Rock stars make a shit load of money.. they don’t even have to make appearances on their own video. Let someone else do the dirty work I tell ya!

Rockstar by Nickelback.

My taste of Music

Huh.. not posting for one day really made me quiver in my seat and think to my self, “damn. I feel that I forgot to do something really important!”

Is blogging really important to ME?

I thought about this a lot the past 24 hours and I came up with this. I made this blog so I can be happy, get my voice heard, help others, and vice versa. The importance of it varies all the time, obviously from day to day. To others, the importance is a lot more than that. I think now for those people who think the only reason I run this blog is to make money should have realized that I was ready to quit it. If it was making any significant amounts of money, then hell if I ever shut it down. I would start writing about celebrity gossip if I have to keep this blog open and make money, but that’s not me. That really isn’t and the ads on this site don’t make any money at all. In a week I get between $5 – $10. That’s pocket change. Lunch at fast food restaurants cost more!

Why did I come back?

I came back because of the comments I got from my previous post. I was shocked. I kept reading reply after reply thinking, “wow. Those people appreciate me more than people I know in real life.” Half those people I never seen comment on my site before, but they read it every day and described how much they can relate to the same problems they had in the past. They didn’t know how to express it, but I did for them. I think I did a good job of enabling comment moderation so I can weed the pessimists who can’t fathom the idea of having their own blogs because they are too CHICKEN SHIT to express them selves. I have read a lot of criticisms, direct insults, and unintelligent thoughts from visitors the past 2 years. However, receiving those same ignorant comments from people I know in real life has made me question friendship and the reason why I have this blog.

Why do I blog from work?

I get asked this far too many times and to be honest, and from reading many blogs out there, I am not the only one who does this. I think I do it because I have a thought, and I can express it right now. So why not? Sometimes I don’t have the time or luxury to do so, and I usually write once I get home, but Twitter has helped me a lot in expressing quick thoughts that I can’t elaborate during the day.

Why do you talk about people you know and they read your blog?

This question I was very hesitant to apply on my site. I had a lot of controversies in the past about it. However, as days went by, that reasoning died with the question it self. If I didn’t write about my self, the people I interact with, and my view points of them and any situation that involves them would have pretty much reduced the whole concept of personal web log. It really does. Every time I hit the publish button I question my self and think. 1) Who will I piss off today? 2) Will they dare come up to me and tell me about it? 3) Will they take it beyond context and read too much between the lines? 4) Will they still love me for being honest and know the truth of what I write on this blog and how I really am in real life?

Why was I pissed off?

I got accused by some people that this blog is REALLY how I am, and they are sick of me whining or acting bitchy and not listening to commentors because they are right. I got ridiculed for the fact that I was sick and tired, and couldn’t sleep much last week and was going through a major mental adjustment and depression. I got accused for being stubborn on topics that really is no one’s business but my self. They think because I am defensive in my blog that I am not appreciating people’s negative criticisms towards me. That not only hurt me, but made me question my self. Does this blog represent me as a whole? Or am I steering it in a direction that I want to represent of my self other than what I would do in real life?

Oh Mona, tell us the truth. Why are you REALLY back?

I am such a shallow site owner, and I get FAR too many hits to my site although most Arab bloggers hate my guts, and this morning I checked my social ranking amongst a majority of Palestinian blogs and I was #1! That not only put a smile on my face, but it made me realize that I had no shame in being my self, and non Arabs did not judge me for being an Arab-Palestinian and I am damn proud that a real person who talks about personal every day issues can beat the most powerful political blogs out there and for the world to realize that a Palestinian voice is not represented through politics and culture, but is represented by the person. I can sit here and talk about how much I love my country and its people and everything about a land I never set foot in, but no one can ever take away the fact that I am a human being representing who I am and can realize that cultural/religious/political view points are NOT the solution to the problems of the world. We ARE THE SOLUTION!

Palestine Daily Voices

Blah Blah, Random Thoughts, They said what?

Honestly, I think the biggest thing I have ever regretted doing is telling people about my blog. I really do. I use it as a medium for thoughts and discussions. I wanted a place to write stuff out that bother me or amuse me. The reason my blog is popular because it is so unpredictable. I am unpredictable and my life is too. I wanted it to be a home away from home. People are taking it way too seriously to the point that I lost my identity and I can’t explain this or that to them or the true intention to what I was trying to say. I lost who I really am as a person by a bunch of words that I have written. I liked being a quiet person who barely talked. I was better off. I think I mentioned this a million times that I regretted ever making this blog or writing. It caused far too many problems, and I don’t know what to do. But my biggest problem is I told people I know, and I never knew why. Maybe I wanted people to read about how I really thought or what I would have thought instead. Maybe I just have many view points about a certain matter that I can’t come up with one unless I am sitting alone on my computer thinking about it and making a final judgment of it.

I am just thinking of closing down the site. I think I am also at a point in my life that I really don’t feel like talking about anything personal anymore, and that was the intention of this blog.

Or maybe I need to steer the direction of my writing, but I don’t know how or why I should. I have to think about this more.

Angry, Blah Blah, Random Thoughts, Ranting as usual!

I just got an email from a dedicated visitor and he read my twitter complaints of it being a Monday!

Mitchell said:

Just visited your site and saw the Twitter complaint about Mondays.

http://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Monday
“Monday (pron. IPA: /ˈmʌndeɪ, ˈmʌndi/) is the day of the week between Sunday and Tuesday. It gets its name from the Moon, which in turn gets its name from Mani (Old English Mona)”

Doesn’t that make you feel better? … No? … And it’s probably Tuesday before you check this account, anyway.

That actually made me smile!

Angry, Blah Blah, My taste of Music, Random Thoughts, Ranting as usual!, They said what?, Whatever!

From January till now I managed to save around 3000 dollars more in my bank account after paying the student loans and other bills each month. How did I do it? No friggen clue what so ever, or it seems. I get a middle class income, and I usually spend a lot. I haven’t managed to save much money in the past 2 years at all but I always had back up money saved, but now, I look and say, how? I don’t eat out much and I don’t shop much at all. Also, how I managed to save so much is because I didn’t fucken pay my biggest bill cause I always ignore it!

I wanted to talk about this last month when I actually got my Sears Card bill. I usually shop at Sears, but I am not that great at paying it monthly because I don’t have a monthly payout system through my bank account. So when I do physically go to Sears to pay, it would be like 100 or 200 bucks or whatever. I tend to buy lots of cosmetics and gifts from there. It seemed easy for me and convenient.

What wasn’t convenient was opening up my bills which I tend to ignore. I don’t open up bills that come in the mail. I am like oh, Sears bill came, so I chuck it away.

Well, I decided to open it up last month cause I got sick of it. :lol: So I saw this:

I then started swearing!! I was like what the mother fucking piece of shit is this!! I read it and I was like oh shit. Average interest is 28% interest!!! I was like aaaaaaaaaaaaaahhhhhhhhh.. So I went on the same day and paid 500 bucks right away, and this post is intended to remind me to pay $500 soon and for the next month!

Damn it! DAMN IT!! DAMN YOU BILLS TO HELL! I was saving for nothing..

Blah Blah, Funny, Random Thoughts