Annoyances and Bewilderment

I am sitting here eating yummy Hershey’s chocolate and thinking of so many weird things that happened during the day. I will begin by last night. It seems that I don’t sleep well at all lately and I needed reinforcement to get to sleep. So I finished reading a book and took sleeping pills. I haven’t done so in weeks. The reason I did this because I know I will be up till 1 or 2 am just sitting there wondering why I don’t sleep. It’s not that I am thinking of something or nervous about anything. So I managed to sleep around 11:30. I got up this morning still wanting to stay in bed. However I couldn’t. It takes me about 45 minutes to get ready in the morning. My hair alone is a pain and a half. So I went off to work and decided to stop at Starbucks. I needed extra bold coffee or I would seriously not have functioned at all today. That’s when the problem started. Since I stopped drinking coffee the past week, getting back to it full force makes me irritable and very nervous. It’s keeping me awake. For sure, but not a happy camper. So I went off to work and sat there working away on my Game. (Yes, I make kid’s game from scratch all by my self!)

I was at work from around 8:20am (took 15 minutes to get coffee and walk to work). So I worked away, and around lunch time we got some food and I just sat there working and listening to Friend’s (my favourite show) episode in the background. So the guys sat there playing. An hour passed. Still playing. Another hour passed. Still playing. So around 2:45 they stopped playing only cause one of the guys had to go to physiotherapy. I was like great. This happened yesterday also. I really didn’t care but at the same time I wondered if employees in other places did this. I guess when the cat’s away, the mouse will play. After a while and with my extreme lack of caring about work anymore (I got to the point where I am just winging and staying sticking around to see what will happen “next”). So I sat there for a bit more and I left around 3:30pm. I just thought, well I put in a full work day. I didn’t waste an hour for lunch since I eat at my desk and I will just leave. I am going to do this from now on as much as I can. Less rush hour traffic and I can get out and see the sunlight earlier!

So I got on the bus and for some odd reason there were many Arab guys. I had music on so I really didn’t hear or cared about what they were saying, but they were sitting there in bewilderment and excitement playing Sudoku together. So I just there watching and laughing in my head cause they were so slow. I wanted to just get it done for them. It pissed me off that they were stuck solving a row. After a few minutes a guy that looks Persian sat next to me. He was hot. Not hot in looks. No no….. He was body temperature hot. It’s like I was sitting next to a sauna. All that exothermic energy kept permeating to my right side shoulder and leg. I was like wtf. I wanted to get up but there were no other seats. I just found it strange that a person is that temperature HOT. It was awful, and it wasn’t even hot outside. It was perfect spring like temperature of 24/25c.

I couldn’t wait till there was another empty seat and HE got off all by him self and moved there. GOOD! I was like phew. I am cool again. So I got home and ate my dinner and headed to the gym. I do aerobic dance exercises daily. It is fun and I love music and what fun way to enjoy music then to dance to it? The problem is this is @!#!@$! old lady! She has short white hair and an Irish accent. She always always stands behind me. She doesn’t understand the concept of don’t get too close to other people if you already got enough room. So every time we had to make one step she took TWO and was right behind me. Like one foot space behind me. I swear, one day I will trip her or let her trip on me and make her break her damn leg so she can stop coming and stop standing BEHIND me. My sister finds it amusing and just watches and laughs.

My sister has a habit of laughing at anything she remotely finds amusing. So you can imagine how much she laughs during the class. She thinks every body is funny and acts stupid. One time even the instructor told us that we seem to enjoy our selves since we are always smiling and laughing. You know how us humans always think of what our purpose in life is? Why God created us and what will our destiny and future be like? In my sister’s case is laughing at anything!! AND embarrassing me from her constant laughter. It’s not normal smiling and hehe laughs. She laughs hysterically! The problem is, I am easily effected and I tend to laugh too. It’s a horrible domino effect and I just can’t help but laugh also. Try laughing when you are dancing the Cha Cha? :S

I got home after I bought more books from the bookstore. I just tend to read a lot before I go to bed. I like reading and keeps my mind stimulated with various thoughts and ideas. I used to hate reading and I never had time, but since I read so many blogs and I write a lot, reading suddenly became an interest and a simple past time away from the computer.

Moreover, I sat there thinking about people. How people you don’t like are friends with people you like. How can you avoid them while hanging out with your friends? I just find it hard. To me I love to be friends with everyone, but I am not a social person. I am not drawn to people and friendships that easily. I tend to avoid people. Friends to me are more of people that I met by chance. Or I have known them for years and friendship seem to have evolved. To me it is hard to be open or trust people. I did that a lot in the past and it caused me a lot of grief and regrets. I donno, but if I can just change in that aspect in my life. This tolerance of people. It’s so hard, I need to develop better people skills as you would write in your resume. By the way, when I read resumes and see that line I seriously laugh. How can you have skills with people? :lol: So silly!

Anyways, I will sleep now and leave you guys with this clip from the Simpson’s movie trailer. It is hilarious. I can’t wait for next weekend to watch it! I have been waiting for it forever! This part is hilarious!!

Random Thoughts, Sleepy Post