Open your arms to change, but don't let go of your values.

As I was growing up, especially in my teen years I had many episodes of rapid heart beats or I found out today that it has a medical term, Tachycardia. I was a bit amazed to actually know that it is common. I didn’t have great depth and knowledge of using the internet when I was a teen, and the world wide web wasn’t as big as it is today. The reason I am even mentioning it today cause I had an episode this morning of it. I haven’t had one in about 4 years, and today of all of a sudden I suffer from it. I am pretty good at dealing with it and I know how to stop it. Sometimes it takes more than one try and a few minutes of chest pain, but today I stopped it before it got worse. It is very harmful if a person cannot stop it as soon as possible. The only way I found to slow down the beats is to take very long breaths. It’s like almost having an asthma attack and trying to breath in and out to stop it.

I never understood why I had this problem and I know it is not caused by stress, and it was almost daily for me. I coped with it because it didn’t effect me too much physically. I had this problem up to my early 20′s then suddenly stopped. You can say I was a bit relieved because I honestly did not like having to deal with it anymore in public. It was usually in the middle of the night that I would wake up suddenly cause of it, and I thought it might be sleep related and I am not getting enough oxygen thinking it was sleep Apnea. However, many times it wasn’t pretty to have to deal with it in class or at work, so I knew sleep didn’t cause it.

Now, all I can hope is for it to not happen again. I am really don’t want to have to deal with it all over again.

Oh dear Lord my brain cells are jumping up and down from all the torture. I always thought that programming is fun and I believe it is and it will always be, but why the torture!? Fixing someone else’s code is the ultimate form of torture! I’m even doing it on the weekend because I thought I can get the majority of it redone quickly with the new template I made! NOP! It’s horrible! Beyond horrible. I am not touching it again today. Bleah!

First off, why have a dynamic website with a login form that uses .htaccess files for login? Why not just add a login table to the database and easily use that? Oh, it is obvious, cause some programmers think login sessions and comparing values to the database are so HARD to do!

Second problem, why have a dynamic website with many configuration files with one line in it to define one variable? What the hell?

I haven’t even touched the Database yet to see how un-normalized it is. My head is killing me. I decided to just redo the whole thing slowly because I will waste time figuring out someone else’s code.

Any coder out there who doesn’t understand the concept of modularization, documentation, and organization of code, then DON’T code. Please don’t code and save us the torture!