I guess the lack of sleep killed my brain cells.. It’s like being a drunk.. not that I have ever been one or ever plan to. However, my lack of sleep has lead me to go off to school and do my assignment.. I had to brake my fast because I was dead. I didn’t eat. I just drank a very large energy drink to keep my brain active. I was suffering mentality from no sleep. I sat in the lab for hours and I got most of it done.. Then the prof emails around noon and says the assignment has been postponed till Monday without penalty. I read the email and I didn’t know if I wanted to laugh from joy or cry from shock!
The assignment is not what kept me up. I could have slept or just completely ignored the assignment and took a 10% penalty like I always do.. Big deal! I just couldn’t sleep or think about sleep. I was fully awake but couldn’t sleep. I felt so sick and tired of life that nothing I was doing was good enough. I was not depressed.. I was just disgusted with my self.
So I was fully awake and I emailed my boss at 3:30 am and told him I am not coming. I didn’t have a reason other than I am still fully awake and it is 3:30 am! The problem is I couldn’t go to sleep and I left the house anyways around 7 am.
I then talk to my co-worker through msn and he told me he was the only one there at work.. No one was there. I then thought to my self.. wow.. I guess it is in the air.. no one wanted to work today…
I then got home, and I just sunk into bed.. I was dead tired.. as I put my head on the pillow, I felt the blood surge in my head.. my legs and hands were so numb.. I just kept telling my self, please I want to sleep.. Just an hour please you stupid brain.. go unconscious for an hour!!
I woke up 2 hours later by my sister.. She said, “wake up.. time to eat breakfast!” Breakfast? Did she mean sohour!! What day was it? I looked outside and it was still light out.. and I looked at the clock and it was 7. I thought, seven in the morning..?? Why we eating now!! We can’t.. then she looked at me and said, “wake up now!! Mom made my favourite mushroom soup!” I then thought wow.. good it has only been 2 hours but I was fully awake and extremely happy and I thought I slept an entire day! Those two hours I felt rejuvenated, happy, and extremely hyper that as we were eating I kept saying, “thanks mommy!! This is good food!”
My mom and dad saw my unusual behaviour and kept questioning.. “Is something wrong with you? Why you come home and sleep.. you never do that.. you are always fully awake.. Are you ok? Did someone hurt your feelings or someone said anything to you.” I thought to my self, “hmm… yes.. so many people in the past hurt my feeling and I wish someone can do the deed of murdering them for me.. but opening Pandora’s box to my parents would cause me to get in trouble which I didn’t want to deal with at my current state and age.. maybe in 30 years………….. Well, then I said out loud, “wow wow.. wallah nothing.. holy crap!! I was just tired!! you people are always sleeping half the day.. why did it bother you that I did!” They said, “but your little MunMun!” I got mad and said, ” I am not little.. but I am MunMun! ”
Now I feel like chocolate!!