It’s funny how people perceive me as just a web designer who does pretty graphics and that’s it. No one recognizes the fact that I am a PROGRAMMER! Is it because I am a girl? So I get people sending me messages and emails of job positions that are only free lance web designer, or flash developer? I am like is that a career? I am not even THAT good at it. When I apply for jobs I apply for FULL TIME Programming or any Information Technology related jobs. That’s all. I hate FREELANCE work! I want a real job with management and people. I don’t want to deal with single clients! It’s horrible!

The funny part is that I got interviewed for those real programming or technology related jobs! You know why I am never asked or would ever be considered for a graphics design or web design job? It’s because I didn’t go to a community college to LEARN IT! That’s what those jobs ask for! No one understands that. The people who think they are better than me think that’s the type of job I should be looking for, and I get interviewed for the ones that are not that.

I don’t get it! Why are people so self centered or think I deserve to be only working as a graphics/web designer? I am not GOOD at it. It’s a talent I just do for fun. I worked as a designer for 6 years for fun! It’s not a long time career and I never wanted to be one! I just ended up as one and those who are not supposed to be even programming get recognized as such. What the hell is wrong with the world? Why people who know me think I should only be looking for certain jobs and not what I am supposed to be doing in life?

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I am sick of it. I can’t even watch the news anymore when children are dying in front of the world’s eyes and no one is stopping it. Why won’t they stop? Why relive a Holocaust again? Aren’t they humans? Aren’t we all? Why do we treat one another like animals. The world is just watching and doing NOTHING!

Haitham Sabbah has on his blog the latest news and videos of what’s going on in Palestine as we speak. So I will be getting most of the pics and news from there. I really can’t stand viewing the videos. Reading about it is heart breaking and makes me really wonder why humans are savage beasts!

Also, in Lebanon, the latest “important” news is that the Saudi Embassy employees and ambassadors have requested to be “rescued” or vacated from Beirut immediately. The American ships are at the ports and that country is completely going to be in ruins soon. That country is at the edge of another civil war or another ATTACK and all the politicians care about is MONEY! And they call Lebanon a Democracy and there has been NO PRESIDENT for 4 MONTHS! People WAKE UP! The middle east is going to be in ruins and stupid people end up saying, “it is because of SYRIA!”

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My mom has been sick for a while now and the doctors in Canada are probably the worse there can be. She kept having foot pains and her feet were always swollen and couldn’t walk much. Until finally, yesterday, after all these weeks and going to doctors back and forth they finally told her she has high blood pressure and diabetes. All this morning I kept getting lectured about diabetes from my mom. She kept saying, “your dad has it too, it’s all in the family, and now me.” I said, “I know, but what about your high blood pressure?” She said, “I took the medicine last night and I was able to sleep.” So today she looked good as new and her feet are not swollen much anymore.

The doctor told her that diabetes has become so common and no longer hereditary as we think.

It’s funny that the other day I told my dad to test my blood sugar cause he has the little needle and strips and he said, “no.” He is afraid to see. I know I am fine physically cause unlike them, I am more physically active and I walk A LOT. However, I have been very depressed and sad lately and all I have been having are really bad headaches and I can’t sleep at all at night.

Later today my mom asks me, “how is the new room at work. Do you like it?”

I bluntly said, “no.”

She said, “why?”

I said, “it’s SMALL and awful.”

She said, “oh no. I didn’t know it was small. That’s not good.”

I said, “yah well. That’s why I keep having headaches. I just feel trapped all the time.”

She said, “so what are you going to do?”

I said, “I don’t know. I really don’t and it is making me sick and tired all the time and no one else is happy either.”

She said, “well, maybe you shouldn’t be working there anymore. Is it right to be in such a small space with so many people? You have been working there for so long. Is this right? Are you ever going to move up and get your own office and different position?”

I said, “No. I am stuck. People in higher power don’t care. No one cares. It’s all about power. That’s just the way humans are.”

I pretty much gave up and just tired. I just took two extra strength headache pills cause I didn’t sleep much last night and I just feel down. I really just want to sleep one night in peace! Just once!

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