Since Friday I have been on the computer non-stop. I am working on my assignment and stuff for work. The stuff for work I pushed it aside so I can finish some school stuff. Arghh.. sucky. The change of weather here is not helping. One day it is nice and 10 degrees, then next day it is back to negative whatever and snowing. This caused me severe headaches, bad sniffling and coughing.. and fatigue. Not only that.. I barely sleep. So I am awake daily from 6 or 7 am. No rest. Nothing. I need a long long sleep. Very long peaceful time. I need peace and quiet. Where can I order that? I need it double sized with extra large drink.

So I had a pretty interesting weekend. Well I always do. Lately I can’t wait for the week to end so I can get some me time on the weekend. I need more weekends. Easter is coming soon eh? Fun.. more time off.. W00T! Speaking of religious holidays. I find it funny that as a Muslim I am forced to vacation with my fellow Christians. I think they would like our holidays too if they were living back home. We get way more. lol So in reality.. we should just have every religious holiday. Everyone should celebrate. It’s globalization of all the religions. I think that would be cool and everyone would be happy and everyone would be on vacation on the same time in the world.

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I just woke up and I feel all cranky. Even though this is the first time this week I slept early. (early meaning 11:30 pm)..Â�? IÂ�? just need more sleep. I will go back to sleep. I miss sleep for 12 hours a day. lol Yeah right.. Never had that in a few months… Aaah.. I hate it when I wake up and my body is soar and I feel like I have some type of rheumatism killing my joints!! Aaagh..

Back to morning sleep.. long day ahead of me!

Funny, Ranting as usual!

So I have not gone to any classes this week. Not that I have many but I didn’t go to any of the lectures. Every time I got up to want to go.. my brain tells me to sit back down and just sit at work and just work. Not that I had too much work or anything this week. I just didn’t feel like doing anything. Learning anything new. Nothing. Just wanted a vacation from everything. I do feel somewhat guilty, at the same time I don’t care. I am just seriously loosing my motivation. I think I am just going down hill as the days go by.

I told my friend the other day that I want to change. Do something different. She is like what. Let’s do it together. She has similar problems as me.. and she lives in a drama world. I try to get her to write a blog but she would rather search brand name shopping sites and shop till she has no money. So she has money problems with her depression that she keeps shopping non stop to make her happier. And I have a need to just scream at people and I am daily loosing patience with people. It is just horrible!

I swear one day I am so gonna blow up and I will feel good after but everyone else will hate me. I think I just need to be put in solitude for some time and not have to deal with people. Not have to hear stories. Not have to interact with others. If I can do that for 3 months I may feel better. But I cannot afford to leave my work.

I think my problem is that I am still in this God aweful city. I think the memories and the aweful 5 or 6 years seriously damaged me. I am barely functionining as we speak. I don’t know how I still manage to work. It’s a miracle I swear. I think it is because I actually like what I do that I still manage to get it done. It still amazes me. It really does.

I want to MOVE away! Alone! WHERE WHERE! Awwwwwwww..

Blah Blah, Ranting as usual!, Whatever!

Ok.. today is March 14 and PI day is celebrated. Which is also Albert Einstein’s birthday. The Math pioneers of the world especially the ones at MIT are celebrating like it is a biblical day. All I can say is BOOO! Whatever.. who cares.. The world needs to celebrate the power of the 23!!!

We need to celebrate me instead. 23 is a way better number. (I’m born December 23, but I don’t like the number 12. I like 23!) 23 is a magical secretive number from ancient times. Also bad things or good things happen on the days that are 23. So watch out! It has it’s MOMENTS!

So because it is march 14 that 3.14~ is sooooo great.. the endless number of the universe.. fuck it has to end at some point!! Just not enough geniuses to figure that out. They send men to the moon. They send little toy robots to Mars.. and they can’t END THE value of PI �?€ ! Aaagh!! :lmao:

Ranting as usual!, Whatever!

I came in this morning to work. I looked at my desk and I looked at this plush bear I have on my desk. I sat there and thought why do I still have it there. He gave it to me 4 years ago. And all I did this morning was hold it. Twist it. Hoping it will rip by the twisting. Than I looked at it and thought. What did this bear do to deserve this treatment. Because it was given to me from the lowest of lows and it is still on my desk. The other day I had a little synthetic red rose also that I threw out in the garbage. But this bear. The scissors are tempting.. but it has beads in it and I don’t want to make a mess. Than I look at it again and I feel bad. So what should I do?

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