I can’t believe the days..

I can’t believe it is April already. The days are rushing by so fast it’s unbelievable. I just look back and think wow, life has just been flying by so quickly. I just think aah… I wish I can just settle down and have a focus in life. I feel like I am all over the place. Like this time last year I had a better vision of the future and what I wanted to do. Now I just feel like it is a blank picture. I need to do something that is worth my time.

I wonder what I will do. I need something more exciting in my life. Like a phase to discover me. A me time. Hehe.. That’s funny how that sounded, “a me time”. So funny.

Seriously, the days are just going by and I need find my path. I think I am a little bit more up beat now. The sun is shining, the birds are singing, and everything so bright and green. Everything is growing and coming out to enjoy life, and I need to do that. To go out and do something fun.

Sometimes I think and think. Maybe I should stop thinking and just do something. Like today I refused to work on my project. (I lost hope in my group). I took the morning and afternoon off and went to the mall and I felt like spending! I tried to spend but every time I bought something, it would be on sale for like 25 or 30 percent off. Great! Can you imagine me in New York? hmm. I would go shopping crazy!! hehehe.. I love shopping! It makes me feel great. Although lately I am not into buying lots of clothes or anything. I want to but I am so picky when it comes to summer and spring clothes. It is so revealing here and I have to search for a while to find suitable clothes to wear. I mean I saw a shirt that was not a shirt and it was like a tank top but not a tank top and it had a bra built into it. It was wierd. I looked at it and thought, who the hell would wear this. It’s not lingerie, it’s not a shirt, then it must be a shirtagerie. Only explanation!

So anyways.. I might spend my evening browsing around eBay and looking for nice clothes and shoes. I need something unique!

Blah Blah, Random Thoughts