I asked my friend today a simple question and she knows everything that goes on in my life, and at times she thinks I am crazy, but she knows why I do the things I do because she would do the same and people think she is crazy. So I asked her, “Be honest with me. Do you think I am a drama queen?”

She said, “YES YOU ARE!”

I said, ” ok ”

She said, “I AM TOO! WTF. Don’t be sad. Jeez. It’s a permanent label on us two.”

I said, “well, I don’t mean it, and I have my reasonings. ”

She said, “yah. I do too. But people don’t like us and treat us like crap because we let them. And when we speak up and tell people to leave us alone, they think we are just drama queens and just act the way we do to get attention.”

I said, “I don’t even want people to pay attention to me. I want them to leave me alone. Pretend I don’t exist.”

She said, “Not going to work. We grab attention because we never follow the crowd and we stand out.”

I said, “I just want to be normal. I am tired of my life. Everyone is happy and just do their work in peace and quiet and enjoy their life. I can’t even imagine my self waking up in the morning anymore and thinking positively. Will today be a better day than yesterday? I just can’t think that far ahead of what might happen in the next few hours of the day anymore.”

She said, “I don’t know either. Nothing is right in this life, but it is out of our hands and we either bitch about it or tell people off or just sit alone and hope things will just go away.”

I just want to have a normal life and be happy with what I do in my life. I am going to spend the rest of the day making more iRebels and do what I like to do best. Make characters and animations.

I will be back later with more iRebels.

Blah Blah, Ranting as usual!, They said what?, Whatever!

I love sunsets.. So calming, so beautiful. I wish I was just living there.

Random Thoughts

As we grow up, we always have this fear of one day being alone. However, it is better to be alone sometimes to understand our selves. To sit back and think of what we really want of life. So far, I don’t know what I want. I thought about it, and thought about it, and the only thing that came to mind how peaceful it was to not see anyone or talk to anyone the past couple of days.

I felt at peace and harmony. No one to bug me, constantly mock me, or ridicule me. People don’t realize their actions or what they do to other people and how they hurt them. In the end, who is there to judge them? People don’t care.

No one, and honestly, no one cares how I feel or what I have to say. It is better off if I just spent my time alone to reflect on the things I want in life. So far, I don’t know, and I feel stuck and trapped in a world I have no control over and just surrounded by people who don’t realize how lucky they are. In the end, I am the weak one. All I can do is hide and just sit by my self because there is nothing else to do.

I am just sick of people. No one likes me and they rather see my down fall and not care about how I feel. All they do is just sit there and watch.

Blah Blah, Random Thoughts, Ranting as usual!

How many people were there
Waiting on the side walk waiting for one another
And it was raining
And they were holding umbrellas for one another
And days were it wasn’t raining
No one even waited for me

I have been waiting here for a million years
Standing in this store
The walls got tired of me
From the morning they say
My eyes are staring at the beauty
And the beauty was just walking in the streets
I sing him many songs
And he was just too busy
I waited every earthly time possible
And no one waited for me

People
And they all held the umbrellas
And no one waited for me

It has been a million years
I have been making up addresses
To no one in particular
I send them news
I don’t want the skies tomorrow to rain again at my door
Umbrellas and lovers
Staring at them all day
And those who remembered everyone else
In the end they remembered me

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Fairuz
Qaddish Kan Fi Nas

My taste of Music

One thing about people is that they have the ability to make you hate what you love. At times I convince my self, I love this, and I love that. Yet others would constantly mock my interests and hobbies and things that make me as a person. The constant mockery is irritating and gradually it makes a person start hating the things they love. People make you hate it. How strong are people’s opinions really?

I try my hardest to ignore and not care, but people seriously have no respect towards other people and they think their opinions and the way they view things in this life is the best and only way. The problem is that they think they are obligated to enforce their ideas and opinions on others, and if that person does not comply, they will constantly keep bugging them and make fun of them until that love becomes a hate.

Why do we have to surround our selves with so many different people? It’s best to be left alone I swear.

Blah Blah, Random Thoughts, They said what?