Voluntary Addictions

It’s funny how people here talk freely about drugs and stuff. To me I would never even think about trying any of that junk. However, many people here smoke like crazy since high school before the legal smoking age. I always wondered what was up with smoking. Why are people addicted to that crap?

In my first year of University, the people I hung out with, Arab girls, were smoking in secret. All over University they would have hiding spots so no one can see them smoking. We used to call each other and the person smoking would say, “I am in spot 54.” We obviously all knew where that is.

They did it in secret because they didn’t want anyone to see them practicing this horrible habit. One time I was in a very bad mood and I needed something to calm me down. My friends said, “here, take a cigaratte.” Peer pressure? Yep. They lit it up for me and I inhaled it.

I coughed violently and fell on the ground and said, “Fucking stupid piece of shit. That’s not right! How the hell you put this shit in your lungs. I rather suffer from depression than have to inhale this crap. It’s like walking into a tire factory.” So I threw it out and they screamed at me and said, “noooooooo.. don’t step on it!! We can use it later!”

Whatever.

My Ex was a heavy smoker him self that it was more than disgusting. I couldn’t stand and at one point I told him that I am allergic to smoke and I can’t stand the smell. I will die!

To me, the most disgusting thing on earth is smoke. I can’t stand it and I don’t even stand anywhere near people who smoke. Isn’t it disgusting? No offense to addicted smokers, I just can’t stand the smell.

Then there was coffee. The heavy caffeinated drink. The funny thing I didn’t start drinking coffee till second year of my University life. I was a sporadic drinker. It wasn’t my thing. I slowly got used to it from not sleeping for many days doing assignments. It became a bad habit. As I started working it became worse. As I am always at work by 8 am, coffee seems to be my morning cure. It is the only thing that will make my day more tolerable. It sucks. One time I stopped drinking coffee for two days, and I ended up with the biggest migraine. I finally realized I am addicted. I am ADDICTED TO COFFEE!

Certain times in the past couple of years I was addicted to sleeping pills. I am trying to control it by making my self really tired and using up all my energy for the day. It’s better to be dead tired and go right to bed, then sitting in bed trying to go to sleep.

Finally, my sweetest addiction, Coca Cola. I drink it daily about 2 or 3 time a day. I am addicted. I can’t go a day without it. One time we didn’t have cola and I made my dad go to the store and buy me some or else I would have gone crazy. I can’t help it. I am addicted to it. More than my sweet tooth to fudge. Fudge is my depression cure. I eat it about 2 or 3 times a month. That’s all.

Random Thoughts, Ranting as usual!, They said what?