Who am I kidden?
I sometimes think. I know it is hard to believe, but my problem is that I think too much. I suffer from that thinking disease. The problem with thinking that it causes me a great deal of migraines. For example last night. I have never in my life felt my blood pressure go up the roof so quickly. I don’t know if I was nervous, angry, happy, overwhelmed, or pure uncaring. I just felt like I was going to have a stroke! Maybe I was. I couldn’t tell. All I knew that I had to stop what I am doing. My brain was numb, I needed to go to bed and lay down ASAP.
The pain was unbearable. It was narcotic to my senses. I don’t know why I have become this nervous person who cannot handle any stress. My anger level is beyond control. I fear at times to go to work, or be around people because I have this uncontrollable anger problem that is only solved by either drinking more coffee or eating high levels of sugar (ie. fudge).
I don’t want to go back to my over the counter drug addiction. I am tired of taking pain killers. I am tired of taking sleeping pills so I can sleep at the time I want. I really need to stop taking sleeping pills. Last week I over dosed and I slept for 10 hours, woke up and I still couldn’t function for the whole day because my body was so weak and sleepy that I could not think or function. So it is like a drug! I am not addicted to anything. Except coffee of course. That shit ruined my brain! If I don’t drink coffee by 2 or 3 pm than my head starts pounding!
Why am I addicted to all this shit? That’s my question, and when did all this start? Well, it became worse over the past year, but I guess I have become addicted without knowing. I need to stop. It is causing me a great deal of depression and uncontrollable behavior.
I really need to relax. What I really want is to not do anything for one month. No work. No nothing for one month! How can I do that? 
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Hello Rebellious girl,
I just bumped into your site. Nice Job.
I also used to suffer from migraine headaches, and if you are familiar with the disease, it has triggers.
The biggest trigger for my migraine is the mess up of my sleeping cycle, whether its over or under sleeping.
So here is what worked for me, and for many other migraine sufferers. The solution is in your hand, you either have a strong will and commit to get out of this cycle or you will continue like this with worse episodes for the rest of your life.
- Drop coffee IMMEDIATELY
- Drop sleeping pills IMMEDIATELY
- Exercise at least for half an hour every other day
- Try to always wake up at the same time everyday even on weekends, its more important than sleeping at the same time.
Naturally in the first week, you will feel more tired and have more headaches. It will take you longer to sleep, but just make sure to wake up on time. By the end of the week, you will start feeling results, by the second week you will feel energy that you have not felt ever before.
I always say that migraines are a blessing in disguise; getting rid of it will force you to have a healthy lifestyle that will help you in many areas of your life, not just getting rid of this ungodly headache.
Cheers!
Hello Omar,
Thanks for the advice. I like it.. However I do sleep at the same time and wake up at the same times every day. Even on weekends. Except when I over do it and sleep way too much. So yah, so far I have not drank coffee! I will see how long that will last till!
i think u need a vacation!!! ASAP
3an jad, it will do u alot of good.. 
and yeh stop thinking! :food1: :food2:
I would not resist or fight my thoughts. Rather, I would consider them as crazy guests that will stay for some time and will then leave. I would try to be more aware of them but when they get too much, I take a deep breath and decide that I am more than just a thought. I pay attention to my body, my feelings, my surroundings, and my family.
Sam: I am on a little vacation now!
Maged Samy: interesting.. I will take your advice into consideration.