There is still good in the world

I have been taking sleeping pills lately because if I didn’t, I would be laying in bed for dark hours of the night wondering when the neurons in my brain will stop moving in high speeds. I always had this problem when I am in bed or half asleep. I see white electric shocks in my eye. It’s like I saw lightning and blinking from the intensity of the light. Is it me or I am loosing my brain cells one at a time and this is the result?

Anyways, last night I checked my blog’s email where I got this unusual email from Paypal. I thought it was spam because every email now a days is spam and not worth reading. Then I read the full title and it said, “Donation from XXX.” I thought that I did remove the donation button because I got tired of people criticizing me for having it and making fun of it. Then I saw that XXX donated one dollar. I then remembered a few months ago when I asked people to donate a dollar for a psychotic impossible island dream and I guess the donate button was still there and people actually browse my past archives.

That gave me an awkward realization that others actually care about what I say and how I feel. That someone out there understands that an unrealistic dream can come together and some day become real with the help of people who share this same dream and want to be a part of it. I didn’t ask for much. I didn’t ask for anything impossible from anyone. To be honest, dedicated bloggers wonder why they are writing and are they satisfying them selves or an audience?

At times I sway from my point of view and write for an audience, and that’s not the intention of my blog at all. I created it as a place to escape reality. I need a place to escape it and I think that’s why I made this blog. Even the title is a dream of what I want to be and really not what I am. I didn’t make this blog to attack anyone, or to represent anything, but to write ideas and thoughts that I seldom discuss with people. Stuff that are not really worth discussing in real life, but are worth writing here.

I then decided to put back the donate button. Let it stay there. Let it have a general purpose. A purpose that any blogger might have, “to help the blogger make dreams a reality.” Don’t we wish we can all can help one another do that?

So I decided from now on to help out other bloggers as well. They want donations or to purchase their products to help them get out of the corporate world and live their life to fulfill a dream then I will do so. We all got money. We all have blogs and we work and we whine and we complain because reality is what made us blog. Now, we need to unite and help one another to reach that dream that we keep writing about.

Let’s help one another, and keep on writing till the end of time!

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