Lately I have been silent.. even mentality silent. I just don’t have too much thoughts and reaction towards life. It has been so monotone and quiet. I don’t know why. I just got to the point where I want to be quiet. I want to take a brake from thinking.

I want to just be thinking happy thoughts. .. yah that sounded bad.. anyways.. really, I just don’t want to think or rant or take life too seriously. I am going to enjoy reading some books. I am addicted to reading Harry Potter books. I am still on the first one. Six more to go. I will finish the first one in the next day or two. The books are way better than the movies! hehehe..

Anyways.. I am off to reading and then off to sleep. However, I am really thirsty and I just finished the second bottle of water. It’s extremely hot outside. I got a tan line on my leg wearing my capri gym pants.. :S Stupid pants and stupid son  killing me!! I am so dark now!!

God I talk too much.. good nightzz!

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I got music from the new Simpsons movie. Check out the soundtrack.. I am missing the intro theme, but we all know that by heart.. :p

1. Trapped Like Carrots

2. Doomsday is Family Time

3. Release the Hounds

4. Clap for Alaska

5. What’s an Epiphany?

6. Thank You Boob Lady

7. You Doomed Us All.. Again

8. Lead, Not to Read

9. Does Everything I Whip Leave

10. Bart’s Doodle

11. Worlds Fattest Fertilizer Salesman

12. His Big Fat Butt Could Shield Us

13. Spider Pig

14. Recklessly Impulsive

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Today was my boss’s house moving day.. so we volunteered to go help him out. Us people at work you know. So we were at his house at 9 am this morning to do what we do best.. take everything apart!! I can’t lift much because I have a bad back, however I helped as much as I can with small to medium weight boxes. We got a UHAUL truck load done by 12:30. That’s when I just couldn’t stand the heat anymore and I knew I am not cut out for this work. So it was 4 of us from work. The fifth guy has foot problems so he can’t do anything.

Anyways, this guy comes in this morning for 5 min to work. I was there since 8 am, and he comes in, checks his email and says, I got to go to the physiotherapy doctor and I will meet you guys there at the boss’s house. I was like ok. So we went, and he showed up after and just watched us as we started working, drank his coffee and said, “I can’t help, I’m going back to the lab.” I was relieved.. cause I could not stand his presence because I knew he would be throwing stupid sarcastic comments all day. I was surprised he decided to go back and was eager to do so.

Well, most of the guys at work are Muslim. So one of the guys refused to work anymore during noon and wanted to go to Friday prayer. It was a long argument between the guys. It’s fun working with Arabs. (we are 3/4 Arabs-Muslims at work!) From hearing them talk, and I sweating and feeling so un-girly like all morning, I was at the point where I just could not stand it no more. So I decided to just go back to work for a bit and feed my fishies and then go home. (Yes, I have a fish aquarium at work, so Zend like eh?)

When I went back to work, to my surprise as I opened the door, he was sitting there. I thought it was funny cause I was expecting that he must have left and took advantage of the day off since we took a national moving day holiday from the boss. :P

The guys asked him if they wanted him to meet up at the boss’s new house for pizza and unloading. He said, I will meet you guys there. So I sat on my computer for a bit. From 12:30 - 1:30. All I can hear from him was laughter at something he was watching. I was like wow, great use of time eh? So I left after that in disbelief of how much he does not work and he gets away with it. I just don’t get it, and I wonder how long do I have to endure this behavior. I wonder how long will it take for someone to speak out and complain. I can’t anymore. I just gave up and I lost hope in it.

It’s funny, this story that my co-worker has told me yesterday about him. He said, that they were going off to pick up lunch one day, and he told him that he forgot his computer screen on, and now the boss will see it and realize he wasn’t doing anything since he told him he was busy. The boss wanted him to do something but he told him he was busy finishing up something else for work. My co-worker said this guy doesn’t work, why does he bother and complain with what the students that come here do anyways, if they work or not?

Oh well… when he first started this guy 4 years ago, within 3 or 4 months all he kept complaining about that he should get paid more and so many jobs out there for him. He was off and on going to job interviews all the time. In my head I kept saying, there is a difference in college diplomas and University degrees. A big difference when wanting to find a well paid job. Anyways, one time he was so close to leaving, this was about 2.5 or 3 years ago, and I had a party planned. I just sat there praying day in and day out that he would leave.. but he didn’t. He would rather stay here because he can do anything personal he wanted and not have to bother with work. This is what he told another worker we had about 2 years ago. When he got offered a bit better paying job, but declined it cause of that.

I am till this day dumbfounded of why he can get away with anything. Yet, clients and my boss especially has such high expectations from me work wise that I can’t even imagine my self taking a proper vacation because I will be so behind in my work. Also I am always asked how far I am in my work and what I am doing constantly. I mean it is fine, I have more than enough work and I have a lot to prove too. I just donno, the uneven treatment. Sometimes I think it is because I am a girl and I am treated differently, and other times I just think I work too much so people just naturally expect more from me.

Anyways, I am just still hoping that one day a miracle will happen and he will leave.. move away.. I will help him move too.. just to go far far away.. he is such a waste of money.. if you want a job go work at stupid universities.. they got too much money to spend and they don’t care who they spend it on.

Well, after all this thinking all day long, I just wanted to go home, and we went to the movies and watched the new Simpsons movie. It was HILARIOUS. All I can do all day is sing, Spider pig.. Spider pig.. lool :P

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I am now at work on my lunch brake and I decided to write for a bit while I am eating my spaghetti. It’s yummy and spicy! Anyways, my best friend is coming back from Jordan tomorrow. Yaaay. I am so excited. She was chatting with me and she suggested and actually told me, “We are going to all you can eat sushi! I am craving it!” I can’t resist the offer of course. I hadn’t had all you can eat sushi for over a month! My favourite obviously is Sashimi. So I decided to look up some sushi making videos on daily motion. They are quite amusing to watch… since eating sushi is fun, making is too!

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Here is the problem in my house hold, which caused my uncontrollable anger and disturbed thoughts. It may have caused this whole problem of me to begin with! Anger. When one person is pissed off at the other, then they take it out on someone else. In this case me. It’s a horrible domino effect. You have parents who continuously fight over the stupidest things which leads to no talking to each other. Then they pick a target to throw more of their anger on, in this case, me. It’s ridiculous. The problem is that it got to the point where I am getting disgusted by it. I no longer can stand living within these walls anymore.

At times I wish I was deaf or blind. This way I don’t have to see or hear anything anymore. I would be happy. Just living in silent darkness where nothing can bother me. I then wonder how long do I have to endure this childish behavior from adults. It’s becoming such a stupid occasional routine.

I mean this is Arabs.. the old Arabs that is. The ones who get mad and angry and just tend to ignore each other and put the kids in the middle of it. Our generation seems to just get a divorce instead. I know girls who got divorced the night after the wedding, or during the wedding party where the bride just leaves the hall. I am not saying that divorce is ok. Obviously it is not. That’s why you have to learn to communicate and marry someone not for their looks or money! Sadly, even love seems to be such a common word that is lost all meaning. It’s just the society we live in, this angry fast paced society where people can’t stand one another. It’s just sad. No compromises. Nothing. Just anger! I am so sick of it. I wish I was not an angry person and just be calm and uncaring. Kind of cold with no emotions. It’s the only way to live without a headache!

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I was browsing the net and I came across various new ways to stand out with your resume. It seems that video resumes are becoming so popular. Everyone’s using and watching videos on youtube, so why not have a video resume also to sell your talents and try to nail that job interview. Click here to see many! I think it is a brilliant idea.. and this is why I think it is great.

1. You are no longer a piece of paper that someone has to read. You are more dynamic and the person doing the interviews can know you ahead of time and see what kind of person you are.
2. Verbal skills are clearly demonstrated through the video.
3. You can also present other visual aids or demonstration of your past work.
4. Best way to be creative! Instead of finding good words to put in a document and trying to be so scholastic, being your self and actually talking about your self is a better judgment of character.

Also make sure you send a digital copy of your resume and cover letter as backup. But seriously, the world we live in is so fast and companies are tired of having to read the same boring resumes. You need to stand out! And when they say you need to sell your self, do what TV commercials do! You can be a commercial of your self! If TV advertisement works, then why not video resumes!

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It only takes me one eye to see, one hand to hold, and one mouth to scream.. What am I?

Updated: Rich from DC got the right answer.. It is a TEAPOT!

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All I hear is people’s obsession with Harry Potter. I never seen any of the movies until yesterday. Yesterday I went to the book store, Chapters, and it was the night before the new Harry Potter book! Everyone was there waiting. Sitting in lines. Waiting for the release of the new book! This was nothing. The employees there were all dressed like they were characters from the book. The entire book store was changed in decoration to be the same as the story. I was like WTF! Why all this obsession! Why is everyone reading this book and watching the movies for! So I decided to buy the first book! I was like I am reading this crap no matter what. Not only that, I went and bought the whole DVD set. (On Sale) 8 dvd set of all the Harry Potter 4 movies.

So last night I watched the first one. I was like wow. I was like double wow. After all these years, after so many crappy fantasy movies I have seen in the past, this tops them all! I was like wow. I want to see the rest. Since today I was out all day and I didn’t have time to watch it. I got 3 more to go, and the first book to read. Hehehe. I am reading far too many books at once, but dammit. I want to be like the rest of those obsessed people. I want to read and watch Harry Potter!

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Today we decided to go on a day trip to the Pinery Provincial Park. It is located near a beach area off Lake Huron. The beach is a lot warmer and the waves are incredible. It was fun to splish splash in them for the afternoon. It is an hour away from my city. However, since it was the first time we ever went there it took us an hour and a half cause we got lost in all these little towns in between. It’s unbelievable the amount of farm lands and towns in Ontario. The scenery was just amazing. It was a good change for once.

We usually go to Lake Erie which is only 30 minutes from my house. However, the beach has far too many people and it is always dirty. The water is also cold. For some odd reason Lake Erie’s water is a lot colder than Lake Huron. If you have no idea where those lakes are, then check a basic map! They are two of the great lakes of Canada/US.

So the waves are incredible, nature with all of it’s annoying insects is still beautiful to look at. By the way I would never go camping cause of the insects. I am such a city girl! I don’t like insects!

My sister and I’s feet.

The incredible waves of Lake Huron. I got splashed a lot. The water did not like me!

My shadow in the water.

Me jumping in the air. Funny picture. Cracks me up every time I see it.

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I have gotten numerous comments in the previous day’s posts about my direction and hope to the future. It’s not that I have no direction in life, or no dreams. On the contrary, I have a very intricate perception of what I want my life. I am just very passionate about things and I seem to want to perfect and plan things and every detail. However, sometimes I feel that I cannot plan or I am not in the mood to plan or think of my future. So I just say that I don’t have one or not thinking of planning to have one. It is all based on my mood for the day. Sometimes thinking about life and every aspect of it makes you wonder how can you plan things. Too many things, and yet the effort and time just makes you scared and not want to bother to think about it.

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