Past Regrets
Today I decided to just reflect back at my life and list my regrets. Things I continually wish I can go back and change. It is usually a situation that I hated being in and I completely regret with all my heart.
So I have a list of things. Some may not be too regretful but I wish I can go back and change it.
1. I wish I never had to follow my parent’s rules to the point of loosing my sanity!
2. I wish I listened to my brother and not communicate with Arabs in University. Biggest and most depressing time in my life.
3.Â? Never studied computer science.
4. I should have just majored in Biology with minor Spanish for fun like I was and could have been doing my PHd now and helping out poor sick people with my amazing research! 
5. I should have never had this mentality that being alone was a bad thing and wanting someone to like me so bad.
6. Yes, I wish I never met him and not have to go through the worst years in my life loving someone who didn’t love me back at all and making me feel like I was nothing.
7. I wish I never had to give money to anyone and see if people actually appreciated me for me and not my money.
8. Having started my career too early without having a real path in life.
9. I wish I never flipped at people when I got pissed off. They might have deserved it, but I had more victims than anything!
10. I wish at times that I had more guts to approach people and discuss a problem and not just ignore them. (I still do that till this day).
11. I wish I was never intimated by other girls and just accept my self the way I am.
12. I wish I had close friends that I knew how to keep that actually accepted me for who I am and not just leave me and turn their backs on me.
13. I sometimes regret being stuck at my job for so many years, but there is something weird that keeps me there. I still don’t know what it is.
14. Sometimes I wish that I kept my mouth shut at work and just stayed the way I was. A quiet non-talkative person that actually got work done without arguing.
15. I wish I never used my blog as a place to bitch about life. I wish I had more of a theme or a more positive writing style.
16. I wish sometimes I didn’t have a blog, but I needed a hobby and something to keep me busy and vent instead of paying 100 dollars an hour for a shrink!
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Very interesting … just wish you wouldn’t be so hard on yourself
By the way, your blog looks gorgeous …
Any chance you can reduce the size of the gravitar image..?
your writing style is what makes you unique.. if you have the complaining tone or the potisitve tone.. it doesn’t really matter! People still read what you write.. so just keep it up cause I believe it’s better to reflect the real you.
So many wishes, many I can relate to to. But you know sometime some day you have to put those regrets behind your back and just move on.
I hate to say that because I don’t think I can put them behind my back and move on/
Qwaider.. does the Gravatar bother you? I wanted it full size.. so I can actually see the pic!
So no I will not change it! 
Dima and Jasim, yah.. it’s not that I fully regret these situations, but I always think back and say what if!
no remorse, no repent!
true dat!
the ‘what if’ is there from time to time.. liars who claim they don’t know any ‘what if’s! I once wrote about people who say they ‘don’t regret’, it’s such a BIG lie.
you speak with your heart continue that your blog your writing is beautiful thing really thank you for all