Honestly, I think the biggest thing I have ever regretted doing is telling people about my blog. I really do. I use it as a medium for thoughts and discussions. I wanted a place to write stuff out that bother me or amuse me. The reason my blog is popular because it is so unpredictable. I am unpredictable and my life is too. I wanted it to be a home away from home. People are taking it way too seriously to the point that I lost my identity and I can’t explain this or that to them or the true intention to what I was trying to say. I lost who I really am as a person by a bunch of words that I have written. I liked being a quiet person who barely talked. I was better off. I think I mentioned this a million times that I regretted ever making this blog or writing. It caused far too many problems, and I don’t know what to do. But my biggest problem is I told people I know, and I never knew why. Maybe I wanted people to read about how I really thought or what I would have thought instead. Maybe I just have many view points about a certain matter that I can’t come up with one unless I am sitting alone on my computer thinking about it and making a final judgment of it.
I am just thinking of closing down the site. I think I am also at a point in my life that I really don’t feel like talking about anything personal anymore, and that was the intention of this blog.
Or maybe I need to steer the direction of my writing, but I don’t know how or why I should. I have to think about this more.