Lately I have been silent.. even mentality silent. I just don’t have too much thoughts and reaction towards life. It has been so monotone and quiet. I don’t know why. I just got to the point where I want to be quiet. I want to take a brake from thinking.

I want to just be thinking happy thoughts. :lol: .. yah that sounded bad.. anyways.. really, I just don’t want to think or rant or take life too seriously. I am going to enjoy reading some books. I am addicted to reading Harry Potter books. I am still on the first one. Six more to go. I will finish the first one in the next day or two. The books are way better than the movies! hehehe..

Anyways.. I am off to reading and then off to sleep. However, I am really thirsty and I just finished the second bottle of water. It’s extremely hot outside. I got a tan line on my leg wearing my capri gym pants.. :S Stupid pants and stupid son  killing me!! I am so dark now!!

God I talk too much.. good nightzz!

Random Thoughts, Sleepy Post

I got music from the new Simpsons movie. Check out the soundtrack.. I am missing the intro theme, but we all know that by heart.. :p

1. Trapped Like Carrots

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2. Doomsday is Family Time

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3. Release the Hounds

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4. Clap for Alaska

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5. What’s an Epiphany?

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6. Thank You Boob Lady

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7. You Doomed Us All.. Again

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8. Lead, Not to Read

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9. Does Everything I Whip Leave

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10. Bart’s Doodle

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11. Worlds Fattest Fertilizer Salesman

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12. His Big Fat Butt Could Shield Us

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13. Spider Pig

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14. Recklessly Impulsive

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Funny, My taste of Music

Today was my boss’s house moving day.. so we volunteered to go help him out. Us people at work you know. So we were at his house at 9 am this morning to do what we do best.. take everything apart!! I can’t lift much because I have a bad back, however I helped as much as I can with small to medium weight boxes. We got a UHAUL truck load done by 12:30. That’s when I just couldn’t stand the heat anymore and I knew I am not cut out for this work. :lol: So it was 4 of us from work. The fifth guy has foot problems so he can’t do anything.

Anyways, this guy comes in this morning for 5 min to work. I was there since 8 am, and he comes in, checks his email and says, I got to go to the physiotherapy doctor and I will meet you guys there at the boss’s house. I was like ok. So we went, and he showed up after and just watched us as we started working, drank his coffee and said, “I can’t help, I’m going back to the lab.” I was relieved.. cause I could not stand his presence because I knew he would be throwing stupid sarcastic comments all day. I was surprised he decided to go back and was eager to do so.

Well, most of the guys at work are Muslim. So one of the guys refused to work anymore during noon and wanted to go to Friday prayer. It was a long argument between the guys. It’s fun working with Arabs. (we are 3/4 Arabs-Muslims at work!) From hearing them talk, and I sweating and feeling so un-girly like all morning, I was at the point where I just could not stand it no more. So I decided to just go back to work for a bit and feed my fishies and then go home. (Yes, I have a fish aquarium at work, so Zend like eh?)

When I went back to work, to my surprise as I opened the door, he was sitting there. I thought it was funny cause I was expecting that he must have left and took advantage of the day off since we took a national moving day holiday from the boss.

The guys asked him if they wanted him to meet up at the boss’s new house for pizza and unloading. He said, I will meet you guys there. So I sat on my computer for a bit. From 12:30 – 1:30. All I can hear from him was laughter at something he was watching. I was like wow, great use of time eh? So I left after that in disbelief of how much he does not work and he gets away with it. I just don’t get it, and I wonder how long do I have to endure this behavior. I wonder how long will it take for someone to speak out and complain. I can’t anymore. I just gave up and I lost hope in it.

It’s funny, this story that my co-worker has told me yesterday about him. He said, that they were going off to pick up lunch one day, and he told him that he forgot his computer screen on, and now the boss will see it and realize he wasn’t doing anything since he told him he was busy. The boss wanted him to do something but he told him he was busy finishing up something else for work. My co-worker said this guy doesn’t work, why does he bother and complain with what the students that come here do anyways, if they work or not?

Oh well… when he first started this guy 4 years ago, within 3 or 4 months all he kept complaining about that he should get paid more and so many jobs out there for him. He was off and on going to job interviews all the time. In my head I kept saying, there is a difference in college diplomas and University degrees. A big difference when wanting to find a well paid job. Anyways, one time he was so close to leaving, this was about 2.5 or 3 years ago, and I had a party planned. I just sat there praying day in and day out that he would leave.. but he didn’t. He would rather stay here because he can do anything personal he wanted and not have to bother with work. This is what he told another worker we had about 2 years ago. When he got offered a bit better paying job, but declined it cause of that.

I am till this day dumbfounded of why he can get away with anything. Yet, clients and my boss especially has such high expectations from me work wise that I can’t even imagine my self taking a proper vacation because I will be so behind in my work. Also I am always asked how far I am in my work and what I am doing constantly. I mean it is fine, I have more than enough work and I have a lot to prove too. I just donno, the uneven treatment. Sometimes I think it is because I am a girl and I am treated differently, and other times I just think I work too much so people just naturally expect more from me.

Anyways, I am just still hoping that one day a miracle will happen and he will leave.. move away.. I will help him move too.. just to go far far away.. he is such a waste of money.. if you want a job go work at stupid universities.. they got too much money to spend and they don’t care who they spend it on.

Well, after all this thinking all day long, I just wanted to go home, and we went to the movies and watched the new Simpsons movie. It was HILARIOUS. All I can do all day is sing, Spider pig.. Spider pig.. lool

Blah Blah, Ranting as usual!, Whatever!

I am now at work on my lunch brake and I decided to write for a bit while I am eating my spaghetti. It’s yummy and spicy! Anyways, my best friend is coming back from Jordan tomorrow. Yaaay. I am so excited. She was chatting with me and she suggested and actually told me, “We are going to all you can eat sushi! I am craving it!” I can’t resist the offer of course. I hadn’t had all you can eat sushi for over a month! My favourite obviously is Sashimi. So I decided to look up some sushi making videos on daily motion. They are quite amusing to watch… since eating sushi is fun, making is too!

Random Thoughts, Recipes/Food

Here is the problem in my house hold, which caused my uncontrollable anger and disturbed thoughts. It may have caused this whole problem of me to begin with! Anger. When one person is pissed off at the other, then they take it out on someone else. In this case me. It’s a horrible domino effect. You have parents who continuously fight over the stupidest things which leads to no talking to each other. Then they pick a target to throw more of their anger on, in this case, me. It’s ridiculous. The problem is that it got to the point where I am getting disgusted by it. I no longer can stand living within these walls anymore.

At times I wish I was deaf or blind. This way I don’t have to see or hear anything anymore. I would be happy. Just living in silent darkness where nothing can bother me. I then wonder how long do I have to endure this childish behavior from adults. It’s becoming such a stupid occasional routine.

I mean this is Arabs.. the old Arabs that is. The ones who get mad and angry and just tend to ignore each other and put the kids in the middle of it. Our generation seems to just get a divorce instead. I know girls who got divorced the night after the wedding, or during the wedding party where the bride just leaves the hall. I am not saying that divorce is ok. Obviously it is not. That’s why you have to learn to communicate and marry someone not for their looks or money! Sadly, even love seems to be such a common word that is lost all meaning. It’s just the society we live in, this angry fast paced society where people can’t stand one another. It’s just sad. No compromises. Nothing. Just anger! I am so sick of it. I wish I was not an angry person and just be calm and uncaring. Kind of cold with no emotions. It’s the only way to live without a headache!

Sleepy Post, They said what?, Whatever!