Shocking Development!
Today marked the beginning of incredibly unbelievable times. A shocking time. A time where I have never ever experienced joy and utter laughter in my life. I felt like I have finally accomplished something. Someone out there is realizing that I HAVE accomplished SOMETHING. I am actually GOOD at something! I finally realized that I may have a PURPOSE in life. Someone might actually recognize me for something! Yesterday, I was thrilled for two reasons:
1. I got a phone call from a department on campus for a job position that I didn’t even remember I applied to! I then discovered I applied for it about 3 weeks ago when I suffered from manic insanity depression mood. If you were keeping up you would remember what happened. Anywho… it is a technology teaching job and designer! In that sense.. more details later. I thank Sapphire who actually mentioned the idea that I would be a good teacher a couple of days ago in the comments for my post post about work. It’s funny how you guys can actually analyze my writing and behaviour and come up with such judgments. It seems to be true!
2. I went shopping yesterday and spent all night dancing!!
However, today was more exciting and sad.
1. I got a call back with exact interview time for that job (in two weeks) and there will be a panel of 5 people interviewing me. 3 professors, 1 manager, and 1 human resource lady. Wow. I was like FUCK! SCARY!
2. I began implementation and setup of my mini-business I am doing. Just a little bit more tweaks and I will be launching soon by early next week. I need a marketing plan implemented on the weekend. I am spending a lot so I can make A LOT!
3. Around 2 pm today, which was the same exact time the human resource lady called yesterday, (it seems to be their time to call people), another human resource lady called. The one in charge of the entire friggen University! I was dumbfounded! I kept thinking in the back of my head of what the hell did I apply for that the official University human resource lady is calling me for!
She said, “you available next week?”
I said, “sure..”
She said, “how about Wednesday.”
I said, “ok, no problem.”
She said, “I will e-mail you right now the full job description to review and please bring with you all your references.”
I said, “OK!” 
She emailed me the official job description. A SEVEN page document. Then I read the title of the job position, and I said, “WHAT THE !!!!!” God just decided to send some angels my way. All that desperate prayer and depression has gotten God sympathizing with me so badly! Were you people praying for me too? Seriously! I LOVE YOU ALL!
Last Friday when I heard the news that our work will not be funded anymore, and going through an appeal process and next year will be ever so gloomy job wise if things are not going to go positively, a shining light hit my way. Friday night, when I was sad, crying, depressed, unsure of what I should do and what the future holds, I applied for a job position that was just posted the day before. (I apply internally on Campus since I work there and it is easier to do so.) The job is for a main programming job for the second or third busiest sites on Campus. A really important University job. I was like, whatever, I will apply for anything. I am desperate and I am scared.
Tuesday morning, I looked at the job postings with my co-workers, and it was gone. Job postings are held for at least a week on the system then taken off every Thursday afternoon. I was like huh, this is weird. Oh well. They probably took it off cause they found someone really fast. It is like a standard I have seen that jobs are placed at least a week on the system. From Thursday to Thursday minimum. So I was a little shocked and I was like, what the hell, who cares. I wouldn’t even be recognized for it.
BUT, I WAS! I WAS! *JUMPING HYSTERICALLY UP AND DOWN* I was called in for the interview for THAT position! I was more in shock today than I was yesterday! The interview for the first job is not for another 2 weeks, but seriously, what the heck!! I am speechless. I am so happy only because I was JUST considered. At this point I don’t even care if I get the job or not. I was RECOGNIZED. That’s all I care about. To be recognized for achievements so I know that I have done something in my life and others want me!
However…
4. I am sad because I don’t want either jobs. I really don’t. I want to stay at my current job. I have sincere emotional attachment to that place. I put up with it so much through bad and good times. I can’t imagine going off to work at the University and not going to that exact same place anymore. To not see my boss anymore and just thinking how much he had to put up with me for 5.5 years and didn’t fire my whining ass till now. It makes me sick just thinking about it. I shut my brain today. After all this excitement I have convinced my self to not think anymore. No more thinking about tomorrow. I am going to take things one step at a time and no more thinking.
Everything happens for a reason.. and I am just going to follow whatever I was meant to do in this life, just one step at a time.
This is currently my favorite song because this is how I am feeling right now. This is just the way I are! Do you also like me the way I are?? 
“The Way I Are” by Timbaland! 
Congratulations on getting an interview! Let’s hope you get the job. It will be a boost for your career and you can still work on that budding business of yours on the side. It will bring in extra income for all those extras you want in life. Hopefully someday that business might be so profitably that you will be able to work at it full time and be your own boss for a change. :mrgreen:
Thanks Sapphire!! I am so excited!!
Hey!
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First of all, congratulations on getting the interview, hopefully you will get this job you like
Nice picture for “shocking” by the way
Thanks Ahmed,
I like posting pics that relate to my post! Gives the post a little extra something something!
COngrats! Good luck with your interviews!
Hey Mona!
A little extra something something?
Thats my cuppa tea.
I am into philosophical stuffs now
as I am about to write my part II of “tell me lies, tell me sweet little lies ( if you checked the blog 
)” but I dunno, I feel mister wisdom now :mrgreen:
Anywaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaay… I am out for shisha
could you remove my picture ?
hmm.. you could at least put your name.. I am only linking it to your profile. People can see who the owner is..
Rebellious, how wonderful it is that you have given YOURSELF full RECOGNITION (for being recognized)!
The fact that others are giving you recognition for your greatness is merely the icing on the cake. You were always great, you just didn’t believe it enough. If an opportunity is being given to you to move beyond the limitations of your present circumstances have every courage to go for it! Your life is a journey of self-discovery. It requires new surroundings and life-enriching challenges. Be of a charming courage. Continue on beyond “That’s all I care about.” to new horizons. You are already doing great things in your life, and in your own sincere, delightful way through your words out here in the oft treacherous wide open seas of the WWW you are helping to make this world that little bit more beautiful, and that little bit more worthwhile for so many people. Re-apply ‘sincere emotional attachments’ to the new environment. You will always be left with nice memories from your present workplace, and the people there, but you’ve got to move on if the opportunity is being given to you … Open your mind up to seeing you in the NEW. 
And what of the old? Well, let it be for the making of your sweet memories.
wow, thats a great feeling, especially if it follows a period of feeling totally useless and good for nothing
i feel u
and the way I are? i love timbo, hes the king. my life would reach its pinnacle if i ever get to work on a record with him.
yeah, we can dream.
that’s the spirit.. keep it up girl
Mabruuk, ya Mona. I know you know I was praying for you!
that’s great news Miss Mona!… :mrgreen: yeah..its hard leaving present circumstances.. but dont let the fear of a new challange make past memories too rosey
embrace the new challanges with all your capabilities… Gonna be hangin’ with the Jeffersons on the East Side pretty soon.. :lol: go get’em (rowr!)
I totally understand what you mean.. we females tend to stick to what we have whether its good or bad… excuse my language but they say “il khara illi ibti3rafo a7san min il khara illi ibtit3arraf 3alai”
We stick to our old car, we stick to our childhood toys, we stick to our cheating/ mistreating boyfriends.. we are just too emotional and are not up to changes.. we use our emotions more than our brains..
But sometimes change is good and its for the best.. you have to try it to find out.. its scary at first but doabel..
Good luck..