Open your arms to change, but don't let go of your values.

I am completely lost. I really am. I don’t feel like my self anymore. I forgot who I am, and what I tried to pursue in life. I keep thinking that no, I want to shape up my destiny. I want to control it, but I can’t. I am just really depressed and very stressed out. It’s not just work, but life in general. I want a change and need a chance so badly and so quickly. I think it is just patience. I lost every ounce of it and it is making me depressed!

Ahh.. I am just going to sleep. I will go to work tomorrow and will say… TGIF! TIGF!!

I got many emails and many post ideas to talk about. Some people emailed me with great questions that needs to be addressed. Well, actually my opinion about some issues need to be addressed, and I just haven’t been motivated to write much. I wanted to write every day about Palestine, but I don’t know if I can today. I have just been feeling sick. Not only that, the room that we were deported to at work has the worst heating problem on earth. It feels like over 30c in here and I complained and I complained, but no one wants to do anything. I am having hard time opening my eyes, and no, I am not physically sick that I can’t walk or talk like some people think. I am just tired and unhappy. I have no joy in life anymore, and I feel lost and confused.

The atmosphere, the unrewarding pointless work here, and the lack of work ethics this place has, is making me sick day after day. Every day I just go in, and just sit there counting the minutes till I leave. Right now I got 29 minutes to go.