I am virtually back

Huh.. not posting for one day really made me quiver in my seat and think to my self, “damn. I feel that I forgot to do something really important!”

Is blogging really important to ME?

I thought about this a lot the past 24 hours and I came up with this. I made this blog so I can be happy, get my voice heard, help others, and vice versa. The importance of it varies all the time, obviously from day to day. To others, the importance is a lot more than that. I think now for those people who think the only reason I run this blog is to make money should have realized that I was ready to quit it. If it was making any significant amounts of money, then hell if I ever shut it down. I would start writing about celebrity gossip if I have to keep this blog open and make money, but that’s not me. That really isn’t and the ads on this site don’t make any money at all. In a week I get between $5 – $10. That’s pocket change. Lunch at fast food restaurants cost more!

Why did I come back?

I came back because of the comments I got from my previous post. I was shocked. I kept reading reply after reply thinking, “wow. Those people appreciate me more than people I know in real life.” Half those people I never seen comment on my site before, but they read it every day and described how much they can relate to the same problems they had in the past. They didn’t know how to express it, but I did for them. I think I did a good job of enabling comment moderation so I can weed the pessimists who can’t fathom the idea of having their own blogs because they are too CHICKEN SHIT to express them selves. I have read a lot of criticisms, direct insults, and unintelligent thoughts from visitors the past 2 years. However, receiving those same ignorant comments from people I know in real life has made me question friendship and the reason why I have this blog.

Why do I blog from work?

I get asked this far too many times and to be honest, and from reading many blogs out there, I am not the only one who does this. I think I do it because I have a thought, and I can express it right now. So why not? Sometimes I don’t have the time or luxury to do so, and I usually write once I get home, but Twitter has helped me a lot in expressing quick thoughts that I can’t elaborate during the day.

Why do you talk about people you know and they read your blog?

This question I was very hesitant to apply on my site. I had a lot of controversies in the past about it. However, as days went by, that reasoning died with the question it self. If I didn’t write about my self, the people I interact with, and my view points of them and any situation that involves them would have pretty much reduced the whole concept of personal web log. It really does. Every time I hit the publish button I question my self and think. 1) Who will I piss off today? 2) Will they dare come up to me and tell me about it? 3) Will they take it beyond context and read too much between the lines? 4) Will they still love me for being honest and know the truth of what I write on this blog and how I really am in real life?

Why was I pissed off?

I got accused by some people that this blog is REALLY how I am, and they are sick of me whining or acting bitchy and not listening to commentors because they are right. I got ridiculed for the fact that I was sick and tired, and couldn’t sleep much last week and was going through a major mental adjustment and depression. I got accused for being stubborn on topics that really is no one’s business but my self. They think because I am defensive in my blog that I am not appreciating people’s negative criticisms towards me. That not only hurt me, but made me question my self. Does this blog represent me as a whole? Or am I steering it in a direction that I want to represent of my self other than what I would do in real life?

Oh Mona, tell us the truth. Why are you REALLY back?

I am such a shallow site owner, and I get FAR too many hits to my site although most Arab bloggers hate my guts, and this morning I checked my social ranking amongst a majority of Palestinian blogs and I was #1! That not only put a smile on my face, but it made me realize that I had no shame in being my self, and non Arabs did not judge me for being an Arab-Palestinian and I am damn proud that a real person who talks about personal every day issues can beat the most powerful political blogs out there and for the world to realize that a Palestinian voice is not represented through politics and culture, but is represented by the person. I can sit here and talk about how much I love my country and its people and everything about a land I never set foot in, but no one can ever take away the fact that I am a human being representing who I am and can realize that cultural/religious/political view points are NOT the solution to the problems of the world. We ARE THE SOLUTION!

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