So I have not gone to any classes this week. Not that I have many but I didn’t go to any of the lectures. Every time I got up to want to go.. my brain tells me to sit back down and just sit at work and just work. Not that I had too much work or anything this week. I just didn’t feel like doing anything. Learning anything new. Nothing. Just wanted a vacation from everything. I do feel somewhat guilty, at the same time I don’t care. I am just seriously loosing my motivation. I think I am just going down hill as the days go by.
I told my friend the other day that I want to change. Do something different. She is like what. Let’s do it together. She has similar problems as me.. and she lives in a drama world. I try to get her to write a blog but she would rather search brand name shopping sites and shop till she has no money. So she has money problems with her depression that she keeps shopping non stop to make her happier. And I have a need to just scream at people and I am daily loosing patience with people. It is just horrible!
I swear one day I am so gonna blow up and I will feel good after but everyone else will hate me. I think I just need to be put in solitude for some time and not have to deal with people. Not have to hear stories. Not have to interact with others. If I can do that for 3 months I may feel better. But I cannot afford to leave my work.
I think my problem is that I am still in this God aweful city. I think the memories and the aweful 5 or 6 years seriously damaged me. I am barely functionining as we speak. I don’t know how I still manage to work. It’s a miracle I swear. I think it is because I actually like what I do that I still manage to get it done. It still amazes me. It really does.
I want to MOVE away! Alone! WHERE WHERE! Awwwwwwww..
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Friday, March 16th 2007 at 7:02 pm
Hey Mona,
I know how you feel. For some reason I’ve been going through a similar phase (or at least I hope it’s a phase) where I just don’t have the will to do ANYTHING. Something just weighs you down and demotivates you to no end. We can only hope that this will pass and everything will be alright again.
Friday, March 16th 2007 at 8:54 pm
I’m going through a crazy phase!
Saturday, March 17th 2007 at 2:45 am
6 years or even 10 years.. they all vanish once you set up your mind to MOVE ON! nothing should damage a person no matter what… a bad experience, a miserable relationship, breaking up with someone who you think you ADORE, being betrayed, cheated on.. they should all dissapear for you to be able to concentrate on yourself more.. on what you want in life and on achieving your dreams! As you once said.. you should have a MONA day
where you should think of only you and what would make you happy!! 
Saturday, March 17th 2007 at 6:50 am
Of course there is a Mona Day.. every day should be a Mona day!!
Thursday, November 8th 2007 at 1:32 pm
ahmed el sherif…
Man i just love your blog, keep the cool posts comin…..
Thursday, November 8th 2007 at 5:34 pm
thank you!!
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