So . . . Maybe

I have been very mellow lately and calm. I can’t even call my self THAT rebellious anymore. (WHATEVER! :laugh: ) Only thing that makes me boil from anger is work, but lately it has been fine. Fine to the point that really my co-workers don’t talk to me much and some of them I don’t even see for 2 or 3 days and they are 10 feet away! It’s like they sit in the other office and are SO focused. I wish I had more of the ability to chat or talk to them, but their conversations to me are very limited. Nothing to really talk about and they really have no interest in talking to me. At times I regret not being nicer to them and more social, but what am I to talk about with guys with completely different interests than me? At times they don’t even listen to me and I feel like they ignore me on purpose and change the subject. I can’t make up conversations or things to talk about. I am SO boring. I am the most boring person on earth and that is why I have a really active blog where I talk a lot about me. And I know ME does not interest people at all in my little world of work and home.

However, that’s not the case. Yes, I caved in ladies and gentlemen. It is beyond unbelievable that I am shocked my self cause I did it. I am actually talking to a guy! Well chatting to a guy who lives a couple of hours than me, but I thought, “why not? I will give it a chance.” He is actually a decent human being who is not a chauvinistic ass of an Arab. He is a year and a half older, very nice to talk to, likes my unfunny sarcasm. He doesn’t think I am 100% crazy but actually normal. Wow. I am still shocked. Someone out there thinks I AM NORMAL! :O

I need to make NEW friends and talk to nice people! I need a change in my life and different new people to talk to. Is that so bad? Am I doing anything wrong? :huh: I mean common. I am CHANGING! It’s beyond unbelievable that I shock my self sometimes.

Oh by the way, DON’T ASK ME any stupid questions about him. I am not going to answer them and that’s none of the blog’s business. Well, none for today. Maybe tomorrow. :whee:

By the way, this post has far too many emoticons. I changed the ones I got and added a few more. But believe me, some day in the vast distant future I will change my blog’s theme. A couple of days ago I renewed my blog’s ownership till 2012! So I will be blogging inshallah till then. I was thinking of just letting it expire this year and move on with my life and blog under a different name or even not write anymore, but you know, if people actually like me for who I am and read my blog and still think I am sane, then they are Aces in my book of life! Is this blog a book of my life? Maybe just a small part.

Blah Blah, Random Thoughts, They said what?, Whatever!