Love me Love me.. say that you love me.

That song is stuck in my head. I can’t take it out. Blah! So what did I do today? I woke up from a good night’s sleep. I had such an awful few weeks, and yesterday all that ended you can say. Some people emailed me saying if I got fired or I quit my job? loool No! What a bunch of silly people! You will find out later. So I guess I finally woke up. Someone forced reality on me and made me realize how God awful life was, and it is time to put everything aside, and start new. I still have to finish up a lot of things, but I am very willing to take a new path to life. I feel excited a bit, and a bit overwhelmed. However, I am content. I spent a little bit of last night crying, being mad, and trying to analyze why life sucks. Then everything made sense to me. I just need have a lot of faith, lots of love (which I didn’t want to share with anyone for a long time), and think positively. So I made some plans.

November: do nothing.

December: do nothing and wait till December 23rd; my twenty-seventh birthday and have a kick ass day and enjoy a one week vacation.

January: start thinking.

February: gather all the information.

March: approve all the information.

April: start the implementation!

There you go. My plan for the next six month. It involves a lot of steps, but I am a very paranoid person and thinking that far ahead is not good.

The do nothing part is actually not true. Do nothing to me means: to do minimal thinking and little effort in implementing anything. So to me do nothing is browse the net, apply to jobs that I like and being picky about, and wait for something wicked cool to happen soon.

My plan starting January is to actually look for ANY job. ANY = Desperation. lool Oh man, I make my self laugh a lot!

Honestly, why am I worried about work? I can friggen apply to anything now a days. The job market for computers is so great! Not like 5 years ago where everyone was doing it. Now, no one wants to do it. We are a rare commodity in the hands of companies who are willing to hire a bunch of crazy techies.

By the way, I wanted to mention this issue which I was pretty annoyed with. Why the hell there aren’t many Arab girl programmers out there? Seriously. I look, not many at all. Especially with a blog. Any Arab girls out there with any technical expertise? Any graphic/coding skills. Any technical and internet knowledge? Chatting on MSN and living off Facebook does not make you a computer person! Common!! Do you know what Twitter is? Do you know what social bookmarks are? Meh! So disappointing! If any, please talk to me! I need to feel comfortable knowing that there are other Arab girls like me!!

Also, I am thinking of a plan of this domain I bought last year and I want to make use out of it. I need a temporary second income. I mean full income ($3000+) that I can fall back to. Yes, I am being realistic. I can make money off the stupid net, and I always knew how but was too lazy to do it. I guess I have to use my computer business skills and start planning. I guess I finally have to get off my ass and do some real work. In my case, I have to stop browsing the net and actually making use of it. I got the brains and knowledge of the internet. So it is time for me to get my business ideas rolling and start making some real coin. The internet is my domain, and I own it! We all own it and we can make use of it. Hehehe.. I got the plan ready, I have been the laziest pessimistic person on earth to implement it the past few months. Too much on my mind, too many problems and depression killed me. But oh I am lazy! Being a programmer for so many years makes any person lazy. It’s all those hours coding and eating and looking at a high resolution monitor!

Good thing I went to the gym this morning to rejuvenate.

Don’t you love it when I think positively! I love it my self! I feel like I am alive again!

Anyways, the song in the title of this post made me happy and I feel giggly and girly. I got the movie The Notebook that I want to watch. And since tomorrow is daylight’s saving time, and we will fall back an hour, then I will get an hour extra of sleep. So an hour more of staying awake!

I will sleep good tonight and inshallah every day from now on.

PS. If you haven’t seen the movie The Notebook, you are friggen missing out! I am sorry, I WILL make you go off to rent it, buy it, or download it. Any method of legal or illegal activity you use. WATCH IT! I love it because I think my blog is like a Notebook. And maybe when I am over 60 and still alive and internet still exits, my blog will hold all my memories and will always keep me alive!

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