I think my life is meaningless. I can honestly say that if I put everything I have ever achieved as an individual into perspective than I have not accomplished anything. I don’t even know why at times I am still alive or what my purpose in this life is. I am 27 and I feel I have not done anything in my life. I used to have grand plans all laid out for me to follow, and nothing I ever wanted to do was accomplished. Then I see other people that have everything that I ever wanted, and think to my self, “why not me? What haven’t I done right?”

I always thought that life is completely unfair, but I just kept my mouth shut and just went to sleep every night hoping that maybe, just maybe tomorrow I can have something to look forward to. I have nothing anymore. I kept trying, kept praying, kept hoping that maybe, just some day life will be better. I just feel that I am kept being pushed down more and more.

I just want to cry and feel sorry for my self. No one ever cried and felt sorry for me, so at least I am doing something for my self.

Blah Blah, Depressed, Sleepy Post

I am in a very shitty mood and I don’t want to talk to anyone. I don’t think I have ever been more disappointed in my life. It’s funny how much crap a person puts up with for 6 years, and others can’t do it at all.

I am seriously disappointed. I think I lost faith in everything that I have ever believed in.

Angry, Blah Blah, Random Thoughts

I got this video from [The Palestine Video Blog].

Source said:

The old lie that Palestine was dry desert waiting for a people is just that–a lie. This clip for all people to see the Beauty of the Palestinian People before they were ethnically cleansed and murdered and made into refugees by the State of Israel. Music Joaquin Rodrigo, lyrics Helmut Lotti, sung by Lotti
All Photos (b&w) from http://fai.cyberia.net.lb/

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It’s April 1st, and I have been fooled by NATURE! Damn rain rain rain!!

I need to sing the rain song.

I don’t like rain.

Rain does not like me. :annoyed:

It makes my hair all frizzy that I end up looking like I am from the 1960’s. :gross:

Why oh why do I have to go to work. :dead:

Can I call it a rain day, and cannot go outside? :hmph:

Snow was bad, but rain is worse.

Now I can’t wait for summer, and skip spring and all its flowers. :yes:

Oh I hate April and all its rain. Damn rain. Damn rain. Damn RAIN! :annoyed:

This is how it looks outside right now. Not only is it rainy, but windy too!

Also, I got requests asking me how my office looks and why I complain so much. So I took a picture of it’s smallness! I didn’t take a picture of the other office, but it is WAY worse cause it has 4 desks! This one has only 3.

Also, Squibby and Nibbled want to say hi. I don’t know why the water became so yellowish so quickly. I need to clean it! :grr:

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