I miss work. :(

I miss waking up in the morning going to work and feeding my turtle and fishies. I miss SQUIBBY!! I miss people I like and I don’t like. Where’s the fun in life? I am tired of being sick.. Really.. we don’t appreciate our health until we are sick. Aaah my life. I need a long break. A very long one from everything, but at the same time I will miss the little joys in life that kept me alive and having to do something that is worth my time.

So am I getting any better? Sort of. My blood pressure is still sort of high. No difference really since yesterday.. my heart rate went down.. it is at 98 bpm now. Which is great! Yaay. I seem to be a lot more calm today. I just needed a brake from life. I haven’t been at work since Tuesday. It sucks. I feel bad.

I know what you guys think.. “oh no.. she will never learn and she will suffer again from her job.” Yes.. I know that.. but what am I to do? I can’t quit just like that. It is not only wrong, but looks so bad on me. I like what I do at work, I just don’t like the way I am treated. I feel so little and worthless there.

Sometimes I wish I was a kid again. Just play.. get an allowance and buy candy.

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