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July 19, 2007 @ 1:45 pm | 15 comments

Pieces of the Past

By: Mona
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photo_ripped.jpgI wanted to clean out my purse and get another one cause I was bored with the one I have. So I cleaned my old wallet also and removed any old receipts that I did not need anymore. As I was cleaning I found a picture of him. I found it and I sat there looking at it. I didn’t have any positive or negative thoughts in my head. Thirty seconds later I just started ripping it into many tiny pieces.

I held the pieces in my hand and just threw them in the garbage. I said to my self, “all pieces of trash should go into the garbage. That’s where they belong.”

I then thought all night and had hard time sleeping and thinking about my life. I really don’t have a direction in life. Nothing to look forward to and I seem to day by day loose interest even in the smallest things. I just stopped caring.

So I found my self today just engulfing high amounts of sugar. Sugar drinks and sweets. I feel sick, but at the same time I cannot stop. I feel too tense and nervous and I need sugar so I become more loose and up beat.

I don’t know. Maybe I am just thinking too much of the past and wishing I can go back to fix it. Or on the contrary, going back and not letting any of it to even happen. Like starting all over again.

Also I remembered when I first started this blog and I had so many religious attackers constantly preaching to me that the word rebellious is sinful and I am a horrible devilish person and I am spreading the wrong meaning of Islam. (Although I never talked about religion in my blog because it is completely irrelevant to what I write. Also I am not going to write about any religious things because it is not my place to do so). Then I look today at my blog stats and wondering where all these people who are linking to my site are from. To my surprise I am getting linked from other Islamic blogs. I just find it funny. How people changed and how things have change over a year and a half.

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  1. Jason
    July 19th, 2007 at 14:52 | #1
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    Do you have any dreams for yourself?

    Maybe not in the relationship department but just things you’d like to do or places you’d like to meet etc.

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  2. Mona
    July 19th, 2007 at 14:55 | #2
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    not really.. I don’t have a set plan or things to look forward to..

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  3. noor
    July 19th, 2007 at 17:13 | #3
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    Mona honey just take it easy life is hard on every body don’t feel bad really bec am kinda the same thing i have really no life my self stuck at home with 2 kids don’t get me wrong i love them off course but i have no dreams just like u and if i do think of one i am not sure i will be able to get there it’s easier said than done i guess ,again honey i love ur blog u seem to like to close to me thinking wise and i many more bec we r both Palestinian girls who live here bye ;)

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  4. Jason
    July 19th, 2007 at 17:41 | #4
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    Why not start a set plan?

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  5. Mona
    July 19th, 2007 at 17:48 | #5
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    Because I am currently unmotivated.. I need a boost.

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  6. FurGaia
    July 20th, 2007 at 03:48 | #6
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    Mona, you remind me of a young girl I once knew. Her father had been admitted to the hospital for a serious heart condition. Her mother was very busy visiting him there, feeding the family, getting the younger kid to school, etc. During all that time, the daughter was not lifting one finger to help. One evening, the mother broke and yelled at her: “You are such a selfish bitch!” The daughter then just burst into tears and amid heart-breaking sobs blurted out: “I don’t want to do any of those things that remind me that Father is dying!”

    Perhaps that’s why I like to read your blogs.

    Take care!

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  7. Jano
    July 20th, 2007 at 04:51 | #7
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    hey.. i know what its like to have a “knock knock” from the past.. it lets you down sometimes.. and questions are hitting your head, am i on the right path? how life can change that easy? and fast maybe..

    my motivation is the simpliest things in life.. maybe as simple as me.. :)

    other people? to hell.

    take care

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  8. Mona
    July 20th, 2007 at 08:14 | #8
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    FurGaia – very disturbing story.. but I see the similarities.

    Jano – nice advice.. thanks.

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  9. Jason
    July 20th, 2007 at 13:13 | #9
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    What kind of a boost? A boyfriend?

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  10. Mona
    July 20th, 2007 at 13:14 | #10
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    aaah no..

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  11. Jason
    July 20th, 2007 at 14:57 | #11
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    LOL! I forget your BAD experience with HIM :Ouch:

    Just remember not all men are like that. You just have to know how to pick them.

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  12. Rich from D.C.
    July 20th, 2007 at 15:31 | #12
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    Just thinking… Maybe…

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  13. Hareega
    July 20th, 2007 at 16:22 | #13
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    Cocaine is the right answer for you.
    Just kidding, I hope it’s just a phase you’re going through.

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  14. Gradly
    July 21st, 2007 at 03:31 | #14
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    try to enjoy every aspect of life, why do you seem more desperate !?

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  15. Mona
    July 21st, 2007 at 08:06 | #15
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    what?? i am not desperate!! What the hell did I say that made me seem this way… sheesh

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