Today I discovered that the researcher that I am doing the game for is an unappreciative meani! My co-worker told me about her and what she said at the conference a couple of weeks ago, and it was taped on film. He wasn’t at the session and was curious himself. Since we are ripping the tapes to put online for future viewers I was curious to know. So we watched one of the lectures. The one we saw was a session about the game I am making. I am currently at the process of redoing the graphics. Since the original I made was using older software, and now I am more proficient in working with newer software. So I am in the process of redoing the game’s graphics. The logic is pretty much done. It was done last December. That’s when I sent her the demo to look at. We didn’t get a reply from her till maybe April with the new addition to the game. She was mad, unhappy cause it wasn’t done to her expectations and she has numerous conferences, etc, she wants to show at. She had it for 4 months and she finally looked at it with her grad student and she now complains. So I am slowly fixing and debugging everything. I am actually taking my time since she was lazy to give feedback, and I am no miracle worker. I cannot redo all the graphics and fix all the bugs in a month! I wanted to, and I had the drive to do so, but I can’t if I want to do it right.

Complains, complains. So I have been working on it continuously, I even worked on weekends to get a full module re-done. So I got 3 redone before the conference. It’s a lot of work! It’s pretty much redoing stuff I have been working on since 2004!

Anyways, so back to the video. I watched it and she began by talking about us. She didn’t even thank us, and started by saying we are developing the game, and she cannot show it because it is messed up with simple childish spelling mistakes. Once I heard that I was like what the hell is wrong with this woman! She couldn’t say anything positive and had to resort to the stupidest most pathetic bug there is! I was mad. I just couldn’t believe it. I was happy I did not go to the conference, because if she said that in front of everyone and I was there I would have broke down and cried. I just couldn’t believe after all this work she would disgrace us and me especially in front of all the researchers. Not only that, we are practically creating this for free. She barely donated to us around 5000 or 8000 dollars. I have been working on it for 3 fucken years! So you can imagine the cost of hiring me to do this crap and she is bitching about stupid spelling mistakes! Stupid researchers. She makes me mad! I think she completely lost her sanity and became one of those nutty professors! For those who have a Phd and treat people like crap, kiss my ass! At least I can think and know numerous technical languages and can use my knowledge to help ANYONE in any field! I am not so focused on one thing in life and ignorant about everything else in the world!

Aaaghh she makes me mad!! I seriously need a vacation now! I can’t wait for the weekend. I am going out all day!!

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I have severe distinct tan lines. I went from normal tan to dark tan the past week. The heat is unbearable. When I was looking at my tan lines I remembered how badly someone’s skin colour can be towards others. I remembered biased comments from people as I was growing up. However, I remembered one thing, and one thing only that made me wonder how racist Arabs really are. Or they are just plain ignorant. So this is what happened about 6 years ago…

I was with my friend, she is a Palestinian like me but wore a hijab (veil). So we were sitting on the bus and we sat near a friend of hers that I never met or seen before. She was very white, a Palestinian and also wore hijab. I was introduced to her, normal right? Well, instead of saying hi to me she shocking said, “You are Palestinian! Palestinians are white! You look Indian.” Obviously I was half in shock, the shock of me looking dark like an Oriental is normal, I get mistaken as one all the time, but not from an Arab. This girl was from the same country as me! She was that ignorant! Since when are Palestinians all white! Hell, most Palestinians I know are dark! Most main cities of Palestine are ports on the sea! So no, we are not “all” white. My friend, however, was in shock and didn’t know what to say. I looked at both at them and thought to my self, both idiotic pathetic people.

So I look at my self now and see how the sun is killing me and giving me such a dark tan and thinking, I got great skin pigments that observe the sun. It’s great getting a natural tan and not wasting money to artificially get one! hehehe.. I try to make the best of every weird situation.

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Today was just my normal day. Nothing “dramtically” exciting in my dictionary happened today. Wait I just said “dramtically exciting”. That is such an oxymoron. However, that’s human nature, drama is exciting. Hence my life and my readers that love to come here and read my drama. Anyways, I went to work this morning, and worked on my work. My boss came in and asked about my progress and I told him I was moving along like planned. I like making cute games for kids. It’s so much fun! Any who, then he was still concerned about my vacation days. He keeps repeatedly asking me to take vacation days. I keep hearing the same thing over and over at least 2 or 3 times a week. I don’t think he realizes that the more he says for me to do something the harder I resist. I am such a stubborn person. hehe.. Yes, one day he will sneakily take my keys, access card, my laptop and restrict my access to any computer. I wouldn’t be surprised if he does it next week! So, he told me Monday is a national holiday. I said, “I know. Canada day weekend. Duh!” He said, “you can take all next week off if you like.” So I was like hmm, I haven’t planned anything, so no. (I never plan anything anyways! hehe).. Anyways, I was tired of the vacation thing and I wanted to act like a spoiled annoying demanding kid and test the waves and ask for something that I know no boss would say yes to. So I said, “if you want me to take a vacation, how about a month.” He looked at me and actually thought about it. I just laughed and thought in my head no way he will say yes cause he paused and was thinking. hehehe.. So I said, “I don’t think it’s a yes eh? He smirked and said, “ok, you can take a month off but before September, we get busy in September and it is better since it is summer.” In my head I thought is this for real? Why is he saying yes. No boss on earth would say yes!

So, the evil and lazy thoughts instantly came in my head, a month, what can I do in a month? I can be a lazy bum who will do nothing. Then I thought that if I took a month off that I will get so used to it and not go back to work cause it will be such a new lifestyle change. It would be like me being in highschool and summer vacation just started and it would be a drag going back to school. Hmm…. So through my 5 seconds of instant thinking and random images in my head. I said bluntly, “NO“. Then I laughed and I just continued my work in disbelief. Cause if I said yes it will cause such a big problem with co-workers and other people in general. I wasn’t going to risk my chances or even think about it.

However, I will take a nice 2 weeks vacation someday one day. I will when I have more money and I plan my ultimate lifetime trip. Since I got nothing else to do with my life, I might as well plan the ultimate trip! Hehehe. I can’t wait. If I start now I will have 3 or 4 years to implement it. The biggest drag is that I need more money and no loans to worry about. DAMN you student loans. Let us learn for free! Education is supposed to be FREE like in Russia and most of Europe!

My family should have moved to Russia and we could have lived in nice cool weather and I would have not minded freezing to near death in the winter! Hehehe.. Moscow would be nice to visit.. Hmmm.. I should put that down in my list of adventures.

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Wohooo.. finally.. I still love art and drawing, don’t get me wrong, and I still love to play computer games, however, I am going to start making super duper awesome scrapbooks! I will start with making the flickr collection. So I downloaded numerous pics from flickr that I found super gorgeous. From various places in the world and things I love! Oh man I spent so much buying stuff! And I print everything off my 4 year old awesome All in one HP 1315 printer. It’s an amazing printer!

So now I will start making my second real scrapbook. I made one last year for my trip to Prince Edward Island. It;s so cute! Now I will make more..

Yaay I feel like a kid with a multi color non-gayish rainbow lollipop!

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