It’s official. I am a baby. I sleep like 9 hours a day on weekends. Yesterday because I had so much energy in the morning that I killed everything else that I had in the afternoon. I didn’t drink coffee or eat any sugar. I was like a dead beat by the time it was 7 pm. I slept at 9! 9!!! Aaghhh.. So I am awake now and I still feel sleepy! Why can’t there be a bed to sleep on everywhere. Like a little fluffy bed to sleep on every time I got tired. I am such a lazy bum.

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Well today is Cinco de Mayo! yaay… It is widely celebrated in the US too! So why can’t I celebrate too? I always knew I had some Mexican genes in me! The reason I remembered the holiday was because of the aerobics instructor in this morning’s class is Latino and she was all excited about it. For some reason I thought today was the 6th. I am always way off eh! Hahaa.. I am not keeping up with the days at all! But you know what, I always knew since I was 13 that I was mistakenly born as an Arab and I should have been Latino. Not any kind of Latino. I was supposed to be from Argentina and married to a guy from Chile!

AND on Vacations I was to go to Easter Island every month and mesmerize those big stone heads! I love old cultural history and civilizations. I should have been an anthropologist or ancient civilization historian. I love being part of something old and yet uncovered!

I always wanted to be a LATINO!

Grrrr.. you know what.. just typing this is making me want to practice Spanish! I know how to write it very well and read it! I suffered through enough writing essays! Now I need to talk! I miss talking Spanish!

I want to speak SPANISH! It is my destiny!

My next major trip is going to be to Argentina!

Anyways.. so guess what else.. I am only down to one project at work.. wohooo..(well took a lot of bitching and complaining, but I am not a machine. I am a cyborg, so I only work on ONE project at a time, not 2 or 3!).. However, the problem is that this project will take me 7 days a week of work! All in one month.. so I will be counting the weeks (3 weeks to go) and not the days. I am keeping up with everything cause working 7 days a week is going to be nutz! But after that.. I will be a lazy ass slacker for the rest of the summer! I love working hard for a month or two then stopping.. then when the laziness gets to me again and I feel beyond bored I can work again for 1 or 2 months straight! Yah I know. I am crazy.. but I have so much work energy is unbelievable. I am the perfect labour employee. Actually, I am the perfect programmer employee. I am willing to work 7 days a week day and night to get something done. I know many people will not touch the computer once they leave work. I mean if you are a programmer why not act like it! You chose the career than you have to act like it is your life! The air you breath is the computer!! Muwahahaa.. That goes for all you lazy programmer.. work hard for a bit.. than be lazy later! That’s my programmer’s tip for today!

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I was listening to the radio as I was walking to the bus stop this morning. I heard the song Gold Digger by Kanye West and Jamie Foxx. The song was nice. It was a great tune. I felt like dancing as I was walking.. which I usually do in my silly happy mornings off to work. So I sat there thinking about it. Why are girls stereotyped as gold diggers? Aren’t guys sometimes. I know that girls are much better at it. They are pros at using guys for money, but for me I can never ever in a million years want a guy for his money. I am way past that point. I was never at that point.

Warning the song has lots of half naked women! BUT it will never be as bad as 50 cent’s Candy Shop!

I like working for my self. I mean obviously I like to be glamored and someone, actually anyone giving me a gift would make my day! However, I can never think like other girls. I always thought of my self as the ODD Arab girl. Actually the odd girl period! I am not like the typical girl. If I want something I don’t wait for someone to get it for me, I get it my self! I make my own decisions and I don’t rely on anyone! I never did and I never will!

I have talked to some guys who do complain about the fact that a girl may have agreed to get engaged to them because of the job and money they have. That’s it, and once a better (richer) guy comes along, they leave the poor guy hanging like he was a worn out pair of shoes! I seen it a lot! Most Arab girls here only agree to marry a guy who has a job, has so much money for dowry, throws a huge ass wedding and invite the whole village, takes her to an expensive resort in some Caribbean island, and must have a HOUSE! Not apartment, a house. And building her a house would be a double bonus to make sure she will agree to have kids right away and not wait 2 – 3 years!

It’s sad. I mean it is not only reflective on Arabs. This happens a lot in all societies. Girls are not innocent. I am not trying to bash girls, but I am stating the obvious. 50% of women only go after guys for their money! That’s it. And the girls who work for them selves and make a life for themselves are the ones who really don’t care too much about guys and are usually unsuccessful in keeping a relationship because they focus more on their career and life than worrying about a guy!

I just wish there was a good middle ground. No gold digging, and no full independence. I wish I can just merge the two together and find a nice guy who isn’t stupid!

Why can’t I just meet a non-stupid guy who has a nice job and wants to have a nice quiet life.

P.S I will never be a gold digger. I am rich…. with self confidence.. muwahahahaaaa!

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Today I decided to just reflect back at my life and list my regrets. Things I continually wish I can go back and change. It is usually a situation that I hated being in and I completely regret with all my heart.

So I have a list of things. Some may not be too regretful but I wish I can go back and change it.

1. I wish I never had to follow my parent’s rules to the point of loosing my sanity!

2. I wish I listened to my brother and not communicate with Arabs in University. Biggest and most depressing time in my life.

3.� Never studied computer science.

4. I should have just majored in Biology with minor Spanish for fun like I was and could have been doing my PHd now and helping out poor sick people with my amazing research!

5. I should have never had this mentality that being alone was a bad thing and wanting someone to like me so bad.

6. Yes, I wish I never met him and not have to go through the worst years in my life loving someone who didn’t love me back at all and making me feel like I was nothing.

7. I wish I never had to give money to anyone and see if people actually appreciated me for me and not my money.

8. Having started my career too early without having a real path in life.

9. I wish I never flipped at people when I got pissed off. They might have deserved it, but I had more victims than anything!

10. I wish at times that I had more guts to approach people and discuss a problem and not just ignore them. (I still do that till this day).

11. I wish I was never intimated by other girls and just accept my self the way I am.

12. I wish I had close friends that I knew how to keep that actually accepted me for who I am and not just leave me and turn their backs on me.

13. I sometimes regret being stuck at my job for so many years, but there is something weird that keeps me there. I still don’t know what it is.

14. Sometimes I wish that I kept my mouth shut at work and just stayed the way I was. A quiet non-talkative person that actually got work done without arguing.

15. I wish I never used my blog as a place to bitch about life. I wish I had more of a theme or a more positive writing style.

16. I wish sometimes I didn’t have a blog, but I needed a hobby and something to keep me busy and vent instead of paying 100 dollars an hour for a shrink!

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Well.. today was an interesting day. I got in trouble this morning from my boss because I am moody and sick of working on the same thing over and over. I just got sick of it! I feel like I am making something for non appreciative people. I swear. If they decide out of no where that they don’t like it, they will just decide, oh we are willing to pay 10,000 dollars for a stupid redesign from an external company and would rather treat me like crap.. I just can’t believe I flipped on my boss. I always feel like he is the middle man who has to suffer from crazy women. I am the craziest of them all! I think I am the worst person to deal with because I am so stubborn and so moody! I also think I have serious frustrations and I feel like putting it out on somebody. My boss was the victim. Sorry! ……. but… (Standing ovation to me).. I mean (cut my head off now!) .. I am so bad.. one day my attitude will seriously get me fired when my boss comes to his senses and realizes I am a nut case! (Maybe he thinks that now.. ) I know that for sure.

He also said I am a bad communicator. Me? .. hell ya! I agree. I will not deny that. I suck at talking.. but I don’t like whining either, so I don’t talk! That’s why I have a blog.. (The main reason!)..cause I friggen will flip on people because I have this mental problem thinking that people around me are not like me! I like things done a certain way and for a reason. I love to ask why, how, when, done! That’s my philosophy. I am a doer! I like things to have an aim and purpose and to get it done! I don’t like to flip flop.. boo.. it’s the worse thing for me to deal with!

Anyways.. so today I went to my first Jazzercise class. I dragged my sister too. Although she was way better than me! The class was great. I felt like I was awaken from my lazy ass sitting on the chair all day job and forcing my self to dance! We did Salsa, cha cha, tango, crazy aerobics! How do I feel now? Well I was dying. Literally, I felt like I was going to faint, but I was like dammit! My stupid little brat of a sister will not beat my lazy ass!! I will show her that my ass is not lazy but sleepy and needs to be awaken.

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