I have managed to get my self back to square one. I feel like I lost all hope and trust in people. I am having a hard time talking anymore. I am mastering the fake smiles and laughs, but today I felt like I am doing it painfully. I am in a dejavu of my past and things are not getting any better. I feel like everything that I have built up to and tried to fix and change has returned back to the beginning. I felt like I am living in a loop. How do I brake out of it?
I am trying really hard to just think of something that will make me happy. Nothing is working. No one is making me happy, nothing is making me happy. Even consuming high levels of caffeine and sugar is not helping. I wonder what I can do to change all that. I went to the gym yesterday and I felt weak and unmotivated to do anything. My continuous thinking is causing me grieve. I feel guilty and sad. I don’t know why, and it is causing me to jeopardize my work because I can’t focus.
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Thursday, June 7th 2007 at 11:09 am
Mmmmmm , Look at the bright side there should be a bright side to be looked at , try to find it ……
Try to find what is the reason making u feel this , try to get it solved , face it , even if you think it will have a negative effect on u or others in someway , but at least it will make u feel good ina way or another that u could stand against it …..
If it was just for no reason try to get yrself involved in something that needs concentration and keeps yr mind busy in it without giving it the chance to think of any other thing around , try to play some games on the computer , those games that consumes so much time . Or try to watch a couple of comedy movies or any movies you like to watch one after another …… Just try to get yr mind busy in any silly stuff ……
Whatever , you ll get over that one day ……. i was just babbling !!!!
CheeerZ!
Thursday, June 7th 2007 at 11:11 am
Hi Dar,
you are right.. I just need to keep my my self busy with more stuff.. and I love playing computer games!
Thursday, June 7th 2007 at 12:01 pm
Really tell me what is yr favourite games …. hope u r a strategy game freak !!
CheeerZ!
Thursday, June 7th 2007 at 5:42 pm
i like shooting games, strategy games, but my fav is RPG games..
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