I hated 2007 from the beginning. It started off bad and ended bad. It was not a happy year at all.

January

Slow, boring.

February

Stressful, too much work.

March

Too much work for people who don’t appreciate it. Too many people with different demands thinking that I am theirs to own.

April

People didn’t get the point that I am a workaholic and if I can take 2 or 3 classes a semester for my mere enjoyment and to learn more and work full time, that I am crazy and I love work for the hell of it. It’s what I do for fun. Work for me is fun. People make it stressful. Leave me the fuck alone and I can do the work! Don’t tell me how to do it or when to do it and keep changing your mind constantly without having an aim in what you are trying to achieve. Fuck have a plan. See, that’s the difference between people who took project management courses and design, and the rest of the world. They have to understand that things will get done. I am known! Hear me when I tell you. You give me a deadline of one week, then it gets done in one day. Everything to me is dirt easy and simple to do. I would get it done. Just leave me the fuck alone. Don’t threaten me. Don’t boss me around. Why can’t people understand that bossing around a Capricorn is like sucking the soul out of them? Leave a Capricorn alone! They will get the fucken work done without any problem. Stop nagging and threatening. We are ruthless, mean and we don’t give a shit. We will risk our job, risk being fired and accept being fired than be degraded by any human being. Fuck. People don’t get it! Also, we seldom forgive and we never forget!

May

After 5 years of working at the same place I was going insane and I had an ultimatum. It was to either quit work now to keep whatever sanity brain cell pieces I had left, or to loose whatever I had left of it and just piss my self and everyone else off. If I was going down, I am taking everyone else with me!

June

I was working away on re-drawing and animating an entire game to modern look and feel that took me 2 years to implement so far before the end of August. The summer was lovely and I was focused. I had an aim and work to do. Wohoo!

July

Nice hot summer. I didn’t mind it. Loved being indoors and I wasn’t quite loosing my sanity yet. However, work sucked. My boss was off for a month, and the kids at work spent it playing video games instead. Pissed me off so much their lack of concern with their work and just to earn money. That’s when I lost 1 out of the 4 brain cells of sanity I had left.

August

End of summer blues. Hot summer but I was working away and I had a deadline that I met. It was nice to achieve something great in such a short period of time.

I lost another brain cell again by the middle of the month cause I wanted to seriously kill my self for having to deal with such an ass that wouldn’t leave me the fuck alone. I honestly at that point felt that I have wasted 4 years of my life for an ass who didn’t fucken deserve a nail from my finger! He used my blog and resorted to Facebook as the last means to insult me. He insulted me first. He then insulted my boss and my work. Why? Because it was the reason he stopped talking me to me and being an ass to begin with. He got him self a stupid job like the rest of the people who studied shitty computers and ended up in the same company getting paid more than me and thinking he is the best. I hate people who think they are better than me cause no one is better than anyone else. We are all humans and all the same. But you know what. I learned this the hard way. Aquarius and Capricorn don’t match. It’s suicide and those two zodiacs are meant to kill one another in the end.

September

Took a week off to relax. First time ever and I enjoyed it by doing nothing but reading 2 Harry Potter books and drinking lots of Star Bucks coffees. Yay!

I also got my lab turtle Squibby! Adorable little turtle! Made me happy and I felt I had someone that actually likes me at work! My co-workers don’t like me. I felt the past few months alone and sad.

October

This is when I lost the rest of my sanity. I was first diagnosed in the beginning of the month with mild hearing loss but I was not going to spend over $2500 for a hearing aid to test first on my right ear to see if it will improve my hearing. The other suggestion the audiologist gave me was to look at the person’s mouth when they are speaking so I don’t miss a word. That’s when I totally lost it. I was like, I am 26 and this is happening to me. What next?

I felt really depressed and I couldn’t do anything or bring my self to achieve anything. So I decided that I needed to talk to someone I didn’t know so they tell me that I am insane and I need professional help constantly and can tell me that things one will day will be fine. That I am just insane now and they can talk the talk and help me with their scientific mambo jumbo. Then I read an article later on the internet saying that most of the people who are computer programmers or their job and life involves computers end up suffering from clinical depression. I was like great. I am part of the NORM.

Mid-End of October, not like I wasn’t insane enough and I needed more anxiety and headaches, my boss and his stupid boss decided that it is a good idea to hire someone who has the same skills as me to pretty much to help me with a new project. I first said, “no thank you.” Second time I said, “WHAT THE FUCK?!” Third time I said, “you people don’t get it. I have over 5 years of skills in doing anything pretty much. I have the skills and talent and I have been doing this shit for years. I can do it all by myself without any problems. I am flexible and I can work day and night to do whatever. That’s why I lasted this long. Hiring someone will not help me. It is a complete WASTE of my time!”

That’s when I flipped and stopped working. They wanted to hire a help so I did nothing waiting for the help. I kept fighting with my boss and I was pretty much out of it most of the time and I didn’t care what I said to him or what I did. I kept waiting for him to fire me. Then he would have a legitimate excuse to hire the proper help. No use. Why he would not fire me!? No fucken clue! I am insane and I start fights with no reason! Any other company would have fired me from day one. I am insane! I don’t like taking orders that make no sense. I need to stop it by the way. I need to stop thinking that I am superior and I can do anything. So I decided to be a proper employee and do what I was told to do to a minimum and be a lazy ass for the rest of the day. Bleah. Honestly, Bill Gates would love to keep me and own my soul. Insane people tend to work for Mickey soft.

All my sanity cells were gone by then.

November

Wohooo.. the beginning of the month. I still didn’t get to smell November and its coldness and we find out that our organization is not get refunded and we will be out of the job soon. We suck! Wohoo! I wonder why! It’s probably because some people think it is a good idea to hire more and more help. Cause it seems that if more people work on a stupid simple project would make a better quality project! @#$!@$!@ At that point I just gave up on everything. I was on job hunting mood and I felt it would boost my morale for a bit. I needed something to look forward to and for someone else in the world to recognize that I have some usable skills.

I suck by the way and I don’t have any usable skills. I noticed that skills are different than natural talent. I can’t explain what I can do; I just do it. It’s natural to me. People just don’t get it. I don’t need to talk the talk. I am a freaken Capricorn. I don’t need to explain that I can do something to perfection. I know I can. Why can’t people realize that without me explaining it?

I pretty much spent the month doing nothing. I felt hopeless, useless and insane. I pretty much didn’t care anymore about anything anymore.

December

Oh December. The month to end all months. The month where the coldness bites your ass and people are too poor and bitchy to give a damn. So I wait. Will I have a job? Do I have work? Can I do more work? Too many questions. I think the cold air numbs all your body and half your brain. So that part of your brain that sort of works and makes all the judgments for you pretty told me this:

“MONA WAKE THE HELL UP! You are STUPID! Stop acting like a fucking TEN YEAR OLD!”

Phew.. I finally listened to my self and I decided to be normal again. I decided that I will work till the last day and I can do anything! I didn’t work all these years to end things like I have accomplished nothing! I am Mona. I like to end things with a bang!

So I went back to reality and I got a job hopefully for the next year so I can properly prepare to end things with a bang! Wohoo!

I am currently on Holidays. I hate holidays. One more day and I can go back to work! Wohooo! Also, those fucken fake nails are annoying! I can type finally thank God. Took me a while to get used to them glued on my fingers. STUPID fake anything. God. How do people get Tattoos or get plastic surgeries? Doesn’t it feel odd? Abnormal? Unnatural?

There is an hour and a half left for this fucken 2007 to end. I hated it. I will always hate it. And I don’t want to celebrate the end of it. Screw it. I am going to sleep. I will blog next year. A proper year. A lovely even numbered leap year. Amazing. I love leap years cause I was born in one and I find it kick ass years! Leap year. Leap year. Leap year!!

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