Have you ever?

Have you ever had that feeling of utter loneliness and despair? When you feel that no one is there for you. No one there to love you back. Not being able to hear those words coming out of someone else’s mouth towards you. You sit there pondering the thought that some day, some where, some time, someone will come up to you and tell you truthfully that they love you. However, that it not how things turn end up being at all.

When you know someone for so long and you think, my oh my, maybe there is something special about this relationship. Maybe there is hope for something more vivid and promising. Yet, that day comes. That person tells you that they truly love you. You have waited all that time to hear it, your heart melts, your insides quiver with joy, and things to you seem perfect.

Then, time happens. Days pass, months pass, years pass, but it is nothing more than living a dream that subdues our consciousness. Things are too perfect to be real. You think that love is the answer to all the problems, but it is the cause of every possible misery that you have to endure. You start talking to time. Hoping time will turn counterclockwise and go back to that moment where love started. You want to go back and tell your self that this is wrong. I saw the future and this critical moment in time should have not happened. It was not meant to happen because love is not what everyone claims it to be. It is the end of your emotional life. It sucks every tiny being in your soul into this cursed spell. If you ever believed in magic then love is the epiphany of that.

It is an eternal entrapment of the soul. You will forever be bounded by it and you cannot free your self of such misery. If you try, then you will end up aimless and lonely in life. You try to free your self because your brain cannot fathom the thought of being tortured anymore. Yet, your heart, that poor entity that holds your soul cannot let go. It is forever sealed within its chambers and to open it, to let it go, is to let go of everything else in your world. To let go of everything that makes you who you are.

If you ever were in love, and love is but a term of no physical appearance, but it is more powerful than a dagger that would stab you in the heart. The physical pain is merciful compared to the emotional agony that you have to suffer through. This word. This feeling. This powerful transparent emotional deity is all but a word. A word. Nothing more. A word that we tell our selves to be the cure of all our pain. All we need is love. We need this word.

Why? What has it done to us?

It made us trapped in our own world walking aimlessly in its darkness. This void we cannot escape. If we try, we are left like fallen leaves in the autumn with no one to pick us up. Withered and alone. Waiting to be nurtured again. How can you nurture and bring life to something that has died?

Has your soul died when love ended?

Can we now believe in another word? A word more powerful than love. A word that people don’t take into consideration. A word that has been forgotten and barely used because it is nothing but a mere dream of what reality could be.

Just remember this word. Hope. There will always be hope. Just believe in that because you have forgotten it. You forgot what it meant and it will mask the pain. It will make life bearable. Hope is a dream. And dream is nothing but hope. It is not love. It is hope that we need. It is what we truly wish for and only thing that is truly keeping us alive.

Remember… Only fools rush in.

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