For some odd reason, I keep looking at this picture and I just laugh hysterically. It actually makes me laugh uncontrollably because of two reasons:

1. It is just plain funny seeing the wolf having a great jolly old time jumping on sheep.
2. The symbolism behind this photo is too realistic and symbolizes humans more than animals.

What I mean by the symbolism is that your enemy wants to play with you, make you have a little fun, and portrays his fun and loving ways for the entire world to see. This is what the wolf is doing. I wonder if the second part of this picture was ever drawn. I really want the rest of the story and what really happens to the herd of sheep. Cause this is not reality, and not what really happens. This is a preamble and I want the rest!

Funny

I have been pretty down lately from life and people. At times I feel that I cannot control anything in my life anymore. It has been very upsetting and very depressing for me. Out of depression and being sick and tired, I tend to remember the happy times that I had in the past and see if I can turn back time. I have been trying to get in touch with people from the past. Just to say “hey, how are you. Do you still remember me?” Nothing. No replies, nothing. I tried email, and even Facebook. No answer. On Facebook they even removed their accounts and I cannot search for them anymore, or maybe they just blocked me. I don’t know. I don’t understand people anymore and why they hate me so much. Was I ever that bad?

I look at my life now and I can honestly say I am at an all time low. I wish I can just meet new people or try to be more open and have fun in life. I am so scared now a days from talking or trying to interact much with people because I am afraid they will hate me if I said anything. So I just stay quiet and just listen. I don’t know what to do anymore. I think the past haunts me, the present is not a place I want to be in, and I cannot even think of the future anymore.

The other day, my dad was sitting there in the living room with my mom one morning before I was going off to work, and he was so sad. Then I said, “what’s wrong?” My dad said, “I keep dreaming about you.” I said, “ok?” Mom then said, “he wants you to get married. He is worried about you.” Then my dad’s eyes started watering and was about to cry. I just got up and left. I couldn’t stand it. I don’t know what to do with my self anymore. Everything in my life is so wrong and nothing is going the way it was supposed to be and everyone is sad and upset cause of me. At times I wish I just never existed.

Blah Blah, Random Thoughts, They said what?

Is it me or I have the strangest and weirdest dreams ever. I got sick of sleeping because of dreams. I have dreams of people and things at work too much. Maybe I need new surrounding and meet new people. Seriously, it is disturbing. It is enough that I go to work now with my heart not in it anymore. Although I try my best to concentrate and finish up loose ends, but just everything around me there is so gloomy and people are either depressed or just there to fill up time that I find it hard to smile and be happy anymore.

Today, I got a job interview by email for some place in Toronto. I was like ah, I am not moving to Toronto for 3 or 4 months contract. I didn’t even apply for it. I think they found my resume on some job site or through recruiters. It is really getting frustrating.

However, at times I feel like I was meant to stay and not leave this job. The more I try, the more I feel like someone is telling me, “no, you stay till the end or else.” It’s like if I leave I feel like I have left an entire life behind me and I am letting everyone down. I don’t know what to do. All I can do is just keep looking for work and just wait. If I was meant to stay I will stay, and if I was meant to leave soon, then I have to.

At this point of time, I don’t know what to do with my life. I am in midlife career crisis and I have no idea if I want to continue in this career path or find another. I love computers and programming and graphics design, but I don’t know if I was meant to do this for the next 5 or 10 years. I know I was meant to be something else or someone else, and I just drifted in this path.

“Choose a job you love, and you will never have to work a day in your life.” ~Confucius

Anyways.. we just need some Karma and Alicia Keys. Did I ever mention she is my favorite singer?

“What goes around, comes around, what goes up, must come down.”

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I am sick and tired of people who decide to send me an email, ask me a question, and when I spend my time answering it, I click submit, and bam. I get an email back saying this email is wrong, or doesn’t exist. Why can’t you people provide a real email addresses? I cannot answer you and I will not publicly make it a blog post at all. So I don’t understand why is it so hard to provide a real email?

Do you think I will spam you? Are you afraid that I will actually answer you back? You know what, I am not like other bloggers out there, and I actually spend the time answering emails because you spend the time asking them.

So frustrating. This happens at least 5 or 6 times a week.

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I love Lattes, but making Lattes to have cool designs like that will make me think twice about drinking it. The funny part about my coffee addiction is that I don’t drink coffee at home at all. Hmm. Maybe that’s why I am cranky at home, it is not cause of my sister!

I also found this.. Amazing eh?

Then I decided to search for sushi art. God, I haven’t had good sushi in a long time. Very long time…

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