I hated 2007 from the beginning. It started off bad and ended bad. It was not a happy year at all.

January

Slow, boring.

February

Stressful, too much work.

March

Too much work for people who don’t appreciate it. Too many people with different demands thinking that I am theirs to own.

April

People didn’t get the point that I am a workaholic and if I can take 2 or 3 classes a semester for my mere enjoyment and to learn more and work full time, that I am crazy and I love work for the hell of it. It’s what I do for fun. Work for me is fun. People make it stressful. Leave me the fuck alone and I can do the work! Don’t tell me how to do it or when to do it and keep changing your mind constantly without having an aim in what you are trying to achieve. Fuck have a plan. See, that’s the difference between people who took project management courses and design, and the rest of the world. They have to understand that things will get done. I am known! Hear me when I tell you. You give me a deadline of one week, then it gets done in one day. Everything to me is dirt easy and simple to do. I would get it done. Just leave me the fuck alone. Don’t threaten me. Don’t boss me around. Why can’t people understand that bossing around a Capricorn is like sucking the soul out of them? Leave a Capricorn alone! They will get the fucken work done without any problem. Stop nagging and threatening. We are ruthless, mean and we don’t give a shit. We will risk our job, risk being fired and accept being fired than be degraded by any human being. Fuck. People don’t get it! Also, we seldom forgive and we never forget!

May

After 5 years of working at the same place I was going insane and I had an ultimatum. It was to either quit work now to keep whatever sanity brain cell pieces I had left, or to loose whatever I had left of it and just piss my self and everyone else off. If I was going down, I am taking everyone else with me!

June

I was working away on re-drawing and animating an entire game to modern look and feel that took me 2 years to implement so far before the end of August. The summer was lovely and I was focused. I had an aim and work to do. Wohoo!

July

Nice hot summer. I didn’t mind it. Loved being indoors and I wasn’t quite loosing my sanity yet. However, work sucked. My boss was off for a month, and the kids at work spent it playing video games instead. Pissed me off so much their lack of concern with their work and just to earn money. That’s when I lost 1 out of the 4 brain cells of sanity I had left.

August

End of summer blues. Hot summer but I was working away and I had a deadline that I met. It was nice to achieve something great in such a short period of time.

I lost another brain cell again by the middle of the month cause I wanted to seriously kill my self for having to deal with such an ass that wouldn’t leave me the fuck alone. I honestly at that point felt that I have wasted 4 years of my life for an ass who didn’t fucken deserve a nail from my finger! He used my blog and resorted to Facebook as the last means to insult me. He insulted me first. He then insulted my boss and my work. Why? Because it was the reason he stopped talking me to me and being an ass to begin with. He got him self a stupid job like the rest of the people who studied shitty computers and ended up in the same company getting paid more than me and thinking he is the best. I hate people who think they are better than me cause no one is better than anyone else. We are all humans and all the same. But you know what. I learned this the hard way. Aquarius and Capricorn don’t match. It’s suicide and those two zodiacs are meant to kill one another in the end.

September

Took a week off to relax. First time ever and I enjoyed it by doing nothing but reading 2 Harry Potter books and drinking lots of Star Bucks coffees. Yay!

I also got my lab turtle Squibby! Adorable little turtle! Made me happy and I felt I had someone that actually likes me at work! My co-workers don’t like me. I felt the past few months alone and sad.

October

This is when I lost the rest of my sanity. I was first diagnosed in the beginning of the month with mild hearing loss but I was not going to spend over $2500 for a hearing aid to test first on my right ear to see if it will improve my hearing. The other suggestion the audiologist gave me was to look at the person’s mouth when they are speaking so I don’t miss a word. That’s when I totally lost it. I was like, I am 26 and this is happening to me. What next?

I felt really depressed and I couldn’t do anything or bring my self to achieve anything. So I decided that I needed to talk to someone I didn’t know so they tell me that I am insane and I need professional help constantly and can tell me that things one will day will be fine. That I am just insane now and they can talk the talk and help me with their scientific mambo jumbo. Then I read an article later on the internet saying that most of the people who are computer programmers or their job and life involves computers end up suffering from clinical depression. I was like great. I am part of the NORM.

Mid-End of October, not like I wasn’t insane enough and I needed more anxiety and headaches, my boss and his stupid boss decided that it is a good idea to hire someone who has the same skills as me to pretty much to help me with a new project. I first said, “no thank you.” Second time I said, “WHAT THE FUCK?!” Third time I said, “you people don’t get it. I have over 5 years of skills in doing anything pretty much. I have the skills and talent and I have been doing this shit for years. I can do it all by myself without any problems. I am flexible and I can work day and night to do whatever. That’s why I lasted this long. Hiring someone will not help me. It is a complete WASTE of my time!”

That’s when I flipped and stopped working. They wanted to hire a help so I did nothing waiting for the help. I kept fighting with my boss and I was pretty much out of it most of the time and I didn’t care what I said to him or what I did. I kept waiting for him to fire me. Then he would have a legitimate excuse to hire the proper help. No use. Why he would not fire me!? No fucken clue! I am insane and I start fights with no reason! Any other company would have fired me from day one. I am insane! I don’t like taking orders that make no sense. I need to stop it by the way. I need to stop thinking that I am superior and I can do anything. So I decided to be a proper employee and do what I was told to do to a minimum and be a lazy ass for the rest of the day. Bleah. Honestly, Bill Gates would love to keep me and own my soul. Insane people tend to work for Mickey soft.

All my sanity cells were gone by then.

November

Wohooo.. the beginning of the month. I still didn’t get to smell November and its coldness and we find out that our organization is not get refunded and we will be out of the job soon. We suck! Wohoo! I wonder why! It’s probably because some people think it is a good idea to hire more and more help. Cause it seems that if more people work on a stupid simple project would make a better quality project! @#$!@$!@ At that point I just gave up on everything. I was on job hunting mood and I felt it would boost my morale for a bit. I needed something to look forward to and for someone else in the world to recognize that I have some usable skills.

I suck by the way and I don’t have any usable skills. I noticed that skills are different than natural talent. I can’t explain what I can do; I just do it. It’s natural to me. People just don’t get it. I don’t need to talk the talk. I am a freaken Capricorn. I don’t need to explain that I can do something to perfection. I know I can. Why can’t people realize that without me explaining it?

I pretty much spent the month doing nothing. I felt hopeless, useless and insane. I pretty much didn’t care anymore about anything anymore.

December

Oh December. The month to end all months. The month where the coldness bites your ass and people are too poor and bitchy to give a damn. So I wait. Will I have a job? Do I have work? Can I do more work? Too many questions. I think the cold air numbs all your body and half your brain. So that part of your brain that sort of works and makes all the judgments for you pretty told me this:

“MONA WAKE THE HELL UP! You are STUPID! Stop acting like a fucking TEN YEAR OLD!”

Phew.. I finally listened to my self and I decided to be normal again. I decided that I will work till the last day and I can do anything! I didn’t work all these years to end things like I have accomplished nothing! I am Mona. I like to end things with a bang!

So I went back to reality and I got a job hopefully for the next year so I can properly prepare to end things with a bang! Wohoo!

I am currently on Holidays. I hate holidays. One more day and I can go back to work! Wohooo! Also, those fucken fake nails are annoying! I can type finally thank God. Took me a while to get used to them glued on my fingers. STUPID fake anything. God. How do people get Tattoos or get plastic surgeries? Doesn’t it feel odd? Abnormal? Unnatural?

There is an hour and a half left for this fucken 2007 to end. I hated it. I will always hate it. And I don’t want to celebrate the end of it. Screw it. I am going to sleep. I will blog next year. A proper year. A lovely even numbered leap year. Amazing. I love leap years cause I was born in one and I find it kick ass years! Leap year. Leap year. Leap year!!

P.S. This site rocks for us Capricorns!

Angry, Blah Blah, Funny

Happy New Year! Although I could care less about new year’s this year cause the whole year sucked ass, and I will have a year end review for everyone to utterly enjoy reading tomorrow. For today, I am providing my Happy Frigge’n New Year Card. Rebellious Style!

Don’t ask me where I got the hat and the noise maker toy!

Blah Blah, Funny

I will write this in detail so I don’t miss a thing of today’s events.

My friend went to work this morning and spent it chatting with me on MSN until she was done work and came over to my city for our party we were planning. It wasn’t really a party but a gathering of people.

Anyways, so she came around 1:30 pm and I was dressed and ready and she wanted to go to the mall. We got a manicure that I have been hating all night cause I never have nails. I always cut them and I suddenly got nails that are long! Good thing I can type now. At the nail saloon, the Chinese lady was putting on my nails and she had a heavy accent but she was such a social butterfly. Half the time I wasn’t paying attention to her and my friend is like, she just said this to you, answer her! I was like, “oh.” After we got our nails done I couldn’t get my bank card out of my wallet! The guy in the nail saloon took it out for me. So sad. I am so not used to them.

After that we did the aqua massage thing. It was great and relaxing. It was a 2 for 1 special and it was nice and cheap!

Then, we went to my house so she can do her hair and get ready. So we sat down for a bit and she opened her present that I gave her. She was happy, I got her an Olympus Camera. She got me a Guess watch. Obviously we both got each other chocolate!

Then the drama begins..

Well, here is the thing. She was talking to this guy from USA back and forth for almost 3 weeks that she chatted with from Arablounge. He even booked a ticket to come and see her this upcoming Friday. She was happy and excited that she has been talking to a guy that she clicked with. I was a bit skeptical because it was too soon and too odd. But what do I know right? I am just Mona. I have my own ideas that are somewhat right.

Well, she is evil and sneaky and she knows all the tricks in the book of finding out everything she needs to know about a guy. She looked up his work, and everything about him. She even found out his salary range from his work’s law firm website. She is worse than me and she knows how to get what she wants off the internet.

So what did she do? She decided 3 days ago to make a fake account and see if he was serious about her and not talking to other girls from Arablounge. Blah blah. The typical female behavior. She flirted with him using a fake account, and then he replied back today to this fake account while he was on the phone with her driving all the way to here saying,

“hey, this is my name, my emails and instant messenger accounts, and my work and cell phone number.”

I read it for her because she went into to shock. She started crying in my room saying, “why me, why no guy is ever serious and goes around and wanting to talk to other girls.” I had to calm her down and this was about 5:15 pm. I said, “we have to be at the restaurant, people will be waiting. Let me do your hair and you get dressed and we will deal with it later.”

She kept text messaging him back and forth saying, “you are a player. Blah blah. I will talk to you later.” The guy was a stupid idiot and said, “what happened? I don’t get it.” Then she replied back saying, “I will talk to you when I am drunk.”

So we get to the restaurant and she said, “Where is your boss, we need to buy a beer now and get drunk so I can talk to this ass.”

I honestly wanted to shoot my self and smack her upside the head. I did hit her unexpectedly later but she didn’t know why. Half the time we were eating she was getting text messages from him. Then she left for about 15 or 20 minutes talking to him on the phone and she was pissed.

I kept thinking, when will this night be over? When will this night be over!

She then said, “I don’t feel like eating. I don’t want to eat. You order whatever. I am pissed, sad, depressed. Is there something wrong with me? Is it us? Why do guys not want us and just want to play with us? Are we crazy? Are we not liked?”

I told her, “donno. I really don’t and I told you before that guys are stupid and liars if they act this way. Stop being gullible and believing any guy who says nice things to you and acts weird and fills you with mushy stuff so you can believe he is the nicest guy in the world. He is just playing you for a fool.”

She didn’t get it and she talked to him and he kept making up excuses and kept telling her that she was the only one he was talking to, he is serious, he will not talk to other girls.

Bull crap. She is dumb and he is an ass. She needs some serious smacks in the head to get her back to reality. I told her, be mean. Be your nasty true self and stop falling for stupid guys!

She doesn’t listen. Never listens. Why? Because she is me. She is stubborn, a Capricorn, and won’t face reality and living in denial.

On a happier note, the night was great. I know really who my friends are who showed up. Even though not many people said they would, but it would have been nice if they did. Oh well! We had a nice dinner, and played pool and we kept loosing.

I am dead tired and I got so much chocolate in my room. :lol: I am going to the gym tomorrow morning early and then relax, and enjoy the last day of the year!

Thank God 2007 is ending! Time for 2008 to shine its open doors. It will be a leap year! I love leap years!

Angry, Blah Blah, Funny, They said what?, Whatever!

This week has been horribly crazy. I can’t stand not doing anything and just going to the malls. I hate my city. I am so bored that I decided I can’t take another week off and I am going back to work after the new year. I need to do something with my life that is productive or I would go insane!

Also, I didn’t drink coffee for two weeks! Two friggen weeks. Dear Lord I lost my mind. I am a coffee addict and sitting at home has made me so bored that I am too lazy to make coffee or go to Tim Horton’s and get me a nice cup of coffee. I seriously lost my mind.

Also, my family members drive me insane. Let’s begin with mom’s constant nagging.

“Mona, why don’t you clean your room, (jarbani!)” Jarbani = Disgusting *smacking my head*

“Mona, why don’t you clean the house, my legs hurt, my back hurts, if you don’t want to clean, massage my feet. I am getting old.” *smacking my head*

We walk in the mall and we see old ladies with canes and very wrinkly faces and my mom says, “I will be like that soon. Very soon.” My mom is not old by the way, she just thinks she is. *smacking my head with candy canes*

“Mona, why don’t you clean all the dishes, remove the clean dishes from the dish washer, and help me. You never clean!” I always clean, but I am not always in the kitchen or downstairs in general to keep cleaning every dish after every person! *poking my eyes with my fingers*

“Mona, why do you keep saying you don’t like kids, what happens when you have a house of your own and your own kids. I used to say the same thing when I first had kids. I didn’t like kids, but you get used to it.” No wonder my mom keeps screaming at me, she didn’t like kids much and had me and my brother only and my younger sister was a mistake. Yes, I said it, my poor little sister was a mistake! (God I am evil!) However, it is not that I don’t like kids, I just wish they just shut up and stop being spoiled! *smacking my head repeatedly with a toy hammer*

“Mona, you are not going to the mall with us. You are cranky and you need to dress up and I am not walking with you in the mall looking like that.” Like what? No clue. I think she is just ashamed of me in general, but I dragged my self with her anyways. *grinding my teeth together real hard*

First time while I was making lunch, and yes I COOK, she says, “Mona, bring down the dirty laundry hamper.”

I am still cooking and almost down, and she says, “Mona, why didn’t you bring down the dirty laundry hamper?”

I am done cooking and we are all eating, and mom says, “Mona, why till now you didn’t bring down the dirty laundry hamper?”

I said this politely, “mom, do you have something to do today that laundry must be done this very instance?” She says, “no, but bring down the laundry now!” *wishing I threw all the clothes on the floor and making my sister pick it up*

“Mona, why don’t you sit with me? You are on vacation. I am your mother.” She says that like 10 times a day and after all the above mentioned incidents, why would I sit with her? *smacking my head with a watermelon*

I want to go back to work and have a normal life again!!

More incidents to be continued another time.

Angry, They said what?, Whatever!

I was actually discussing this topic with my friend today about how Arabs make a big deal about Sex. The topic came up as we were playing UNO on MSN games and the commercials on there are all about Sex Education. I told her, “don’t kids play these games?” She said, “yep.. and now in middle school they are getting tested for sexually transmitted diseases.” I remember when I was in middle school and highschool, sex was such a rare thing to discuss openly. It was a private thing that resulted in “oooh, awww.. no way!”

Now, let’s discuss Arabs and Muslims hypocrisy when it comes to sex. So your not supposed to have sex before marriage? Normal. Understandable and Islamic. We all accept that.

So where is the hypocrisy? Well, I am a disbeliever of the engagement period and getting legally married before the wedding day. So ethically blah blah a girl and guy have an engagement party where they are legally married by the Sheikh and through the civil court. Hmm. Ok. For how long? Well, I heard of engagements going on for 2, 3, 4, 5 years! So you are legally married for that long and it is called an engagement period? So, culturally this is done because a girl and guy cannot be seen together alone or holding hands or any of that junk if they weren’t legally married. That’s all? So you telling me through that time period, where they are legally married by religion and country, they cannot have sex?

What’s funnier, that many many people I know and heard stories of giving birth to their first child within 5 or 6 months of their wedding day. That’s when they spend more money for another party to wear a white dress and invite many people and only know 10% of them and have to feed the rest. Such a waste of money! But the birth after 5 or 6 months is funny and so obvious!

So if you plan to get married, then get engaged for a short period of time to prepare for a wedding. Stop spending that ridiculous amount of money on two parties, don’t forget the wedding shower! Another waste of money. Blah! Also, don’t get legally married for a long long time! You know if you have problems, then you have to get legally divorced. In other words, you are DIVORCED! So what’s better? Being divorced before even having a wedding or getting to know someone before getting engaged just like that!

I decided to write this post after reading Asoom’s post about Sex Education by Sheikh Yasir Birjasax. I read it and I was amused that she wrote it. I thought wow, that’s pretty cool of her. She did something rebellious in my book of rebellion!

So for all of those who piss me off and keep searching on Google for Arab Girl sex, etc, and end up at my site, well, I want to share with you what Asma wrote from attending a conference about Islamic Sex Education! I decided to share it because everyone was attacking her for no reason! Enjoy and learn! We are here to educate you! However, no graphical displays.

Asoom wrote Yesterday:

Sunnah practices/recommendations

Man on top (makes for easy pregnancy)
Removing Hair (both sexes, should be removed, at least trimmed)
Smelling good
Circumcision
Foreplay (lots of it)
Taking time
Using sex as bargaining technique (applies to women)
Showering together
Massages/Body Oils
Being playful
HYGIENE

Islamically permissible:

Sex positions (no anal)
locations (as long as other people can’t see you)
Coverless
Mutual Stimulation
Oral Sex (disputed)
Wild Fantasies (with mutual consent, as long as there’s no crossing into the impermissible)
Explicit language
Pregnancy sex (with the exception of last few weeks whatever that means)
Sex in Ramadan (feel free to break your fast with intercourse, yes the sheikh did say that)
Food (disputed)
Live video/mirrors on ceiling (just no taping)
Hand Pleasuring (the other person)

Islamically Impermissible:

Forcing
Ejaculating in mouth
Describing your personal sex life (unless it’s for the purpose of seeking help)
Anal Sex
Menstrual Sex
Video Taping
Masturbation (disputed so I’m not sure why he listed it under the impermissible-there were some conditions were it was ok).
That weird Arab tradition in some communities where they show the blood from the wedding night (7araam)
Watching porn for stimulation (not sure why he added “for stimulation” as opposed to just watching porn)
Adult Toys (?) (again this one is disputed so I’m not sure why he added it under impermissible)

Blah Blah, Random Thoughts, They said what?, Whatever!