One thing that I have suffered from living in the Western world is those older generations who refuse to accept the fact that we have changed. That our mentality and life in the western world have changed. We are different now. Why can’t people mesh in with the society that they live in and accept it? Why us Arab girls and guys who live in the Western world have to always live on the edge? Why is it that the older generation of Middle Easterns and others who live in the Eastern world have a very negative view point of us Middle Easterns that live here?

What do you think? I am curious to see both mentalities point of view of how they perceive one another. I can never understand the Eastern mentality anymore. I lived far too long and completely forgot how it is to remember or understand it. So why is it that the Eastern classify us as too liberal and slutty with no morals? I don’t get it? I had this site for two years, and I seldom get any negative comments from people living in my region. USA, Canada, and South America. Yet, all the negative comments are from one source, the middle east. Why is that? Am I too outspoken for you? Am I totally different that it shocks you to the point of directly insulting me and calling me horrible names? It is not my fault that I live here, and frankly, I am glad I live here and not have to be classified with such mentality. The world is such a global village right now that it mystifies me how the mentalities of some people are so backwards till now. It has nothing to do with morals or ethics. It has to do with acceptance and slowly changing one’s mentality in order to survive and become like the rest of the world.

Honestly, I thought I suffer from severe depression and very sick all the time and I only resort to anger and writing it out only in my blog, but no. I was wrong. I am too normal and too nice. I really have been living in denial and not accepting others. My problem is that I am way too nice and I accept people and not care what they do. It is everyone else that seems to be messed up and I am the normal one.

Yes, I am normal! I am rebelling against you! That’s exactly what I have been suffering with all these years. YOU!

Angry, Blah Blah, Random Thoughts

Ok. I have noticed that some particular people really hate me yet they constantly come back to my site and keep insulting me daily and waiting to see what I write every day. I have 4 stats monitors for my site and I see all the ip’s and exactly which posts anyone views. Why do Arabs hate me? The ones from Arab countries? What did I ever do to you? Did I ever insult you? Did I ever single you out? Or do you find it joyful to mock others and piss them off for no particular reason for your mere enjoyment?

I need to seriously explain a few things.

1. I am an Arab. I speak Arabic, read, and write the language.

2. I am of Palestenian decent and a Canadian citizen.

3. I lived in the western world for so many years since I was 11 years old.

4. If you insult me for no reason, I will publicaly humiliate you and block your ip range. You are ruining it for a large population of people to come to my site. I did nothing to no one. I am not a celebrity where you can enjoy insulting me for the hell of it thinking I like the attention. I don’t like the attention and I will take my revenge and report you. I don’t have time for this shit. The internet is not a free place for people to roam around in other people’s personal blogs and insult them.

5. If you hate me so much, don’t come to my site again! Simple as that. I don’t have time for your shit!

Angry

Ok.. seriously.. I am sick of people from Amman, Jordan coming to my site and insulting me and swearing at me in Arabic. I know Arabic and I get disgusted from reading trash in Arabic insulting me. You want to call me a bitch and and a slut in Arabic than fuck you in ENGLISH! I blocked the range of 86.108.83.XXX from visiting my site.

I am sick of it and completely disgusted!

Grow up people and show some fucken respect to others!

Angry, Blah Blah

Is it me or the weirdest things happen to me all at once in the same day?

I was walking around in the mall, alone, and out of no where, a girl with reddish hair and green eyes comes up to me and asks me the weirdest thing.

She says, “Hi, my friend over there really likes you and sees you all the time, he wonders if you will talk to him and go out with him.”

<– that’s exactly how I looked.

I said, “Aah, excuse me?”

Then the guy, has hazel eyes and brown hair and wasn’t bad looking at all and really tall comes closer and says, “Please, can I have your number, I see you all the time at this mall after school and I want to go out with you.”

I said, “After school? Hmm. How old do you think I am? You think I go to your highschool?”

He and the girl that was with him said together, “yeah.. we see you around all the time.”

I said, “Listen, I don’t go to high school no more. I graduted highschool in 1999. That’s probably when you two were still in elementary school.”

The guy was like, “no way. You look like our age. Are you lying?”

I said, “No I am not. You want to see my driver’s liscence?”

He said, “No I believe you. It doesn’t matter. You are so pretty. Would you still go out with me?”

I said, “No. Bye bye.”

I turned around and walked away.

Blah Blah, They said what?, Whatever!

This morning one of my co-workers kept whining about work. He is like, “we will be laid off the end of the month. I got mortgage to pay. Mona did you get a job yet?”

I just looked at him and said, “Aah.. no..”

And he kept going on and on.

Exactly 5 minutes later I get an email from human resources from a department on Campus for a job interview for part time computer technician.

When the hell did I apply for a part time position?

I replied saying no thank you. I can’t believe it! Life is strange.

Blah Blah, They said what?, Whatever!