Numerous things in life are restrained by rules. Rules on how to communicate with people. Rules in eating at a restaurant. Rules about behaving at someone else’s house. However, why all the rules? Is it to discipline others in a certain way to avoid chaos? Is it a way to represent other’s behavior in a more sophisticated manner? Why all the rules? Seriously. I know from ancient times there were rules. Rules and many rules. For example the 10 commandments. They are great rules. However, they are rules for an entire culture of people to follow. Religious rules are widely accepted and followed by millions of people. It’s a guide to life. However, I am not talking about well known rules. Not laws or regulations either by governments of the world to control anarchy. No.

What I am talking about are made up rules. Rules that our parents have made up because that’s just the way they feel about things. Rules that you have to follow also at certain work places but not others. Rules you have to follow in one classroom but not another. Don’t all these made up rules confuse people? Doesn’t it confuse others or allow others to misunderstand your behavior because you were raised or taught a certain way? It’s like learning a dance for so long to prepare for a concert and suddenly two days before the live performance the routines have changed and you are forced to learn a new one within 48 hours. The behavior and change in actions are detrimental. It’s like one person speaking a language all their lives and suddenly they move to another country and are forced to learn it quickly in order to survive in their new environment. The rules we have lived by are stained in our brains. Why these little rules then? Why can’t we just live the way we want. I understand that we have to base our life on something. But why be constrained with so many things. Every where I go there are rules that are incomprehensible. The most rules I have ever seen in my life are on people’s websites. Don’t comment this. Don’t say that. Don’t take that. The more rules you post the more people will want to defy them! Rules produce unusual rebellious behavior.

All these rules that make me want to scream! I want to just tell everyone that rules are a way for people with so called power to constrain and limit our actions. It’s just makes us want freedom and behave irrationally without thinking! Let us be free from any constraints! Let us all rebel and not let others control us!

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Why is it that I wake up every morning and check my email to find some random guy emailing me about his life and wants to hook up? Seriously why the hell they want me! They don’t even know me! I am sick of it. I need to disable all my accounts. I think I still have a hi5 account still not deactivated. It is so pathetic really. I have no pic or information. Nothing! So why they message me? This is the message. You got the laugh!

Subject: big kiss from me to u x x x _____ x xx

where to find you? Where are you which will be able to open my heart? I hope for you attentive, cordial and tender, healthy, near to the nature and of the arts.je am not photogenic enough, but think you of liking me because all is hidden in the heart is necessary just to open it and discover, I present myself ahmed, currently residing in РAlgeria old of 40ans large of size 180cm weight 92 kg holds bronse seeks a woman, sincere and charming for serious knowledge for marriage. I would describe myself like a simple and sincere person, who needs to give and receive tenderness and L `love. I am also faithful, and do not claim to be perfect. I seek neither of the promise in L `air nor of the poem with L `water of pink but simply a knowledge of heart in heart, with an aim of building a future with two. I write this message to you for I would say to you that I would like to meet a woman for marriage, poss̬dant a good character because I seek a sincere love and not of passage and would be eager to have a good happy family lime pit of love and happiness, I work in a public administration. I am very seriuex open like the flower, I am soft, and simple sympathetic nerve. I am very serious with my word Ci which I seek the good, jespere my message will find you good of health, carries you well and has very soon I leave you my address email while hoping to read you soon; ______@hotmail.com

Half of the message I could not understand! It is stupid!! It is mixed with French words at times cause he is from Algeria… and he is 40!!!! 40!!!!!!!!.. aaaaaaaaaaaaah.. I am sick of it!! I have to admit I went back to facebook after a couple of weeks but I made my account super private so no idiot I don’t know will message me out of no where! So anyways!! I am sick of it!! I don’t want a guy! None!! I want to be left alone!! Seriously!! I don’t want a relationship anymore. I got tired of being in one for 4 years that ended up in nothing! So leave me alone.. I even get comments to my site from desperate guys thinking this site is a dating site or a place to hook up with me!! Unfortunately it is not!! So if I get one more stupid guy emailing me out of no where or posting a stupid comment I will seriously flip!! I will turn my site to anti-Arab guys site and trash desperate guys!! How about that?

Aghhhhhhhh.. Mona is seriously mad in the early morning!

Angry, They said what?, Whatever!

I am currently on my mini 4 day weekend vacation. Monday is Victoria Day in Canada and we wanted today to be a holiday too. Why not? We work a lot.. well I work a lot and I needed a brake from drawing and making games. I didn’t even bring my laptop home to do any work. I was like ehhhh.. I don’t want to pack it up and bring it home. So anyways.. I slept like a dead beat last night at around 10 pm. I was watching a movie and I was seriously drowsing off and I was like aaah.. I want to pause it. So I paused it and turned off my TV. I woke up then at around 5 am. I was like grrr.. so I snoozed off and I woke up again at 6. Aaah.. so I just sat there. I felt major pain in my nose. Like something on the tip of my nose that has bit me. So I touched it and I felt a large head. I was like holy crap. But since it was only 6 am.. I snoozed again.. then I got up and saw the HORROR!!!!!

I got up.. looked at the mirror and I saw a huge pimple with a white head, but it was inflated. My nose was so red. I had little white spots around my nose. I said wtf! Seriously wtf is this. So painful! I tried to show my mom and she is like what is this! My eyes were all watery. My eyes were so red and my nose all runny. So I washed my nose to cool it off since it was so red and hot and bam……… the pimple popped! It was wide too!! GROSS! Not only that. My nose friggen hurt! It hurts like hell. Like something is constantly biting me.

Later in the afternoon I went to the mall. I had to cover my nose’s redness by shimmering goldish powder. Booo. From red to shiny gold! So as I got inside the mall.. within a few minutes I felt like I was going to loose my breath. My eyes got all watery and my nose started to drip. I was like shit. I need tissue now! So I got some and it calmed me down.. a few minutes later I decided to get my self some dairy queen goodness.. (I am an ice cream whore).. anyways.. :lol: .. so after that I felt fine. I guess the coldness helped me out. After that we went to Wall Mart. As we were walking around.. I got to the shampoo / perfumes area. The moment I got there my eyes started watering and tears coming down and I couldn’t breath well. I was like “give me tissues now!!”.. and my brother was like holy shit.. don’t DIE on us here! I was like can we leave NOW! .. as we went outside I was a bit better.

My brother is saying that Hay fever is around and I may have caught it.. also that I have to completely dust my room and clean everything! I was like .. I HATE CLEANING!!

So now I am at home. I made my self a hot cup of tea and I squeezed a bit of lemon juice in it. It is helping but I still feel so sick. Aggh.. why me.. why me!!

I want to breath and look normal again..

Ranting as usual!, Sleepy Post, Whatever!

I used to always think that in order to have a great future is to remember the past and try to build up to a better future in the present day. So that was my old philosophical view of life. I learned it from taking history classes and trying to figure out why we were forced to learn it. Learn about the past to not repeat the mistakes in the future. However, that doesn’t work. No one ever learns from the past and mistakes are always repeated. So what’s the point? Why try to always look back at the past and try to change the outcomes by not repeating the same mistakes. I don’t think that works. The mistakes are inevitably repeated based on our persona. We sometimes unconsciously behave a certain way that leads us to the same outcome.

So why we keep reminiscing the past and dreaming of a great future? It seems so superficial. It’s like we try to live a double life. A past life and a future life. However, the present is what we live in. The present is what we have to face every minute. So why all these past recollections and future dreams? What are we trying to really do? The past is just memories that may give us pain or bring us joy. The future is only a momentous hopeful thought. So we should just live the present. Leave the past to be an untold story, and leave the future for fate to decide.

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Well, here I go again.. talking about stupid people. People who are just people. Mutual friendships. That’s it. They just act all stupid and pathetic and childish all the time. I accept it obviously. I am not going to make a big deal. I am pretty easy going. They are not real friends or anything. But what pisses me off they go back and say that you are the annoying one and they are busy. I am like what? How pathetic can you get. So stupid. I wanted to seriously smack and kill someone today cause they are fucken annoying. I just learned to stay calm and ignore. Not worth my time.

Not worth my energy. I can learn to be patient. I really can. But I don’t like to be pin pointed and told I am annoying cause they are fucken annoying and can’t see their actions. So stupid. Aah people. So sick of people. I seriously have hard time trying to understand people. I just don’t understand the two face actions. It’s just a trend. Honestly it takes years to really know a person. Or even trust a person. Years!!

They said what?, Whatever!