Slowly putting up with work.

I promised my self to not use my blog to complain about work or anything. I love what I do at work, but some people around me seriously don’t know how to work. I get blamed for being me. I am not nice when it comes to work. Someone out there is paying me a lot of money as a programmer to get my work done on time. To be efficient, and make others happy and my work done to perfection. But when you have other people whine and complain and cry about my attitude towards work, it seriously makes me want to hate what I do. When I tell someone that I cannot get something done or go to a meeting on a certain day because I have other commitments, then they whine and complain. When I have something to do my mind is focused on it. So why would I go to work if my mind is focused on something else? So I take the day off. Simple as that. Does that make people happy? No. I am suppose to be Mona the slave. I have been a slave to work for 5 years. Never took a vacation that actually constitutes as a vacation. Never did anything for me. I always did work work work. For the past couple of years I tried so hard to manage my work and taking classes on the side to make my self a better worker by learning new things. I swore to not mix the two together and not have one jeopardize the other.

So what happens? People cry, complain, whine and I get threatened to be officially reported to the University. So why the hell I keep putting up with work? I get blamed for having such a stern and focused view about work. Not only that, I get blamed for not giving enough respect to the person. What respect? First off they use a stupid fun friendly website to tell me to come to work and they really need me. I say oh sorry, I cannot come tomorrow, I am so busy and thanks for reminding me and I can meet with you Monday and I should tell my boss now cause it was a last minute thing and my boss is the nicest person on earth and he won’t say anything.. He knows I work too much. So what do I get back in return? A nasty comment saying that she won’t be here next week because she is on vacation.. (understandable), and I have to meet with her tomorrow no matter what because we have to get the work done by the end of the month or else!

So what you guys think I would have said? Someone pushed my buttons. Someone went beyond respect, beyond authority to tell me that I have to meet with her or else. What was I to do? Seriously.

I did what Mona would do. I replied back being me. I lost all consciousness, I was in complete shock and told her simply I cannot meet with her and I may not get the work done on time because I will be away the week before last for exams. I am off. I am on vacation too, and it’s not my fault that the project is behind because there is a need to satisfy people that have absolutely no final say in the project, and so far I had no official person or reply saying to get started on the work. But if the work needs to be done on time, I can manage to work before I go to sleep every night and get it done on time if that is the case.

Was that beyond mean? Was that worth crying about? In conclusion I just told her to back off. That’s all. I am a human too. I can get the work done in a day if she wanted. I can have a sleepless night. I don’t care. I was born to be a workaholic. It’s my curse.

So what happens next? She deletes the comment she first wrote telling me to get the work done or else. (a complete threat) Deletes my comment and copies and pastes it to an email saying that I have to get the work done and that’s it, etc. It was just long and it freaken upset the hell out of me.

I flipped. I just could not believe what people would do to make themselves look good and make me look bad. Not only that, she wants to complain to the University cause of it?

She used the emails and comments I said to make her look innocent, and she completely deletes the comment that ignited the whole thing! What am I to do? Seriously. How can I work with people like that? I just told my boss if she wants to work that way I do not want to work directly with her. I like to work and get the work done. I don’t want drama or anyone disrupting my hard work cause they are sensitive and cannot stand someone telling them it is their fault or back off, I am busy!

It is seriously hurting me, and she tried too hard to be a friend to me. And when I act as a normal human being and say something that does not please her she complains and cries about it. She completely stops talking to me and I get threatened.

I don’t think I will ever enjoy work again. I look back at the job offers I received the past couple of years and completely regret it. It was all for the love of what I do at work. But how could I love something now if people around me slowly make me hate it?

I need to seriously not care anymore. I mean I have enough personal problems and my work is my save heaven and my enjoyment. I treat my job as a hobby that I love to do. But now I have to just be mean, ruthless and only work. I don’t give a crap anymore. But the next interview and the next job offer will be questionable. I will have to stop this nice part of me of loving what I do and actually think about my self and my future. I only like people who work. Not whine and complain and cry. Work is work. Not to take it personal. When this happens it kills the whole point of being at a job. I don’t want best friends at work. However, I love being friendly and nice to my co-workers. It is what I have to do. It’s like a rule of ethics. To respect your co-workers. Be friendly, and enjoy working together. If there is no mutual friendship and respect than why work together?

I can’t believe I get blamed for not having any respect and get threatened. It’s just absurd.

So please God help me to be sane towards what I love to do and help me ignore people and not have a bad fuse outbursts because people friggen piss me off!

I need to stop getting angry!

Ranting as usual!, They said what?, Whatever!