Hello Everyone, I have come across more and more blogs that keep talking about me. I am sick of it. Listen, I can talk and say whatever I feel like and I will take the shit for it. I will accept it if I know I was guilty about it. You want to argue with me, EMAIL me. I will not accept comments on my blog that belittle me in any way. It’s my site, and it is my blog. It’s my right. I will delete it and ban you. I want my blog to be a place to positively communicate and discuss important issues. So can everyone else who hate me or don’t want to say anything positive to leave me alone. You hate me, stop bothering me!

The net is such a broad place. I know many people have been banned as they think. No, you have not been banned at all. You have been banned coming from other sites that I don’t want to have any association with at all. “If anyone wants to see my site, use the front door!” The wordpress banning software works most of time, not 100%. I don’t care, as long as most of the people can get the message. But honestly, I feel hurt, sad and disgusted by what is going on.

I know whoever is behind it can still access my site and take comments and quotes from it, I don’t mind. I don’t have anything to hide. It is a public blog. You want people to judge me as a person from a few words I say, then sure. More power to you. You want to convince people by a few things I said and not me as a person. Then sure, more power to you!

Don’t you think it is silly you are wasting your time fighting and making fun of a person you don’t know and will never know at all?

By the way, let me make this clear. I didn’t start the hate. I had no association with it at all; all I kept getting is more and more commentary about it like I give a crap. You can insult me, make fun of me, do whatever. However, there are REAL pictures of me stolen from my facebook account and altered to make fun of me. Seriously, don’t you people think that is ethically wrong? The pictures are more than a year old. You can think I am ugly or hideous looking, then haha, like I care? God made me this way, if you think I am ugly, then really it is GOD’s choice. Go argue with GOD about it. Anyways, someone in the past had my facebook account and I added them as a gesture and I like interacting with people and making new friends. Those blogger friends are no longer on my facebook, and they haven’t been for a long time. Those pictures are not posted anywhere online and not coming from my blog or anywhere else. I am 100% sure of that. I did the research and googling and the only explanation is that they are taken from my FACEBOOK profile.

I am sorry, you can think I am bad, awful, resentful, hateful, but stealing my pictures and or giving it to someone else (whoever was on my facebook and think it is funny to make a joke out of me and I only had a few bloggers who were on my facebook and I know exactly who is behind it), then please stop this. It is beyond childish and disgusting. It is a law suit waiting to happen. I contacted blogger and they are investigating the issue and there are many US copyright laws against this. I am sorry, but seriously, I don’t have time for childish plays. If your main intention is revenge against me and make fun of me and hurt me, then you are successful. In the end, I blog for my self and I say whatever I want. This site is mine and I am free like any other blogger out there to say whatever I want. If it offends any of you, well, there are A LOT more blogs out there written by non-Arabs against us. It is sad when they have a stronger voice, and we are blogging and commenting on other blogs about this silly issue against each other instead of looking at the bigger picture of the world.

You can call me a RAG hag, and the person who used to call me a RAG has written the same acronym before on his blog. It is funny, really. I am quite amused and I just laugh about it.

By the way, I can ban you and you can still see my site. Anyone can. I cannot control proxy servers, or hidden IP’s. I can’t control the rubbish on the internet, and the many visitors that come by. It’s ok. I don’t care. I am not blogging to satisfy anyone but my self.

If you think you were successful in hurting me, then yes. Thank you. You made your point, stole my pictures, and laughed about it. That was your main intention, and you succeeded. Congratulations.

Thank you,

-Mona

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The past few days, my mom has been just hearing news about her friends and friend’s daughters with breast cancer. I can’t stand hearing stories of people dying or going through chemo-therapy. I just hate the thoughts of sickness. So two Arab women are suffering now, and have little time to live. This is their story, and hope everyone can learn from it and avoid this deadly sickness. Things happen for a reason and it is all in God’s hands.

Story One:

My mom’s friend is a Lebanese lady who has been divorced for many years now. Her ex husband and her son are back home in Lebanon, and she and her mom live here in Canada, and so does her sister. We have known them for years. However, lately, her other sister came from Lebanon suddenly to visit. It turns out that her sister, the one living here, has been diagnosed with breast cancer and has 2 – 3 months tops to live. The lady is in her early 50’s.

Why does she have 2 – 3 months to live? Well, she knew she had a problem from 2 years ago. For a small lady, her breasts grew so large in such a short period of time that she was too afraid to go ask the doctor about it. Fear.. our worst enemy. How did everyone find out she has cancer? Simple, she was on her way home, and someone from her apartment building found her unconscious in her car laying on the steering wheel. She was rushed to the hospital, and every doctor was amazed by what happened. They questioned why she didn’t get treatment the moment she felt pain and noticeable change. The lady simply answer, “I was scared to know the truth.”

So the doctors cannot help her anymore. A surgery is too late, chemo-therapy is not going to help, and they are giving her 2 – 3 months to live.

May God help her and not let her suffer in the afterlife as she is suffering now in this lifetime.

Story Two:

My mom knows a Palestenian family who has a daughter who is younger than me, 24 years old. She was also diagnosed with breast cancer. She was a recent computer science graduate, and she got a job in Toronto and she was to live with her friend. The moment she got to Toronto, she confided in her friend that her breasts have been hurting her for a while. Her friend’s father is a doctor, and told her to immediately go see him. The moment he examined her, he told her to go now to emergency. He obviously felt the lumps. She had surgery, removed the lumps, her parents here in London were notified, and she has to go through chemo-therapy. She is a gorgeous smart girl.

Now, she no longer goes out, wears a wig, suffers from the pain, and what did her mom think of the whole situation? She kept telling her daughter, “God is punishing you. You must have been doing something behind our backs all the time, and this is the end result.” WTF? Seriously, what is wrong with Arab Muslim moms? Instead of comforting her daughter through this turmoil, she assumes that she has been doing crap behind her parent’s back? Oh dear lord, what is wrong with the world? I thought that when humans suffer on earth, God is being merciful so he won’t make them suffer for many bad deeds in the afterlife. I just can’t believe how parents think. It’s so shameful.

May God help her and not let her suffer in the afterlife as she is suffering now in this lifetime.

So I am calling out and telling all the ladies out there that don’t be afraid. Always check and self diagnose or go to the doctor when you feel any pain. It can happen to anyone at any age.

In Canada, breast cancer foundation can be found here: site.

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I wanted today to be slow.. I have been awake since 6 am and the day kept dragging on. I am avoiding doing real work, but I got most of it done, I am just slacking and waiting. No big deal. So I spent the day in my room pretty much because I am just cold. Our house gets really hot or really cold real quick. I feel like a cup of hot tea! That’s all I have been drinking all weekend. It’s a good therapy tool and filled with a different type of caffeine.

My mom today decided to make kick ass Falafel from scratch.. so good. I ate two sandwiches cause it was so yummy! I love it when mom actually decides to cook once in a while. Other than that, I just spent the day doing some research work, browsing the net, discovering more social networking tools and being cold. I am so cold.

I took random pics of my room of the things I keep staring at all day and won’t move! MOVE you IT objects! I seriously need to clean my room and get rid of the toys.

My wireless keyboard that I love!

My Harry Potter collection. The first book is not there cause my brother started reading it. It will take him a few years before he finishes them. I read all those in 2 months!

I keep preaching cleanness and organization, and in my room that idea is non-existent!

Looking out the window to the backyard I seldom step foot in. All those leaves and COLD fall days..

This is my favorite fluffy friend! It’s name is Froggy. It’s very bright and green and dressed up!

This is my moving Monkey. It has a sensor on it’s mouth. For a while I had it at the door of my room to scare off people by its noratic jumping up and down, but now, he is just hanging there. He He He!

I am going to start taking my new Sony Cyber-shot DSC-S650 with me everywhere and take pics of all the odd things I see every day!

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I just came up with the ultimate business plan to free me from work ever again! I just bought the domains and looking for pre-made software out there that I can buy. All in the next week my master plan will be implemented and I can retire from the work land within a year. I just have to be patient and spend some money to make some money!

I was browsing around for my competition. I have ONE competition! OMG! So I am expanding on the idea and making it better!

Finally.. University education has come in handy finally and I will be happy!!

Yaay! I finally slept well the past couple of nights. I wake up with lots of energy and lots of plans! I am psyched! I AM NO LONGER LAZY!

It’s only 7:35 am.. I need breakfast and do some work! I NEED BRAIN ENERGY!

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That song is stuck in my head. I can’t take it out. Blah! So what did I do today? I woke up from a good night’s sleep. I had such an awful few weeks, and yesterday all that ended you can say. Some people emailed me saying if I got fired or I quit my job? loool No! What a bunch of silly people! You will find out later. So I guess I finally woke up. Someone forced reality on me and made me realize how God awful life was, and it is time to put everything aside, and start new. I still have to finish up a lot of things, but I am very willing to take a new path to life. I feel excited a bit, and a bit overwhelmed. However, I am content. I spent a little bit of last night crying, being mad, and trying to analyze why life sucks. Then everything made sense to me. I just need have a lot of faith, lots of love (which I didn’t want to share with anyone for a long time), and think positively. So I made some plans.

November: do nothing.

December: do nothing and wait till December 23rd; my twenty-seventh birthday and have a kick ass day and enjoy a one week vacation.

January: start thinking.

February: gather all the information.

March: approve all the information.

April: start the implementation!

There you go. My plan for the next six month. It involves a lot of steps, but I am a very paranoid person and thinking that far ahead is not good.

The do nothing part is actually not true. Do nothing to me means: to do minimal thinking and little effort in implementing anything. So to me do nothing is browse the net, apply to jobs that I like and being picky about, and wait for something wicked cool to happen soon.

My plan starting January is to actually look for ANY job. ANY = Desperation. lool Oh man, I make my self laugh a lot!

Honestly, why am I worried about work? I can friggen apply to anything now a days. The job market for computers is so great! Not like 5 years ago where everyone was doing it. Now, no one wants to do it. We are a rare commodity in the hands of companies who are willing to hire a bunch of crazy techies.

By the way, I wanted to mention this issue which I was pretty annoyed with. Why the hell there aren’t many Arab girl programmers out there? Seriously. I look, not many at all. Especially with a blog. Any Arab girls out there with any technical expertise? Any graphic/coding skills. Any technical and internet knowledge? Chatting on MSN and living off Facebook does not make you a computer person! Common!! Do you know what Twitter is? Do you know what social bookmarks are? Meh! So disappointing! If any, please talk to me! I need to feel comfortable knowing that there are other Arab girls like me!!

Also, I am thinking of a plan of this domain I bought last year and I want to make use out of it. I need a temporary second income. I mean full income ($3000+) that I can fall back to. Yes, I am being realistic. I can make money off the stupid net, and I always knew how but was too lazy to do it. I guess I have to use my computer business skills and start planning. I guess I finally have to get off my ass and do some real work. In my case, I have to stop browsing the net and actually making use of it. I got the brains and knowledge of the internet. So it is time for me to get my business ideas rolling and start making some real coin. The internet is my domain, and I own it! We all own it and we can make use of it. Hehehe.. I got the plan ready, I have been the laziest pessimistic person on earth to implement it the past few months. Too much on my mind, too many problems and depression killed me. But oh I am lazy! Being a programmer for so many years makes any person lazy. It’s all those hours coding and eating and looking at a high resolution monitor!

Good thing I went to the gym this morning to rejuvenate.

Don’t you love it when I think positively! I love it my self! I feel like I am alive again!

Anyways, the song in the title of this post made me happy and I feel giggly and girly. I got the movie The Notebook that I want to watch. And since tomorrow is daylight’s saving time, and we will fall back an hour, then I will get an hour extra of sleep. So an hour more of staying awake!

I will sleep good tonight and inshallah every day from now on.

PS. If you haven’t seen the movie The Notebook, you are friggen missing out! I am sorry, I WILL make you go off to rent it, buy it, or download it. Any method of legal or illegal activity you use. WATCH IT! I love it because I think my blog is like a Notebook. And maybe when I am over 60 and still alive and internet still exits, my blog will hold all my memories and will always keep me alive!

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