. Who cares. I don’t care! She is like of course you don’t care. You care about nothing. So I went to work pissed off. I didn’t even want to go to work. I was debating to just go sit down some where on campus for an hour or so to clear my head. But I decided I just have too much work and I didn’t want to waste time.

So a few minutes ago. I was sitting doing my work on the computer and my mom comes in. I was like hey.. What should we plan to do this weekend? Just a normal fun question. She gave me a dirty look and said, “Go loose some weight. Your ugly. I should have been more strict with you since you were little.” I looked at her and I was like wtf. Is this for real? Can she be more obvious in hating the fact I am old and living at home and now she thinks I am ugly. Well. I just told her to just get out of my room. I don’t want to discuss this. She is like of course. You never listened to me. I told her what you want me to do? What the hell did I do? I friggen don’t do anything. I go to work. Come back home. That’s my life. I don’t do shit like other people. I don’t even talk to people. What you want from me? She is like you never listen. I was like please just get out of my room. I don’t have time for this. So she was all pissed off and left my room murmuring crap. Since I have bad hearing I couldn’t even understand it. So I stopped my work on the computer and I am sitting here wondering how much crap I have to endure for the rest of my life. I am sick of it! A lot of times I just pretend I don’t live here so I don’t have to listen or hear stupid stories.

Who should I blame this on? My stupid messed up family or the stupid EX who decided to ruin my life or me being a good person who listens to those older than me and being well behaved that my life is messed up from listening to PEOPLE!

All I can say to the world kiss my ass. I don’t give a fuck about anything or anyone anymore.

They said what?, Whatever!