I was having a conversation on MSN with my best friend today and yesterday about a certain subject. She is away on vacation for a month in Jordan and stuck 24/7 in front of her parents. She is at the point where I was or still am in my life. The parents that drive her crazy and want her to get married and have a life. She kept complaining that she felt like she has no direction in life and she is feeling old and ugly (she is very pretty by the way). She is exactly a year younger then me and cursed with the Capricorn traits. hehe.. aren’t we all? I just told her to be patient and avoid Geminis! Anyways, she kept complaining to me cause who else will listen and help her with her dilema? She said she is getting mad and angry so much like an old bitter lady. She kept talking about how much she changed and becoming too serious and gloomy. As she was telling me these things I felt like I was reading my blog all over again. I mean the only reason we get along and we are friends is because her life is no different than mine. However, I had suffered longer than she has and I am older.
Out of no where I was trying to be more of an adult and trying to be realistic. I wasn’t going to say things to just make her temporarily happy. I was giving her advice that I should have given my self a year ago. So I kept telling her to just accept life and not try too hard to find someone, and thinking that life will be better if she had a guy. Then I thought to my self, yah that’s good advice. I should practice what I preach eh? Then I told her to be realistic. People younger than us are getting engaged and married. How many of those girls have a successful marriage? How many of them just marry for the sake of marriage and not love? I told her we both had a relationship that deemed unsuccessful. We were trapped and we decided to free our selves from it. I told her can you imagine if we were just traditional Arabs and just had an arrange marriage or something stupid like that and had a miserable life? We would be divorced! So what’s better? A bad relationship to learn from or divorce? I don’t know if I convinced her, but I think she wants the whole experience of engagement and marriage and getting away from her parents. Like most Arab girls!
So what to do? I don’t know. For me I don’t care anymore. I don’t believe in love anymore. All a bunch of mambo jumbo. I do believe in destiny and just waiting for life to take it’s course.