I woke up this morning at 6:15 am after my alarm clock scared the living crap out of me with its noise. I think I wake up every day startled to death, hence my white hair over growth. I camouflage all that whiteness by the thickness of my hair and my side bangs. So I woke up, and I said to my self, “today, I don’t care about anything or anyone. I don’t care about the consquences of my actions, what I say, or what I will do or not do.”

I don’t do much and I tend to ignore and refuse to do many things because honestly, it got to the point where I don’t care anymore.  I just gave up because life stinks and I don’t care about it no more.

Today is the beginning of the rest of my life.

Blah Blah, Random Thoughts, Ranting as usual!, Whatever!

I was at the mall today before heading off to the gym and every where I went to they had Valentine’s Day gifts and chocolates. I HATE Valentines day! I really do. People become mean on that day and selfish. Argh!! If you read last years and the year before post you will know why I hate it. I have declared Valentines day to be the perfect day to rebel! I hate it.. I hate it!!

Other than that, I have been spending my evening updating and fixing my site. I removed some stuff so I would not have so much content on the main page and I added some other stuff.

Today was a mellow day. Nothing really exciting or different. All I want is to go to sleep!

Blah Blah, Random Thoughts, Ranting as usual!

I have noticed that girls and guys have a serious problem becoming or staying friends. The worst part is in the Arab culture, it is looked down upon big time. I don’t see a problem with it as long as two people know their boundaries and limits. However, what happens if you have a long time friend and then suddenly changed their feelings towards you all of a sudden? Or what happens when people constantly think you two are not friends and there is more and they cannot fathom the idea of it being just friendship?

Let me answer the first question. I had this problem many many times. I like having friends, and from my experiences, I rather have guys as friends than girls. Having friends who are girls in my situation is really getting frustrating and too much of a headache and drama which lately has been getting on my nerves. I wish people can just control their emotions and stop having to explain every detail of their life. So I like having guys as friends and I get a long great with them. I rather talk about random things about life, then the mini details of every aspect of someone else’s life. So I explained now why I like having guys as friends, but what happens when suddenly, out of no where, a guy tells you he likes you more than just a friend. I am like aah, what? When did this happen? I usually hesitate and I want to go back in time 30 seconds so I don’t have to hear this from a friend. The problem is, sometimes I really like guys but only as friends. I don’t see a future beyond friendship and what happens when I explain that to me? Simple. They stop talking to me or they try harder to convince me thinking I am easily convinced. (I am as stubborn as a goat!) It is like forcing someone to like you. Then they start this mambo jumbo about an Arab girl and an Arab guy can’t be friends forever. So I say, “what the hell did you think we were?”

To answer the second question, oh I hate the second question about what people think. When I am friends with a guy, I straight up tell the guy that we are friends and he accepts it because I am cool and I am an awesome friend. (ehm) hehe.. Anyways, we agree on this and we are just friends. Nothing more than that and there will never be anything more. People don’t understand that, and they think the reason we two are together because we are an item. A couple. I say we are a couple of crazy people with a bad sense of humor and that’s it. However, people start talking, rumors start permeating all over because some bitchy jealous person decided to make a big deal of it. So what happens in the end? The guy stops talking to me because he doesn’t want a rumor to be true at all.

I had this problem in first year University. I was friends with this nice Arab guy who honestly, I wasn’t attracted to at all and was just my classmate and had most of my classes with him. That was it. Well, after a few months, a bunch of Arab girls were sitting with us, and I didn’t care. I didn’t really think anything or bothered about the situation. Then one day, this one girl took him to the side away from where we were sitting and talked to him for a bit. I didn’t care. Next day, he stopped talking to me or sitting with me completely. It was like I am invisible. I was like wow. Nice friend he was. Then in second year he wanted me to code an assignment for him and he would pay me. He came out of no where and asked me to do this. I just laughed and ignore him. I can’t believe some people and how people talk and manipulate each other. All stupid.

In conclusion, there is no big deal that a guy and girl become and stay friends. I find it normal and it is PEOPLE who make a big deal out of it because they are either jealous or just plain stupid! And when a guy crosses the limits, time to smack him back to reality, the soft way!

I like my friends!

Angry, Blah Blah, Random Thoughts, Ranting as usual!, Whatever!

What’s up with people? Is it me or people seriously don’t learn from their past mistakes. They keep repeating the same errors so they can hurt them selves again and again. I don’t understand why. It is like they want to keep stabbing a knife in their hearts over and over again. I don’t understand why people are so blinded by the truth and the past.

I think my problem is that I want to be a much more realistic person and weigh every past situation to analyze why it has failed. Then try to not repeat the same mistakes again.

I don’t know if I can witness people repeat the same mistakes over again. I don’t know what to do. I wish sometimes I didn’t know anyone and just not bother with people and their problems anymore.

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Facebook applications are made for amusement and a bit of interactivity with your friends. However, the custom personal applications that people have developed, and it is not that hard to do so anymore, that any bozo can slap around some application and the hell if they test it for all kinds of bugs. Do these people even know what bug testing is?

I am so sick of applications that give me that same error over and over. It works 50% of the time. The application concept is not that bad, but if it worked all the time, than it would be a lot better and more popular.

Not only that, lately, and it seems to be the forced way to let others use the application, is filling out some quiz or something to give you some silly answer about your personality or something, and you cannot see the answer unless you invite 5 people. I have seen worse where you can’t see the results unless you invite 20 people! So, if a person doesn’t have 20 friends, then this application is completely useless? I got 29 friends on Facebook. 1/3 of them are related to me. 1/3 are people I barely talk to and I honestly wouldn’t care if I remove them right now, and the other 1/3 are people I actually know in person and I consider real friends.

Facebook applications are stupid, untested and are used to spam others. I don’t need to spam my friends unless I don’t like them much. So, if you install these applications and want to see the results, make sure you have random people on your list that you don’t care much about and know they won’t bitch at you for spamming them with useless applications.

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