I am depressingly looking for a job. I don’t know how much money my work has to sustain me. It’s not like I get paid a lot as a person with 6 years work experience. You can say I am an underpaid programmer since programming jobs are like McDonald’s jobs. TOO MANY of us! Anyways, I get paid what an entry level programmer gets right out of University. It’s sick, depressing, and what pissed me off more is that I spent all these years and I didn’t get any benefits or anything. Only last year I found out that regular contract workers can get pension from the University. Yaay my life. What have I done in my past life to deserve this!!! So, what did I get out of this job? Nothing useful. I check out other jobs out there, and I absolutely have no programming skills. Whatever I learned at University is it. So if I have to look for work, I have to start from scratch. That’s what pisses me off.
So I spent late afternoon just looking for work. I saw great jobs, but they pay a LOT. And they are programming. I read them and think to my self, “I can do this. I can learn to do this quickly since I am a programmer. However, too much competition and knowing my self and my luck, I won’t be considered.” I tell my self to always think positive, but I can’t because I want so much, and I am capable of doing many things and always be challenged, but no one is giving me a chance. Even my current work I was never given a chance to be a real programmer or be a full time employee. A technical college graduate got all the pleasures of working there, and me, as a University graduate, nothing. Just emotional suffering, treated like I am just another useless worker, and I just did stupid graphic work that hardly anyone appreciated.
Anyways, leaving work this afternoon was a hassle. Snow covered roads. Bus drivers driving slow. Snowing like crazy! Wow. But it’s not that cold. Only -6 celcius. With my layers of clothes, it’s not THAT bad. Just snow is getting annoying!
I passed by the mall, and in the middle, Santa Clause is there. Guess who Santa is? My Proffesor! He is the boss of his own company too, and he just decided that he wanted to be Santa Clause. So he saw me, Ho Ho Howwd me and waved at me! lool I am like great!!!! I love holding kids for 1 minute, but that’s it! Hearing whining kids all day is annoying!
I decided to enjoy the rest of the day by taking a video of my joyful snowy backyard!
The out door grill covered in snow.