Traumatized by the past
I can’t seem to get over my self. I want to have a normal life again. It has been too long. I am trying really hard to change who I am by the way I talk and think. I just can’t. I just get told that I am traumatized from the past. Maybe I am. Maybe my life thus far have really been closed because I wanted it closed. I wanted people to stay away from me and not talk to me because I have nothing to say. I am just afraid to be me.
Who am I anyways? I lost my identity long time ago. I became an emotional person that I can’t hold my thoughts and opinions to my self anymore. I tried so hard and really that’s why I made this blog. So I don’t have to say anything to anyone and just write it out. That way I won’t hurt anyone or say anything I will regret.
I just don’t know if anyone likes the real me because I don’t even know who I am anymore.
Do you know?
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Yup I know..You are Rebellious Arab Girl.
Rebellious Arab Girl ™… don’t forget that.
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this is common !
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when i feel this way , i just go down the street and get something to drink . . 45 minutes of walking & everything becomes better . . , when i see other people over the streets , i feel that i would thank the god . . and that makes it up again
Ali – I don’t use the TM symbol, I like the ® better!
Ahmed – drink? drink what? I don’t “drink!”
my advice: stop thinking and start enjoying.
btw – if you ever need someone to have a drink for you, I’m here for you.
hoooray :sweat:
. . i mean juice or something 
, . . what’s up with you 
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i don’t mean alcoholic , that will make it worse
Sure!! :whoa:
Find someone who makes you happy and likes you the way you are you. When I’m down – i just find my friend just laugh my head off for 2 hours then just face life.
Well, I can’t say for sure that I know you, but if you are who you make yourself to be on this blog, then I like you.
I think if we aren’t careful, anyone can get trapped by their past. I for one, know I have been, and even sometimes still struggle with that type of stuff. Just keep on trucking and only change if there are things YOU do not like about yourself. Don’t let society change you unless you agree completely with that change. Otherwise, you’re changing for the wrong reasons. 
I hope this sorts itself out for you soon, it’s never a fun fight to be in, especially when it comes to yourself.
You know, why don’t you do some short-term over-seas voluntary work? Not kidding.
I had diffculties dealing with people, myself. Still not an out right social guy by any means (may be that is why I read your blog from time to time)… but I found a way to mold myself into a more ‘sociable’ person. The key, in my case, was to learn how to value people… to put worth upon them. Embarrassing to admit, but I lacked that miserably.
Arkan
what you have written is not true
the identity of every one is inside him or her, maybe it can be hidden, but lost no.
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